Force sex changes my life : I see love

this is probably gonna be the final part of the story. . so if you havent read the previous parts, just click on my name and read them.
i dont remember after how long i reached andrew's home cuz i was listening to music and really didnt care about the time. i reached for my pocket and took out my phone and called andrew cuz the door was locked.
" hey. . mm. . i am home. . . where are the keys? ? "
" what? ? you came home? i mean " my"  home? "
" yeah" , i said in a confused way. " where are u ? "
" i am at the store. . just be there, i am coming" , he said

i hanged up and started playing with my phone cuz i had nothing to do. Ten minutes later andrew comes looking hot as hell.
" sorry i kept you waiting" he said
" no. . its alright" i said and smiled shortly.
he opened the door and we got in.
" so. . why did you have to go to the store? " i asked

" i needed to buy a few things and i know how much you love icecream. so i bought your favourite flavor, vanilla! ! " he said.
" how did you know? " i asked
" oh, come on! ! i dont need to know, to know that your favourite colors are light green, yellow and navy blue" he said as he was serving the icecream in two bowls.
" wait. . dont you have work today? " i asked.

" umm. . no. . today is their ten years of establishment, so no work today"
" thats good. hey. . umm. . do you happen to know joseph? the guy with green eyes? "
" umm. . is he from school? " he asked back as we were walking towards the living to watch t. v. 
" yeah he is"
" well. . i dont remember him properly. why do you ask about him? "
" nothing really" i said

" hey. . are you okay? you seem to be a little down today"
" really? but i am not. " i smiled(the fake one). i knew deep inside something was not right.
" i wanna go home. its been a while since i last saw my mom" i said.
" yeah you should. but didnt you stay there last night? " he asked
" oh yes i did. but i didnt see her as it too late. she had already gone to sleep and i didnt wanna disturb her. and when i got up in the morning she had already left. " i lied :(
" i miss them all so bad" , i said.
" hey its ok. . dont be sad. you can go and meet them anytime you want" . he put his arms around me and i hugged him back.
" should i go just now? "
" if you want to. . . "

" naah. . maybe i will go later this afternoon" i wondered.

He got up and put the bowls away and then got on top of me and said " why dont we make love until then? " in a seductive voice and he leaned down and kissed me on the lips.
i kissed him back. we made out for sometime and them he started rubbing all over my body with his hands. i broke the kiss and stopped him.
" uhh. . . i. . mm. . . i dont feel so good" i said.
" why not? i knew you werent ok. whats wrong? " he said in a sad way.
" nothing. . i just dont feel so right" . i swear i felt like crap when i turned him down for the first time.
" heyyyy. . its ok. dont worry. we could do it anytime later. maybe tonight? "

" yeah. . ok" i put my arms around him and covered ourselves with a thin blanket as we were watching t. v.  and rested my head on his shoulders.
we watched t. v for about an hour and eventually when we got tired, i decided, i should go home and he agreed. although the distance was not too much, he insisted that he would drop me and i said ok.
" i will come to pick you up. just give me a call when you are done" he said as i got out of the car and walked towards the door.

i walked inside the house and saw my mom in the kitchen. i sneakily walkled towards her and kissed on her cheeks. she looked at me, surprised and as we started talking in the kitchen, i took some food and drink out of the fridge. dad was not there and neither was my brother. i said that i was tired and went to my room so i walked upstairs and when i opened the dorr, i was rather surprised to find it clean and tidy. i mean i hadnt slept here for around a week now. i closed the curtains because it was a bright day. i washed my face, took off all my clothes, collapsed on the bed and covere myself with a blanket and i fell asleep.

i woke up after i dunno how long, maybe 3 hours and it was still afternoon. i hadnt been able to pay attention to my studies these days. so i started up the pending school stuff. i heard my phone ringing, the caller id said " joseph calling" . i never saved his number. . but then i remebered he was using my phone before so he must have saved his number in the directory. i aswered the call.
" hey j! where are you? " he asked
" in my home. you are joseph right? "
" yeah. . ok just be there" and he hanged up.

