Crush force fucks me! Love in Music

If you haven't yet read the previous parts, click my name August Rutherford, then read the other parts of this story. I know I'm such a bitch, but you don't have to tell me that. Sorry for the late post.

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A tear fell down from my eyes, I pulled back and broke the kiss.

“What’s wrong?” Alex asked.
“I’m sorry, I- , I just wanna go home right now.”
“I understand”

He hugged me, I cried more. Brad went inside the room.

“Hey, ahh, Ima go now”

Alex just nodded. I felt a kiss on my left cheek, it was Brad, trying to say goodbye.

“Take care Aug” He smiled and left.

I stood up, and got fully dressed. I grabbed my phone, and called Matt to see if he was going to answer, but he didn’t.

“Don’t worry ‘bout it” Alex said.

I remained quiet, and headed downstairs. I went to the living room, and sat next to Cyrus. Of course I understood why he didn’t talked to me, it’s because he was giving me time and space to pick myself up.
It didn’t take much time for Alex to take a shower and get dressed. We headed outside, got on his red shiny car, and sat. He started the engine. I buckled my seatbelt, and he did his as well. We remained quite while he drove me home. We arrived at my place in less than 5 minutes. I unbuckled my seatbelt, and got off.

“Thanks Alex, I`ll see you on Monday”
“Take care dude”

He left as I walked towards the door. I grabbed the knob and opened it, no one was there. I headed to my room upstairs, and got myself undressed. I went to the bathroom and turned the tap for both hot and cold water on. I stared at the water, thinking about what happened so far, answering questions in queues, and what do I do next. The water filled the bath tub, and I went in. As I scrubbed myself, I quickly thought of Alex. I couldn’t do anything but to blame him for what happened between me and Matt.

Matt’s a good guy, I like him as a friend, but he was my first friend when I came here in New York, he was my buddy. After taking a bath, I got dressed and went downstairs, turned on the media center, and just played whatever song in my playlist. I went to the kitchen to grab a bite, when suddenly a knock on the door disturbed me.

I went to get the door, opened it, and was very surprised who it was standing in front of me. It was Matt. I wasn’t expecting him to come to my place, but it made me happy.

“Matt?”
“Sorry about earlier”
“Don’t be” I said, but feeling hurt inside.

Awkward silence broke our conversation. He was looking down, probably taking back the things he said to me. I noticed that he was cute and hot when he’s down. God I love his hazel puppy eyes, and his fluffy dark brown hair, it was like, I was feeling that I must have him. My dick slowly got hard while I was thinking of him getting fucked.

“So, uh…” he said.

I pulled him to me and kissed him on his lips. I put my tongue inside his mouth, I was so horny. He pushed me and broke the kiss.

“What the fuck’s wrong with you?!”
“I’m fucking horny dammit!”
“Did I ask?!”

I was puzzled and confused. Then I realised that he did just asked what’s wrong with me, so I just smiled and laughed it off, and he did the same.

“Fuck Matt, you got me thinking there for a sec, but seriously I wanna fuck you.”
“Well Aug, yeah I had feelings for you but –“
“Wait, you HAD feelings for me?!”
“Yes, but it only took me a few days to realize that we’re just going to stay as friends so I got myself a boyfriend to dump my feelings on”

I was struck by our conversation, I didn’t know what I was feeling: confused, in love, horny?!

“Matt, I know that you like me judging by the way you look at me, but I didn’t know you had feelings for me”
“I know.. how silly of me.. Well anyway I gotta go, if you still want to be our lead or guitar you know what to do”
“Wait!”
“Hm?”
“Who’s your boyfriend?!”
“Ahh, hmm, you know Keet, keif, keift, Keith *god that’s hard to pronounce* the emo guy?”
“Yeah the quiet innocent guy who thinks he’s being surrounded by jerks”
“Yep, that one.. so uhh, I`ll see you in rehearsal”

I nodded, closed the door, and turned off the system. I didn’t know what I was doing, but I went into my room and took off my clothes.

