Confused Heart : Part 2

Well its been 6 months and I havent seen Thomas anywhere. Im always looking forward to seeing him, just a glance, a peek, a minute, a second or just a hi or bye thats all i need to get me through my days.

So today is the day of Thomas' Aunts party and I was there of course; but I was helping in the kitchen, so I didnt get to see Thomas for a while.It was 2 am and the party was almost over, I was still in the kitchen helping clean up now. All of a sudden Thomas and his cousin come in to help take out the trash. His cousin is such a dumbass he forgot my name, guess thats what happens when your out of sight out of mind. Then Thomas came in behind him "hi Johnny."

Now I know he just said hi but my body went numb I felt like i was floating, i had to grab tightly onto the counter. It was scary how he effected me like i was under his control, like a puppet and his presence was playing with my heart strings."hi Thomas" I managed to speak softly, lost in thought.

So Thomas and his cousin took out the trash and I followed like a puppy following its owner waiting for a command so i could quickly obey. I felt crazy my mind kept telling my body to stop, but my heart wouldn't listen.

After Thomas took out the trash, "Hey Johnny I was wondering if we could talk alone for a minute?" Thomas asked, I didnt know what to say. "sure" was all i could mumble.

Thomas and I headed to his cousin's room. It was dark and quiet; "What is it you wanted to talk about?" I asked nervously. "Well i just wanted to just be alone me and you, come sit on the bed with me" Thomas replied.

I nervously walked, well stumbled in the dark towards the bed. Thomas just sat there with this sexy smile on his face as he looked at me from head to toe.He must of liked what he saw because he started to giggle; damn i was liking what i was seeing too. All of a sudden my body moved on its own and touched his thigh; slowly it moved up his thigh towards his big bulge. Thomas dick was rock hard, I must of been shocked because"Im sorry I was dancing with this lady with big tits" was his quick reply.

I unzipped his jeans; pulled his big cock out and ,started to slowly stroke his big 11 inch dick up and down. It was getting so hard, I started to stroke it faster and i could tell he was loving it; he was moaning "Oh yeah baby faster... don't stop, this is the best handjob ever."

I put my mouth on his dick and started sucking it. I was having the time of my life; this was my first time and it was a hell of an experience. I started sucking harder on his dick, he started pushing my head down onto his dick causing me to deep throat it.Thomas was screaming so loud; all of a sudden he started face fucking me and when I say that shit was good I mean it was good.

"Lets fuck! Do you have a condom?" I asked. Thomas was so slick "Of course I do anytime for you" he replied. I bended over the dresser and he came up from behind and slid his 11 inch cock in my arse slowly.It hurt so bad of course being a virgin, Thomas put the whole 11 inches in and just stayed in my arse.He must of felt I was ready because he started to slowly fuck my arse. The pain started to go away and was replaced with pure pleasure.

He started to go faster and harder,"Oh do you like that" Thomas whispered in my ear. "Oh don't stop keep it going... oh harder HARDER" I screamed; I hoped nobody heard me.Then I got tired of him fucking me and wanted to take control; I pushed Thomas onto the bed, on his back and started to ride him. I bounced up and down like a kid on a pogo stick. It was fun. Next thing i know Thomas rolls us over and starts fucking the living crap out of me. All of a sudden i fell something warm in my arse as he cums the condom burst.

He gets up and says "thanks for them fun but I gotta go" "hold up we just fucked" I said. "So what, it was fun but come on who wouldn't want me" he said with a huge grin. I got up; got dressed and pushed past him and ran crying all the way home.

When i got home i laid on my bed crying. Of course he didn't love me i was just so easy lay to him; can't believe i wasted my first time on such a jerk.He made me feel so special, like I was all he wanted and needed. How could i be so stupid?