Crazy in love

My name is Daniel and this is my love story.

I have known Mario since we were kids and I considered him by best friend. I don’t even remember from what age I met him but it was definitely in grade school. I remember our moms picking us up and dropping us off at school and as we got older at the mall and the football games. We would always do everything together, like going to the movies, playing video games, and my family would even invite him on our family vacations.

During middle school I remember being in the school auditorium and a play was going on. Near the end, Mario, who was in the play, was holding up a lantern and his arm and biceps just got to me and all I could think about was how sexy he looked. That was the first moment I can remember me looking at a guy in a sexual way. I hadn’t even thought of girls in that way so I knew something in me was different.
Over the next few months I would go to different places and I would keep looking at guy’s arms and armpits and I was really becoming attracted to them. My friend Jonathan was at my house and he was laying in the living room playing playstation and I kept looking at his butt and the rest of his body. With this I knew it wasn’t just Mario but guys in general. I kept these feelings to myself and now at the age of 18 I was well aware that I was into guys and have been with a few.

Even though I would look at guys walking down the street and around school, no guy got to me as much as Mario. Over the years he had really turned into a really hot latin stud. I think the color of his skin and his body type was what physically attracted me to him the most, but definitely it was his personality that just made me fall head over heels for him.

Every time I saw Mario, I would melt inside and I became all warm. I wasn’t just attracted to him; I was in love with him. On the trees in the backyard I had etched in D loves MF for Daniel loves Mario Fuentes. I loved saying his name and I would daydream about him all the time. I sometimes even hated myself for allowing me to fall in love with my best friend.

I knew I would never get the chance to be with Mario. He was just too sexy and too perfect to be gay and to want to be with me. Not that I looked bad; I was one of the best looking guys in school, but that he just didn’t feel for me in the way I felt for him.
Mario was going out with Victoria Richardson, the hottest girl in the school. I hated her with a passion and sometimes just wished for her to get run over by a truck. Maybe not that bad but at least for her to move to China or something like that. Walking down the hallway at school, I would see her holding his hand and making out with him and I would always feel two things. Jealousy because I wanted it to be me locking lips with him and anger because he was with her and not me. I had just come out that I was gay with a few people but I didn’t want to tell Mario because I felt like I would lose his friendship. A few months went by again, and it seemed like coming out was working in my favor at school. Mario of course found out through others and then everyone knew.

All of the hot chicks in school were my best friends and most of the guys wanted to be my friend, which I knew was to use me to get to them. This helped me though because I would only help out guys who helped me out if you know what I mean. Yet sometimes while fucking a guy I would have to think it was Mario fucking me or I wouldn’t be into it and I felt like I was taking it out on the other guys, that Mario wasn’t interested in me.

I started to live very openly then but I still didn’t act feminine or flamboyant. A lot of the guys stayed cool with me for that reason and that opened even more doors for me in a sexual way. I always threw the best parties at my house since I came from a wealthy family and everytime my parents were out of the country I would throw a bash. The parties were always full and everyone would drink, smoke and use all parts of the house to fuck in.

Life seemed as if it was going perfectly. I had all the friends I could hope for, sex with the hottest guys, even if they were straight and huge parties. My parents had bought me a BMW, but still I didn’t have Mario and that made me unhappy. At school, my locker was right next to his and everytime he said wuz up? I just drowned in my emotions and starred at his smile. When he walked away I would look at his ass and just wished that it was mine. I would see him walk towards me and just imagine what his boner looked like. I was definitely obsessed with Mario and that just kept making things worse for me.

The end of the school year was coming up and I had invited all the baseball, football and basketball players to my house to party. I had invited the swimmers, the cheerleaders and even hot college females, for my friends to enjoy. For the next few weeks, my party was the talk of the school and I couldn’t wait for it. The day before I went to buy everything we needed, went home and fell asleep.