“So Matt likes emo guys, I`ll giv`im emo”

I opened my closet to spot something black and red. I took a red, not too bright but a dimmer red shirt, and pulled out a faded black straight cut jeans and black leather nike shoes. I went inside the bathroom to find some of my mom’s black hair dye. So I spent an hour and a half to do all the hair dying, that includes watching tutorials on youtube saying put Vaseline first on parts near the hair so the colour will not stain on your skin. Anyway I finished off by showering my self, and poof! I just got myself a new look. I was pretty sure that no one would recognize me. I dried myself off, and went back in my room and put on the emo clothes. I felt like something was missing, so I grabbed my black hoodie with abstract designs on it which I made, and put it on as well. I looked in front of the mirror and was surprised how I changed from being the nice guy to emo, not really.

I was about to get out of the house when someone knocked on the door.

“Just a sec!” I yelled.

I grabbed my sexy calvin klein cologne and sprayed it all over me, it was musky and strong. After finishing up, I went to answer the door, and opened it.

“Heyyyy, is Aug.. August?” Alex was starstruck.
*sigh* “What do you want?”
“Wow, I ahh, umm, thought I stop by to ask if you’re doing fine.. Fuck you’re hot”
“Yeah I’m doing fine, now are you gonna go now or what?”
“You look hotter with your hair black, you look like a sexy stud from hell!”
“Whatever, so you just gonna stand there? I need to go”
“Where to?”
“School”
“Why?”
“Rehearsal”
“Can I give you a lift?”
“No, I`ll walk by myself so people could get horny when I pass by them”

Alex laughed. I touched my back pocket to see if I got my wallet then tapped on my right pocket to feel my phone if I have my with me, and yes it was, so I got out of the house and closed the door and locked it. I walked out and passed Alex’s car.

“Hey Aug, aren’t you going with me?”
“No, I don’t want to go to bareback mountain”
“No! I’m giving you a lift”
“Save it for someone who cares”

He grabbed my arm tightly and forced me to his direction.

“Ow! that hurts! Let go!”
“What the hell’s wrong with you?!”
“Let go you bitch!”
“Hey I’m your boyfriend, you should respect me!”
“Boyfriend?! I mean c’mon, just because you fucked me it doesn’t mean that you’re already my boyfriend, besides, that was just one night, and I still think you’re a jerk-jock, and I don’t have feelings for you. Oh and keep in mind that that night, I was drunk so uhh, fuck you!”

He slowly let go of me with an angry look on his face.

“Alright, if this is how you want it, fine”

I turned around and walked away. I walked for 30 minutes to reach the school. There, I walked for another 2 minutes to reach the theatre. I saw a couple of students that were already in the band, and a few more other people that were involved in the performance.

“Woah dude! Did you just come back from hell or what?!” Trent said.
“Actually yeah, and I’m here to fire up the band” *wink*
“Well good luck dude, the e-guitar’s in the green room, Matt’s there as well”
“Shots thanks”

Trent’s the drummer in the band, he’s always full of energy and always talks about sex and hotness of a person. He’s 16, and good looking, but he’s straight, so I wouldn’t tap him. Matt’s a different person, of course he may be a better singer than me, I still want to get the lead, but play the guitar as well. So enough talk about people.

Anyway, I went inside the greenroom and found Matt crossing out people who didn’t make it.

“Do I start now?” I said in a sexy voice.
“Who the fuck – August?”
“Umm yeah”
“How`d you get a makeover so fast? I mean wow, where’s that look? From hell? You’re smokin hot!”
“Can we just get on with it?”
“You mean sexually or.. Nah just kiddin.. Ok so what do you wanna do?”
“Guitar and lead”
“Ok, grab the guitar and we’ll meet on stage”
“Sure”

I was quite nervous as I didn’t know what I was going to play and sing. Matt walked out of the room and yelled at people to get organised. I picked up the electric Ibanez guitar and got the mono plug. I went on stage and saw Trent already setting up the drum, and this guy I haven’t talked to – Vincent, who was always quiet and shy. So I went towards Vincent and grabbed the amplifier next to him.

“Hey Vince, sup”

He just nodded. So I placed myself on center stage and set up the guitar, tested it and worked.

“Ok August, what song are you gonna perform?”
“Can I ask Serah to play with us just one time?”
“Yep, Serah! Can you play a song with them please?” Matt yelled across the theatre.