Confused Heart : Part 5

I was woken up by the door bell ringing. I didn't want to get up but something made me second think that. I slowly got up with my shorts on. As I slowly made my way downstairs, thoughts of last night began to fill my head. How I thought of Thomas and how I touched myself with thoughts filled with him. I opened the door lost in thought, so I didn't even check to see who it was. I almost wanted to close the door right in his face, once I saw who it was. It was Thomas standing there with his over confident grin. He was wearing black sweats, a black shirt which hung tightly to his well toned musclar body. He had on a grey sweat jacket and running shoes.

"What do you want?" I asked with an attitude.

"I was just taking my morning jog and thought why not stop by. Is there something wrong for a friend to check up on their friend." He spoke still maintaining his cocky grin.

"Oh so were friends now." I said closing the door in his face, yet his hand quickly stopped me and he pushed his way into my house. I was shocked that he really had something to say.

"I didn't invite you in jerk." I said closing the door.

"Look buddy who was that guy you were with? Were you two on a date?" He asked with one eyebrow raised.

"Why does it matter to you? Were friends remember." I said sarastically which was a bad idea. He pushed me against the wall with his hands gripping my waist. I forgot how I longed for his hands to be on. I was beginning to get hard, but I tried my best to control myself.

"Look I care for you a lot, but I don't want everyone to know." He said with an embarrassed look on his face. He must of have been shy to tell me that, so to play it off, he leaned in and began to kiss me. The kiss sent tingles all down my spine and before I knew it my hands wrapped around his neck. My hands slide down his back as his hands pulled me closer to him. I was falling for him all over again, but sudden all the memories of that night filled my head. I pulled away from and ran into the kitchen which he followed.

"What's wrong?" He asked taking one step towards me which caused me to take one step back.

"Look, don't think you can come say all this sweet shit to me and I would suddenly forget the shit you said to me that night. I can't believe you would even show your face to me." I said tears rolling down my cheeks which made me turn around. He walked up behind me and wrapped his arms around me. I wanted to pull away from him but it was something about his touch that just began to heal all the pain he caused me. He leaned towards my neck and began kissing it.

I was just about to pull away, but he moved towards my ear and whispered, "I know I fucked up but please let me make it up to you." With that he turnt around and headed to the door. "Please just come to my football game tonight and I prove how much you mean to me."

"If I mean so much to you why make me go through so much shit!" I yelled. I didn't have to look to know my words struck him to the core. It took him a minute to respond,"I was just in denial of how much you actually meant to me, yet see you with that guy it felt like I lost half of me. I know you don't believe me, but I always had a crush on you but I could never admit it to myself. Now I am willing to admit it to you and the whole world. Just please come tonight." and with that he left.

I had a lunch date with Adam today which I wasn't look forward to at all. I just sat at the kitchen table stuned and numb to the core. I didn't know if I should trusht Thomas since Adam was so good to me unlike Thomas. I was snapped back into reality by the sound of my phone ringing and it was Adam.

"Hey Adam." I answered trying to act cheerful for him.

"Hey sexy I am at the door, but instead of going out I brought lunch." He said with confidence.

I was lost I couldn't believe I have been sitting in the kitchen for two hours since it was now 12:00 and when I woke up it was 9:45. I hadn't got dress or anything which I regretted since I haven't let Adam see me like this, but I didn't feel like getting dress."

I opened the door and there was Adam standing at the door with skinny jeans, a black shirt and brown leather jacket. He was carrying a big bag of food which he came in and sat on the table. Before I let this lunch begin, I had to tell him about Thomas inviting me to his game tonight. I didn't want to have any secrets between us since I believed he could be the one.

"Listen Adam. Thomas came by today and invited me to his game tonight and I think I am going to go." I said standing in the kitchen doorway while he was at the sink. Adam knew everything about me and Thomas which made me a little nervous.

Adam turned around and the look he gave me made me feel stupid. His stare was like I was a freak or something. "Really your going to go to the man who left you looking like shit after you gave him your virgin." He said with a voice that made me feel belittled.

"Look Adam he is still my friend well kind of. I just want to give hiim one more chance." I whispered.

"Did you forget your meeting family tonight." He said turning back around.

"Can I reschedule that." I asked already knowing the answer.

"NO! Infact just fucking forget. Go be with Thomas since I am not good enough for. I can't believe your so fucking unbelievable." He said heading toward the door. I tried to stop him but he was beyond pissed. He went out the front door making sure to slam it when he left.

I couldn't believe the guy I was truly in love with had just left me here standing all alone. I was confused. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to give Thomas a chance, but was it worth risking my relationship with Adam. I called Adam which he didn't answer and told him I be there, yet I didn't know if I would. I headed upstairs to go find something to wear and finishing thinking of my decision.

I went into my room and sat on my bed. I called Tania and then three way and called my friend Josh I didn't talk to them long. I just told them to meet me at 7:00, for two reasons. One, I needed outside opinions and two, I wanted to be around my friends. I knew one of the guys would be upset but I have to listen to my heart and my heart picked...