Football Love: Part 5

How could John do this to me? I thought he loved me. Of course it had to happen because no one that good looking has good intentions. I literally feel my heart breaking as I walk down the steps of the museum. Tears are covering my eyes and the night cool air brushes my face but I can’t feel it. How could I have been so stupid to believe that the hottest guy wants me? After everything I been through happy endings aren’t always what I get. I should have seen this coming. The college is about five miles away from the museum and I had to walk in tears the whole way back.

Part 5

Earlier that day

My eyes slowly open as I feel strong but yet gentle hands running up and down my back. I smile and dig my face into John’s neck. I moan as John’s fingers circle around my hole. “Well good morning to you too” I say as I kiss his chin and quickly burry my face in his neck. John’s chuckles “How’d you sleep?” John’s manly tone echoes through the room. I moan again as his finger slides inside my hole. “You really expect me to respond” I say almost out of breath. “Well I was hoping to give you a lesson on a quarterback sneak attempt this morning” John says.

I look up into his eyes ignoring the pleasure his fingers are giving me. I just started laughing at his horrible line to be sexy. “What is so funny?” John says as he pulls out his finger and tries to maintain a serious face. After a few seconds of me laughing at him John starts laughing himself “That’s going to cost you” John says in between laughs.

John quickly gets on top of me and starts tickling me and I begin to struggle and laugh some more. “What’s so funny?” John says in a playful tone as he tickles me for a while. John stops and lifts himself up in the bed with his hands. John’s hands are at both sides of my head and he just looks at me with those blue eyes.

With my right hand I gently rub John’s left strong forearm. As I continue my rub I turn my head and place small kisses at the same spot while looking up at John. “Baby I love it when you look at me like that” John’s tone is full of lust. I smile at him but keep my lips close to his left forearm. John then starts to descend and I know he wants to kiss me. We were brushing each other’s lips about to kiss when my phone rang.

I don’t know why but my phone just killed the mood that we were in. it’s almost as bad as Monica walking in here and catches John on top of me. Although by this time Monica might not be surprised at all if she caught us making out half naked in my bed. “Your phone has been ringing all morning with the same number” John says while reaching over for my phone.

“It’s that same number again I didn’t want to answer it seeing that it’s your phone” John turns the screen in my direction so I can see the number. My heart starts racing faster as the number sinks into my brain. I quickly take the phone from John and turn it off. I didn’t want to answer because I know who it is and I don’t want to expose John to that person.

John looks at me puzzled. “Does it have to do with something from your mom?” John asks as he spoons me from behind. I just stay silent and very still. “You can talk to me you know, if you want to” John’s tone is soft. “One day I’ll tell you but not today it’s just that I can’t” I say holding onto John’s forearm that’s wrapped around my chest. “I’ll be here when you’re ready” John kisses the back of my neck and hugs me a bit tighter.

It was a Saturday morning and we had all morning to ourselves. Both John and I slept for a little while longer. The next thing I know John is kissing my lips softly “Hey baby I have to go. We have practice before the ceremony tonight” I try to wake up but my eyes just won’t adjust. “Are you sure I can’t convince you to go tonight?” John concern about me not going tonight is kind of sexy.

But it’s not that I don’t want to go because that person will be there. It’s best if John doesn’t know who he is and I doubt he will ask for me. “I’ll just stay in for the night and wait for you” I manage a smile before John notices something is wrong. John just gives a half smile and kisses me again this time more passionately. Our tongues explore each other’s mouths as if it was the first time we kiss.

It’s at this moment that I kick myself for falling asleep throughout the morning instead of enjoying it with John. John breaks away from the kiss and leaves before he gets on top of me again. John gets to the door and takes one last look at me lying on the bed. I could see the turmoil in his eyes wanting to come and join me or leave for practice. After a minute John smiles and closes the door behind him he chose practice but I am sure he will make it up to me tonight.

