Confused...

Me and my friend were both 20 at the time. We had been friends for years, but he only started acting gay since about 18. I hadn't decided my sexuality, but I had thought about it. I didn't mind him touching me, but when he did, he often took it very far, trying to put his hands down my pants, touching my ass, telling me I'm hot and that he'd like to bang me, but I knew he was joking... Or so I thought. One day, he came to my house and did it again. I let him in and he sat down on the chair in front of the TV. He said that I'm hot again.

"Want to lick it?" he said.
"Ha ha ha, I'm OK thanks." I said.

He walked over to me and touched my leg, which is what he usually did. He seemed to be more serious, this time, however. I asked him what he was doing.
"You know what I'm doing..." He replied with a cheeky smile.
"You can do it if you want, I'm used to it." I laughed.

He put his hands down my pants and licked his lips, again, this was common. Then, he moved his hands to the front of my pants. This was the first time he'd done that, and I didn't believe he would actually touch my dick. He hadn't yet, but I wondered if he would.
He actually touched it and said "Mmm, yeah...".

It made me become erect.
He took his hand out and winked at me (again, common).
He told me that he felt the erection of mine start and that he had one too.

"Wanna see my erection?" He laughed.
"Ha ha, do I have a choice?" I replied, laughing a bit.
"Nope." He said, preparing to take his pants down.
"Go on then..." I smiled.

This was the sixth time he'd shown his dick to me, but this was his first time he'd shown me it during an erection.
He winked, and said "Let's see yours...".

I pulled my pants down and he came over to look. He attempted to suck it, and I moved it away.
"C'mon, don't be shy... Don't make me try to kiss you again..." he said.

When he kissed, he'd do it on my chest, so I let him suck my dick to stop him kissing.
He sucked it hard and I made some noises. He sucked harder and I made louder noises. Then he pulled his pants back up and said "I'm done."
"Me too." I replied.

We looked at each other for a few seconds. I turned around to get my pants from the other chair, and he said to stop. He came over to me and tried to kiss me, this time, I didn't protest. In fact, I took my shirt off. He kissed me all over. My friend took his pants off again, but didn't tell me to suck his dick or anything. I got up to get my pants and shirt. Since they were on the floor, I bent down to get them.

My friend sneaked over and was right behind me with an erection. He put his dick right up my ass and I was startled. He said that he wanted me, and I hesitated, then picked up my dropped shirt and pants. I turned round to find him still there. He told me that I was sexy again and instead of me refusing, I kissed him, then we had sex. He gave me a blowjob and I fucked him.

We kissed again, then I lay down for a rest. He teabagged me and I let him. I had never felt so good. Then, I fucked him again, and I came. He swallowed it and then I made him cum. I ate it all. Then, he held me upside-down and he sucked my dick and I sucked his. We fucked late into the night.

The next day, we did it again.

Five years later, we live together and still have sex regularly.