15 minutes later i heard someone at the door. i suspected it was joseph. i heard my mother say" he's upstairs" . and seconds later, joseph opens the door. i asked him to come in and he did, aswell as locked the door.
" so. . whats up babe? " he asked
" nothing sepcial. . just finishing school stuff" i started arranging the books that were scattered, in a pile and put them in the shelf.
" so what brings you here? " i asked.
" nothing. . i just wanted to see ya"
" wanna play some games? " i asked cuz i didnt want him to get bored.
" yeah sure" he said, excited.

i opened the laptop and put the password and gave it to him. it had loads of games and i was sure he could play all of them for the whole day cuz they all are so addicting.
we played in turns, trying to beat scores. after sometime, i was playing my part when he said, " c'mon stop playing these child games and lets get into some real action" . i was too busy playing i didnt hear properly so i just said " huh? " .
he took the laptop away, pushed me on the matress and got on top of me.
" i wanna fuck you so bad right now" he said and started kissing all over my face and neck.
" wait. . jo. . what are you doing? ? ! ! ? " and i pushed him back.
" what? ! ! what do you mean? "
" i mean i dont wanna do this again"
" well you have to. you dont have a choice"

" whoa! ! you know what? you are freaking me out. . stop it" i smiled. i thought he was kidding as he was a good to me before. then he pushed me down once again and this time it hurt.
" u know, i tried but i couldnt resist. the way you talk, your voice, your scent, your smile, the way you react to things, the way how you care for others more than yourself, the way how emotinal and different you are, it just makes you more fuckable. i wanted you since school but you used to act as if i never existed" he said in a low and deep voice. . kinda scary.

" things are differnt now. you are my friend and i did have sex with you already. what more do u want? " i said.
" i want the whole of you. i want you to be mine. and right now i wanna fuck you" he said in a firm voice.
" if you are kidding, then please stop. this is not funny" i said. . . and pused him away. i tried to go out of the room but he caught my hand and said, " so i guess i will have to tell everything to andrew how his love had sex with me. i am sure i wont be happy. i turned back surprised and said, " what did you just say? "

" i said i will tell everything to andrew"
" no you wont" , i said
" try me" , he said
" i dont want to. i know you wont speak anything about that night"
" unless you wanna let me fuck you"
" you know what? you're a jerk. i am already taken, u fool! go find someone else to fuck"
" fine. . and i am sure aftre i tell andrew, he wouldnt like to see your face"
" you are not telling andrew, get it? ! ! " , i said.

" no i dont" he said and started taking off my T-shirt. he threw it away and started pulling out my pants. then he started sucking my dick. it happenend so quick. i shouted, " what the fuck are you doing? ? leave me alone! ! i dont wanna be with you. "
he stopped and said, " let me do what i am doing or andrew is not gonna be the only person to know your secret. . you dont want you parents to know it as well, do you? " . i couldnt say anything. . i was just thinking what a blunder i had done by drinking that night. i mean i thought this guy was good but he turns out to be completely different. then i felt him pushing his dick in me. " oh forgot something! . . . lube! " he said. he put some of his spit on his hand and put it in my ass. then he pushed his dick which was hard as rock already. " ahhhh! ! " , i moaned.

" shh. . you dont want your mom to know" he said and started sliding his rod inside and outside my ass. he fucked me for about 15 minutes and he cummed inside me. he jacked me off and i cummed too. he cleaned his dick and got up. " see ya soon sexy. . i love you" , he said and left the room. i was lying there all naked and in cum. i covered myself with blanket and started crying, cuz i knew this was gonna happen again and again until i told the truth to drew myself, but i was too afraid that he might start hating me. i didnt even realise when i fell asleep. when i woke up, it was starting to get dark. i got up took shower, washing jo's filthy cum off my body. i decided i would go to the park for sometime cuz i needed some fresh air. it didnt take long for me to be there. i sat on a bench. pulled out my phone. and started playing random songs with an earphone. i was thinking about everything that happened and i was sad and depressed. i felt like a slut. then a guy came up to me and said, " hola. me puedo sentar aqui? "