It was around noon when Monica texts me to meet her in the training room. After a most needed shower to calm my erection I get dress and head out. Monica needed my help to organize the back room seeing that everyone was absent getting ready for the ceremony tonight. “So have you told John why you don’t want to go tonight?” Monica says while we organize the room. “I can’t tell him Monica what if he freaks out?” I say while folding a towel. “You haven’t told him about your mom have you?” Monica’s tone sounds suspicious. I turn to her with a puzzled look “What do you mean?”

Monica quickly looks away and shakes her head “Nothing” I know her well enough to know she is hiding something. I look at her until she talks again “It’s just that I hear rumors that there is a bet going around” Monica begins. “Yeah supposedly that whoever I tell how I inherited my mother’s money wins the bet” I tell Monica. Monica turns to me and has the biggest surprise on her face it almost made me laugh. “You know about that” Monica finally finds her voice.

“Yeah I talked to John about it and told me he didn’t know what I was talking about. I also found the source of the rumor…Sabrina” I say folding another towel. “That bitch” Monica says while shaking her head. “There really is no limit to her drama is there?” Monica asks while coming over and helping me fold the towels. “I guess not until she gets her hands on my man” I say kind of defensively. Monica burst out laughing “Are we letting the claws out” Monica teases me. “You have to admit that Sabrina’s drama is getting old” I say folding the last towel. Monica nods and we talk until the training room looks organize and ready for game day.

“By the way Jake came up to me the other day” Monica starts and I start to get angry. How could Monica sleep with Jake after what he told me? In some way it’s a relief knowing that Jake was just lying about him loving me. “It’s not what you think. He told me to tell you that he really needed to talk to you” Monica stands in front of me with a serious tone. I really thought she slept with him so that way I could focus more on John than worry about Jake. “Sweetie you should at least hear him out he sounded sincere about him talking to you” Monica was taking Jake’s side.

“You really think that he is not just going to give me a sob story about the first time he fell for me. Or how he will tell me that he has been in love with me since high school even before he broke my heart” I sounded a bit more harsh than I anticipated. Monica just looks at me for a while “I think you should hear him out it’s the least you can do as his friend”

I really didn’t know how to react to Monica’s statement. Did I really consider Jake a friend? Would that give Jake hope that one day we will be together. Maybe that’s Jake’s plan in been friends first than building up from that. “Don’t over think this just listen to him. You don’t have to say anything you can even walk away after he’s done talking” Monica says almost as if she is reading my mind. I take in a deep breath and just nod. “He’s at the gym lifting weights right now just stand there and listen that’s all” Monica says stepping to the side. I look at her and know that after Jake’s speech she will want to hear what he said. I give a chuckle at the thought and head for the gym.

The gym is located above the field. The gym overlooks the field with large windows at each side. I worked out once or twice but mostly to look at the view. I make my way up the stairs and for some reason I am nervous. I stop just in front of the door trying to figure out why I am nervous. Monica’s voice comes into my head “Just listen” I repeat those words out loud to myself a few times before I open the door. Sure enough at the far end of the gym in the bench presses Jake is lifting the bar. I take in a deep breath and head over. I look outside and see most the football team running some plays.

Jake turns his head while still laying down and gives one final push at the bar. Jake sets the bar on the hooks and sits up with a smile on his face. “Monica told me you wanted to talk to me” I say not interested in the situation. Jake’s smile almost disappears but the look in his face makes it easy to read. Jake is thankful that I showed up at all which is why he still has half a smile on his face.

I simply wait for him to start talking as all I am going to do is listen to what Jake has to say. Jake takes a moment to gather his thoughts and looks up at me. Jake gives a nervous laugh and starts “I guess saying I am sorry is long overdue huh” Jake begins as he places his hands on this knees. I on the other hand just stand there with my hands crossed over my chest. “Alex I am truly very sorry for what I did back in high school. I was just a kid who didn’t want to accept who I really was”

“Yep here we go” I say in my head. “I did have feelings for you in high school but I just didn’t want everyone to know about me. I guess you can say I am your typical jock who tries everything in his power for everyone not to know his sexuality” Jake continues “after you told me I was excited and scared but I guess me been scared led to those unpleasant things I said to you.

