Crush force fucks me! Dear Diary

This chapter will contain Alex’s word document, this chapter will also be part of the storyline.
*Due to privacy concern, I had to take out some private stuff (eg. Phone number, addresses and other stuff that might invade privacy. Some logs were shortened, some were taken out. These are due to privacy stuff.

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It didn’t take a long time for me to fall asleep in Alex’s arms, and it also didn’t take a long time for me to wake up. I was on top of Alex with his dick inside me. The room was lit by the navy blue curtain. I couldn’t figure out what time was it, so I reached down the floor, grabbed my pants and pulled out my iPhone. Friday, 7.14PM.

*Wow, did I really sleep that long?* I said to myself.

I didn’t know what to do next, my ass was burning up from Alex’s fucking, so I figured I should stand up and do something. I fired up his laptop which was on hibernate, logged it on using the same pass. I checked my email that contains 1,496 unread messages, sent by yahoo, apple, facebook, and Microsoft. After checking my email, I browsed Alex’s laptop to see what kind of stuff he has there. I went inside to different folders and saw pictures with friends, parties, music and school work, I wasn’t surprised with the 14GB gay porn folder. I closed all the opened windows, and was about to shut it down until I saw that file again. The file that I opened once out of curiosity, now I wanted to open it again to read the whole document. I opened the file, gave it all the requirements it need, and it opened. Again, it said “The author has marked the document as final.”

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Log 1: May 19, 2010

August Rutherford
Born: February 14, 1992
Gender: Male
Ethnicity: Kiwi/Aussie?
Hometown: Auckland, New Zealand

I don’t know what to say really, all I know is that this will be a log document. I don’t call it spying or stalking, I just need to store information about this cute guy at school when I first saw him. Nothin’ really much to say about him.

His hair colour is light brown, he has bright blue eyes, those pink pale lips and that half cute smile. These are the things about him that makes me want to fuck him badly. I have been hiding deeply in the closet quite a while now, but I don’t want to expose myself to my other mates.

Fuck football, its not a great sport, but it does help me waste time after school. I want to try to have a relationship with a guy, I think this new guy can be mine.

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Log 2: May 20, 2010

I haven’t planned anything yet on how I can have him alone. Some men sites says I should know the whole of one person to get his trust. Bullying has been part of my life, I am willing to take the risk to lose this attitude, its time for me to grow up and fuck this guy!!

*Note: Things cannot buy one persons trust

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Log 3: May 21, 2010

Its fucking Friday. I need to get him fast, fuckin Matts getting him too quick. Fuck Matt, he’s a smart guy, I know he’s gay and he’s up for Aug’s fuckin dick. Why does everybody have to praise Matt for his high grades and “extraordinary” singing talent. He’s nothing but a load of crap. Why does Matt always chase the good guys, fuck him.

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Log 4: May 22, 2010

AN EPIC FAIL, no plans, no Aug. At least I’ve asked some students about Aug.

Interests, Likes and dislikes:
-Music (mainly Pop, Rock and Alternative)
-Singing
-Playing the guitar
-Photography (still life, nature)
-Modelling
-Sciences (mainly chemistry)
-He likes rocky road ice cream
-Down for vanilla and strawberry
-Likes pasta (lasagne)
-Square Enix games (kingdom hearts + final fantasy series)

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Log 5: May 21, 2010

Everythings going smoothly, I have acquired some of his interests and likes. Things that I’ve asked some people about Aug:

Why did August chose to stay here?

Jack: “August? He’s a transferee from New Zealand, didn’t talk about life there. He seems to be a happy person”

Geoff: “I think he’s an open person, he’s straight but he’s gay-friendly. I know that myself because I’m gay”

Nina: “Gawd I become horny whenever I see him”

Matt: “He told me he knows how to play the piano. He started playing when he was 7. He’s such a freaking talented person”

Serah: “Ahh, August? Why he transferred here? Well I’ll tell you the whole story later in lunch”

Can you tell me something about August’s life back in NZ?