The day of the party came along and the DJ was there, drinks were ready and so was the food. People started to arrive around 8pm to help me out and around 9, the party really began. Mario arrived with the blonde bitch, Victoria, and I was disgusted as always to see her. They sat on one of the sofas and everytime I came around, I would see them making out. This just drove me nuts and I felt revengeful. I went to Gabriel, which is Mario’s cousin and one of the schools basketball players. I said hey, can you help me out with something upstairs. He followed me into my room and I locked the door. I threw him onto the bed and started kissing his neck and rubbing his dick. He was stoned and drunk and no one ever had the balls to tell me no because if they did, they knew they would never get into my parties again, and being at my parties was a social status. I ripped his clothes off and took mine off and started to blow him off. I was feeling such rage that I sucked him hard until the point where his dick was almost turning purple. I then got on top of him and rode him like a cowboy. Still I felt pissed off and I took it out on Gabriel. I bounced hard and fast until he came inside me. When he did, I just threw him to the side, cleaned up and went downstairs to my party.

Everyone was having a blast and again Mario is against the wall with the whore grinding all over him. Like I mentioned before, seeing him with someone other than me, just killed me inside and I just wanted to take it out on whoever came along. Justin was the head of the football team and was known around school as “longshot.” That wasn’t from the way he threw but instead from his famously long and thick cock. I knew I had just fucked Gabriel, but I didn’t care, I felt the urge to take my feelings out on another guy. I called longshot over and said, bro come upstairs. Pretty much all the guys knew what going upstairs meant for me and he obliged.

This time I went into my parent’s room and on their king sized bed. I didn’t even have to tell Justin what to do and as soon as I closed the door, he started rubbing his dick to get it ready for me. I didn’t even suck him off and just went straight to riding that monster cock. When his load was spent, I just said good job and went back downstairs. I have to admit that my attitude was cocky but I cared about nothing.

By now, it was around midnight and everyone was drunk and stoned under the moonlit night. I looked for Mario to see if he was having a good time, but I couldn’t find him anywhere. I went to the fucking bitch, Victoria, and asked where Mario was. She said that he had went upstairs to use the bathroom, then came down pissed and told her he was going to take a drive for a little bit. I wanted to know what had happened to him, so I called his cell.
Hello, he asnswered. Mario where are you? What happened? Why did you leave? I don’t want to talk about it and don’t really feel like talking to you right now, he said. What the fuck is wrong with you? I asked.

With me? He replied in a really mad voice. Whats wrong with you? I go upstairs to look for you since we really hadn’t hung out at your house and I opened the door and there you are riding on some dudes dick, and then my cousin tells me that he did you too, the same night! What the fuck is that? That’s dirty dude!

I was pissed and responded, I do whatever the hell I want and its not like you care, all you care about is Victoria and I hung up. I didn’t know what was happening to me and I knew that Mario was right when he said that what I was doing was dirty. The hard part though, was that I couldn’t control myself. Everytime I lost it over how I felt about Mario, I just ended up having to fuck some dude.

Mario never came back to my house that night everything just jumped to that Monday at school. Everyone was talking about my party and how they couldn’t wait for the next one. I saw Justin “longshot” walking down the hall and he grabbed his crotch while looking at me and smiled. I ignored him and just kept walking, knowing that he enjoyed what I did to him. I kept walking towards my locker and I see Mario. He looks at me with a disgusted look on his face and turns around. I grabbed him by the shoulder and said, Hey. Can you come to my house later so we can talk, because I know how you feel about me right now and I really want to talk because you are the only person who can help me out. He agreed and said that he would come after track practice.

I hear a knock at my door and I imagined that it was Mario. I opened the door and my heart jumped to see him with his wifebeater and running shorts. I loved his body and just seeing him like that made my day. I told him to come inside and I glanced down and took a peak at the form his cock was making on his shorts. We go to the living room and have a seat on the sofa and I tell him to go first so that I could be aware of what he wanted to say.

Look Daniel, Mario said. I don’t know what is wrong with you but I worry about you. Over the last few months since you came out, you have been smoking a lot, getting drunk all the time, hanging out with people who you used to not like and now you are fucking everything in sight. You cant be doing that dude. You know people are going to like you because you have money, throw your parties and they want to be a part of that, but I’m supposed to be your true friend, and you don’t even pay much attention to me anymore.