I just want you to know that it bothered the hell out of me after I said all those things to you. You were nothing but a good friend to me and I threw it away over nothing really. I just wanted to forget about you and that’s when I joined the army. For a while I did forget about you as I was sent out practically to the front lines. I had to practically throw myself in danger if I even started to think about you”

All I could think of was that Jake had to practically be starting dead in the face for him to forget about me. I didn’t think I was that repulsive to him at the time. Jake must have followed my thoughts and quickly apologized. “It’s not like that I just wanted to get you out of my head and ‘til this day I don’t know why I wanted to”

We both stare at each other for a while. Jake continues “One day we were suppose to walk around town just to make sure the city was safe. We were ambushed and everything went to hell. I lost most of my friends in under an hour that’s how bad it was. It seemed like the whole city turned on us and we had nowhere else to go. There were only a few of us left and we took refuge in a building. We heard screaming at the top floor and we decided to investigate. We came up the room on the top floor and I was the one who opened it. I saw this guy, an American, over this huge guy with a knife.

The American guy had stabbed this guy multiple times in the chest. He did what he had to survive and I will never blame him for it. Anyways Jake Evans was in the room too and he introduces the guy as Adrian Davis. I don’t have to tell you why I remember Jake Evans name. All of us made our way to downtown seeing that other troops were stuck there. We wanted to help and Adrian wanted to find his brother no matter what.

We made it into the building and everything seemed quiet for a while. There was a soldier coming into the building the only one of his unit that’s when it happened. Gun fire started from everywhere there was no single direction where it was coming from. After it was over I noticed that Jake was hit and we dragged him inside. Our medic was hit before we got there so Adrian stepped up to help Jake” Jake pauses for a moment remembering the scenario. I could tell that what came next was even hard for Jake to tell.

“After the realization hit that Adrian could do nothing for his friend he almost broke down. Adrian somehow found the courage to stay by his friend’s side until Jake died right in front of him. That’s when it hit me. I have been carelessly throwing myself in danger for no good reason really. The site of Jake’s death made me wonder who cared enough for me like that.

I almost cried myself when I realize that no one cared that much for me. That’s when I thought of you, you were the only one who’d showed any interest in the real me. You are the only one for me Alex and I made a deal with God that if I saw you again I wouldn’t throw my life away so easily again. When my service was over I left the army and I came here cause I remember you telling me how much you wanted to be in the program. My tryouts were the same day you first got the tour around the field for the first time. After a few weeks I made it into the team and got a scholarship. I wanted you to know that I was heading for a future that you could approve of” Jake takes a moment and pauses.

“When I saw you at the party that night my heart skipped a beat. I couldn’t believe that I made it all the way home and back to you. My legs were shaking but it was a good thing I was wearing jeans so you wouldn’t notice. I have to say it nearly broke my heart when I heard you say you got over me. I have to admit it was one of the most devastating things I ever heard in my life. But I didn’t want to believe you, I didn’t want to accept that you moved on. When I kissed your cheek I could have died and would have been happy” Jake gives a small chuckle to himself. Before I knew it I gave a small chuckle myself.

“But when I saw you and John in the field I knew that you guys were together. So you can imagine my whole world coming down at the thought of you been with someone else” Jake got up from the bench and stood in front of me. I could feel Jake’s body heat with mine. I put my hand on his chest to make him stop from coming any closer. “Jake please don’t” I said almost in a whisper. “Do you love him?” Jake asks in a whisper himself while pulling closer to my face.

We were almost going to kiss when I turn my head at the last second. With that movement I answered Jake’s questions I am in love with John. I could hear Jake clear his throat like he was trying to hold back his tears. “I am sorry Jake” I say in a whisper. “I am sorry too” Jake says and starts walking away. For some reason I don’t know why I didn’t want Jake to walk away. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. The thought that Jake was willing to let me and John alone is a huge surprise. Maybe just maybe he really did change for the better.