" what? lo siento. . i donot understand spanish. english? ? i asked
" oh. you dont know spanish? " he asked. i looked at him and he looked amazingly beautiful and hot.
" just the basics"
" thats no problem. you look depressed. why is that? " he said.
" do I? well. . maybe cuz i am tired" i smiled.
" haha. . where do you stay? " he asked.
" mm. . . not so far. just a few minutes down the street. " i answered. i remebered andrew said he was gonna pick me up. " hey. . maybe i should go home now. . its getting dark" i said.

" oh yeah. . . see ya later. i live near here. maybe if you wanna hang out sometimes, you could call me. " so we exchanged phone numbers and i got up and smiled at him. he winked and i thought that was strange. and left for home. as soon as i reached home i got a call from andrew and he said he was gonna be here in 2 minutes. i hurried up my room changed my clothes. i said i would be staying at andrew's again for completing the final projects to my mom and she was ok, just said to be careful. andrew came and i got in his car amd we headed towards his home. i asked him to take the longest way possible and so he did. we reached there after almost an hour. as soon as we got in, i went to the kitchen to drink water. he went to his room and i followed him.
" i am so tired, i wanna sleep" , i said.

" but you havent had anything. i am sure you must be hungry. wait. . ima go to the kitchen and make something" he said and went downstairs. he comes back with a big pizza, a bowl of icecream and two cups of capucchino. after we finished eating, i said i was sleepy and crawled under the blanket. he turned on the t. v. i snuggled against him and fell asleep. i was surprised that he didnt make any move. i mean i thought he would wanna fuck me tonight but maybe he saw i was tired and let it be.

joseph would come and fuck me like whenever and i had to turn andrew down which i hated. i was living my life like a whore until i got fed up with all this and i had to tell eveything to andrew nomatter what happened. i thought, if he ever loved me, he will accept me nomatter what happens. "

one and a week after that, i thought i couldnt take anymore of joseph. so when andrew and i was lying in bed. i kept on looking into his eyes while he was hugging me. " babe. whats wrong? " he asked.
" do you love me? " i asked.
" more than anything. you are the best thing that i ever got" he said.
" i wanna tell you something which i should have a week ago and i am sure after hearing this you wont see my face again" i said.
" i love you, ok? and i am not saying this just cuz we live together and have sex. i mean it and i really love you. "
" you remember the night when i went ot a party alone? and i said i would be staying at my home that night? "
" yeah, i do"

" well. . i didnt sleep at my house that night. infact i never went there. i was all drunk and joseph took me home and. . mm. . we had sex" , i said
" and? " the expression on his face was changing and i was getting nervous. . " and after that joseph would come to my house and fuck me and if i tried to reject, he would force me otherwise he said he would tell you and i didnt wanna lose you. "
" how long has it been since all this happened? "

" more than a week. that why i didnt have sex with you all this while. . because of jo. . i. . i m sorry. " i fell warm tear drops fall down my eyes and dropped on his chest.
he hugged me so tight and i was surprised. " how could you have taken so much pain and trouble all by yourself? why didnt you tell me before? "
" cuz i was afraid you would start hating me. "

" i will never hate you nomatter what. u know, i never thought that we would turn out this way. . i mean all i wanted was a little part of you. i love you and i will never let you go. " i started crying even more after that. " i love you, j" he said.
" i love you too" i wishpered. he came close to me and kissed me on the lips. i kissed him back and we kissed for what seemed like forever.
" you are mine" , he said.
" yes i am. . all yours" i wishpered. my voice was still shaky.

" would you wanna marry me someday? cuz i wanna be with you forever" . he asked
" si, mi amor" i said. he smiled and we continued making out.

we didnt make love that night. we just hugged eachother and i fell asleep in his arms. we fucked only the other night and thats a different story. things changed a lot after that. some in a good way and others in a bad. . maybe if i get the time i will write more. i am just busy these days and i need to recall everything.
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