I was dumbfounded by what he said. What do you mean I don’t pay attention to you anymore? I call you so many times a day, I look at you and talk to you at every chance I get. I wait for you to walk into class everyday and if I don’t see you, I feel sad. But you, you are always with that bitch, Victoria, going out with her all the time, running to her house to fuck her and then don’t even talk to me as much as before. He looks sad and said, Ive been like that with her because you’ve been the way you’ve been, but I don’t even like her that much. I was shocked because Victoria would always say that they were meant for each other and how they were going to marry one day.

I don’t know what to say, I responded. I have mixed emotions and I know that im wrong, but I cant help it. I look at you with Victoria
and I feel like crap and feel like the only way to get over it is by taking it out on guys and I feel like crap when I see you guys because I, I, I love you, Mario.

I had done it! I told him how I felt.

I have loved you for years, but I know that “we” would never happen.

He just looked straight at me with a blank stare and asked me, are you sure? Is that how you really feel?

Yea, I said. I’m jealous of her being the one you have sex with and make out with and I wish it was with me. I’ve fallen really hard for you and I don’t know what id do without you in my life. You are perfect to me in so many ways. Mario grabs the back of my head, moves his head forward, closes his eyes as if to kiss me and boom!
My alarm clock wakes me up.

I was sweating and my heart was pumping. I looked at my alarm clock.

It was Saturday, the day of my party and none of this had happened.

I was still in bed.

I hadn’t told Mario how I felt and I hadn’t fucked his cousin or longshot the day before.
My dream made me think though, and I knew that what I was doing the last few months was wrong. I had been fucking around too much, and I was jealous with Mario, and I knew that me being in love with him was affecting me.

The dream stayed on my mind for the rest of the evening and I didn’t even drink or smoke. The party started and everyone was enjoying themselves. Mario and I sat on the couch laughing and talking for a while and he told me that he had something to tell me. Victoria wasn’t there today, and that made me happy and I had no idea what it was that Mario wanted to talk to me about. For the rest of the evening, that was all I could think about. All night Mario was staring at me and he would smile, and I would just fall more in love with him.

Even with my dream, I couldn’t stop loving him, even though I knew he would never love the way I did with him.
Later on, Mario was smoking and he started to drink a lot and was talking to the guys from the football team. I knew I had to devote some time to the rest of my guests, and that he was fine so I kept walking around. About an hour passed and I was outside, with some of the girls, talking about the guys. I was so horny and just kept thinking about Mario and what it was that he was going to tell me, so I headed back inside to look for him. I look for a while and nothing, he is nowhere in sight. I was sure he was there because his car was parked inside the garage and he would always stay to help me clean up.

I go upstairs and into my room, and some guy was fucking a chick so I kept going. I look in two more rooms but they were empty. I didn’t know that to think but I kept checking. I got to the fourth room and the door was open, but the bathroom door was closed with the light on. As I got closer to the door I heard thumping, slaps and moans. I hear Mario’s voice from inside saying, oh yea! That feels good! My heart sank and I couldn’t resist and I just had to open the door. I got my key from my pocket, placed it in the door handle and turned the knob. As soon as I opened the door I see Mario sitting on the toilets top, with Julian; one of the schools girly gays, riding his dick!

Time just froze for me and I didn’t know what to do. I was sad and furious at the same time and I felt like screaming but nothing came out of my mouth. When Mario saw me, he pushed Julian off of him and got up and yelled, Daniel!

I was still in shock, I felt like my life had ended right there and then. Tears rolled down my eyes and I couldn’t believe what I had seen. I knew that I would be pissed If I ever saw him fuck Victoria, but with a guy! I didn’t know what to do. This had to be a nightmare.

I had to be dreaming again.

I couldn’t have seen Mario fucking a guy!

I turned around and ran out of the room. I hear Mario yell, Daniel!

But I just kept going without looking back. I ran downstairs, got into my beemer, and sped off. I was thinking of so many things and even contemplating suicide, but after a while I somehow managed to calm down.