Serah: “August and his brother wanted to transfer here because of his mom. He was actually born in California, hard to believe right? Well anyway, his father died when he was 7, lived in New Zealand for a while with his brother, then went back here. None of my business why, but if I were him, I’d feel really depressed. He knows how to play instruments like guitar and drums, but guess what’s the odd one – the piano. He started playing the piano after his father died, because his father had music sheets and August wanted to hear how they sound, so he took lessons, same for the guitar, but he tutored himself to play the drums. He told me that teenagers in his school in NZ weren’t that friendly to him, so he was pretty much a loner. I feel really bad for him. Alex, promise me you won’t bully him like you do to new students?

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Log 6: May 22, 2010

Hearing those comments and stories about Aug was so sad. I was surprised though.

August lives with his mom and older brother. He plays the guitar, drums and piano. His father died when he was 7. He was alone back in NZ.

I need to make contact with him asap. I need to show him how horny I am, so stuff his school account with gay porn.

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Log 7: May 24, 2010

I saw him today, God he was cute and hot!! Gives me a hard boner whenever he passes by me. Why the hell am I so depressed? Oh yeah, because I’ve wanted to have a relationship with a guy. How stupid of me, now he has 3 fuckin detentions because of that fuckin gay pics.

I’m still scared to make contact with him, so I have to know whats his number, and what applications does he have on his iPhone. That Matt, always fucks with me. I saw him installed some application with GPS stuff on Aug’s iPhone. Wow, speaking of iPhone, I don’t have one. Fuck you Nokia N97.

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Log 8: May 25, 2010

I didn’t see him today. Have to make plans this Friday. I have to avoid the team and football training so I could steal Aug alone. He always go straight home everyday. Of course wouldn’t I be accused of kidnapping? And stalking? Well what does he know, he’s just a guy.

PLANS FOR FRIDAY AFTER SCHOOL:

-Avoid team (tell them I bought something in ebay and I need to pick it up somewhere)
-Wait for Aug to go home
-Weather forecast: Rainy (get car ready)
-dad has business trip on Friday til Wednesday, brother going home late
-Bring Aug straight at my place after school
-Equipment ready (cuffs and gun?)

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Log 9: May 26, 2010

Two more days til Friday. Im a bit nervous but I have to get him forcefully, even if he doesn’t want to be with me, I will have to keep on trying.

If ever he wanted to be with me, and maybe someday open some of my stuff in my laptop, August, if you’re reading this, I want you to know that I will always love you no matter what. I may have discovered something from your life that affected me as well, but I also want you to know something about me. Here’s a summary: I know how to cook, also play the guitar and sing. I’m quite a gamer myself, and I like doing things rough. For the sex part, I’m always on top. But we have one thing in common. My mom died on a car accident when I was 10, until now I’m still holding our memories together. So I know how you feel about your dad. I know its hard to lose a parent, it may have taken a lot of faith from you, but that doesn’t mean your life just stops there. I love you Aug, no matter what.

Alex –out.

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A tear fell down from my right eye.

“You ok Aug?” Alex said, while embracing me from the back.

I turned around and hugged him tightly, and cried more.

“I feel like such a noob”
“Don’t worry Aug”

I continued crying. I was hurt inside. I was touched. I was enlightened. I didn’t know a person like Alex could make me feel free. I`ve grieved for my dad since he died. And I kept that inside me for 11 years, and now, knowing that Alex’s mom died as well, I feel like I have someone I can count on, and relate to.

“Aug, I want you to have something” he whispered.

I looked at him straight on his beautiful pair of emerald green eyes. He grabbed something from the shelf. It was a box, a small steel box. He let go of me and broke eye contact.

“I want you to have this”

He opened the box, and there, a ring that was shone by the navy blue curtain surprised me. It was the ring from Final Fantasy VIII that Squall wore.

“Alex… where did you get that?”
“I got it custom-made on a jewellery shop. You know this ring right?”
“Yeah, this is griever from final fantasy 8. Is this supposed to be an engagement ring?”
“Engagement? That word’s not in my book. I wanna call it our dating ring”

I giggled, while sadness faded away. He grabbed the ring and put it on my right ring finger.

“Alex.. I”

He lifted up his right hand, and I saw the same ring he was wearing on his ring finger.

“I love you Alex” I whispered.

He hugged me tightly, and I did the same. I cried once again with tears of joy.

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Actually, this should be the end of the story, but a lot happened after this. If you guys still want me to continue writing this story, please leave a comment. Again, I’m really sorry for shortening the diary, Alex doesn’t want to show the public some of its parts.