Hard sex and hot gay love

I had just turned 18 and he was 19. He was my brother’s good friend. Now were talking on the phone and having sex almost daily for most of summer. It was a secret. He was my first man ever, and I felt really in love and at the same time so sexually turned on by him. It was perfect. Blowjobs in my room and lying out in the woods by the lake talking about sports like two straight guys. I blocked out the fact he’s be going back to college in 3 weeks and I would be starting college 2 hours away from him. I wanted to talk about staying together and what would happen to us, but at the same time I was afraid.

We were in my parents basement. My brother was probably off screwing the latest girlfriend of his or pumping iron at the gym. He was probably lucky I was gay. We looked almost the same, and his girlfriends always flirted with me. I was basically him but more artistic and better in school ,but not a conceited ass. I loved him though. My lover sat on a table and when I got closer he reached out to me with his long muscular arms. Neither of us looked or acted gay. “come here baby” he said in a soft voice. He never called me that before. He pulled me in between his legs. 

We were eye to eye and embraced. He had a huge boner and a lovely smile on his gorgeous face. He looked drunk in love as he often did with me. It was amazing how fucking him for the 30th time could be so hot, but he was all I knew anyway but all I wanted to know then. The fact no one knew about us was part of why it turned me on. He kissed me very softly for about 3 seconds and pulled away before our kissing increased in passion as if to tease me saying “I will give you how much I want” He kissed my neck as I gently touched his back. 

I thought about his perfect penis and how much I wanted to slip it in my mouth again and make him cum. I loved how he had a big huge head that I would suck on before slipping it in my throat. “Hey” I said as his head was buried in my neck smelling my hair. I paused. He didn’t look up but stayed there now nibbling my earlobe which drives me crazy. “I love you” I said. My heart fell to the floor at that very second. I wanted to pick up by dirty heart from the floor at that second and run away forever never to return to my gay life. How could I say that? Everyone knew it was over once you started bearing your heart that. 

The words came out like they were not my own. But I knew I meant them regardless. I waited.

He came up from my neck and looked confused and utterly shocked. He cringed his face like he was solving a math problem, looked down and said “why so serious Craig? Geez. Relax. We don’t have to be like that” not what I wanted to hear. I couldn’t lose him. “Ok that’s cool with me. We can be just friends with benefits. That’s all I want anyway. I got caught up in the moment and um..ahh…..it’s not like it’s going to break my heart or anything” I lied. He bite his lip and unbuttoned my shirt to reveal the top of my chest. 

His hands gripped my hips as he pushed my stomach into his hard on. At least that was still there. Then he stopped and let go of me.”Fuck this” he said. I wanted to run. I started to back away, but he grabbed me again by the waist said “I love you too.” “No, don’t lie to me. I don’t want you to say it just because you think you should or you feel bad you didn’t” I said. “Just shut up already. I love you,ok? I do and that’s the truth. I always knew it.”

I undid the button to the top of his cargo shorts. I unzipped them and took ou this long rod with the big head. My dick is more thick all around but his was long with a big head and a curve to it. I pu the big hard had into my mouth and sucked on it. He started to moan and run his fingers through my hair. Before long his thick hard rod was in my throat almost gagging me. When I came up on it he pushed my head back into it and slammed the head into my throat. Our sex had gotten more rough the past two weeks. It was very passionate. 

He loved to watch me give him head which didn’tbother me at all anymore. “suck me like the bitch you are” he said. “yes..mmmm You are mine.” He said as he exploded into my mouth. I swallowed his cum more because I didn’t want it all over the place than actually wanted it in my mouth. However, it seems to taste yummier now that we were actually in love. We embraced again and started to kiss. 

We opened our mouths and let our tongues flicker wildly with each other. He stared into my eyes and I felt his breath on my lips. His brown eyes stared into my blue eyes. “I love you” he whispered to me this time looking right into my eyes unafraid. “Me too” I said. We laughed. “you’re the hottest thing I ever saw. “ he said to me. “I never dreamed I’d be fucking a guy like you. Your brother would kill me. “ We laughed.