I never thought I could fall in love

I never thought I could fall in love. I just never felt it for any one at all especially another guy.

I better start at the beginning.
My name is Dave I’m 34 over weight, short brown hair, 6” cock & have been told I’m quite good looking.

I all ways knew that I was different & liked guys more than girls but didn’t know why, until one night I was laying down jacking off thinking about a guy & a girl having sex.
It was then I realised that it was the guy I was thinking of more.
I switched my thoughts to touching the guy & I exploded the biggest load of cum I had ever seen right over my head & hit the wall behind me.

But even then I didn’t realise why it had happened & it meant I was gay.
That was when I was about fifteen & it wasn’t until I was nineteen that I realised that I was gay & should try to do something about it.

Shaking I put an advert in the local paper lonely harts pages, sat back waiting for a reply.
A few weeks later a bundle of letters came for me, I couldn’t believe how many there were.
I sat & read them all throwing the dirty old men replies away & then trying to sort out the best of the rest.

Any one that has done this sort of thing knows how difficult it can be to sort out the best ones from the good looking ones that just want a quick thing which isn’t what I wanted.
I wanted a guy that was in to the same things as me & to be friends may be more.

Well it started ok. Don The guy I met with was a great guy but it was never more than friends.
He rented a house & let out a couple of rooms to another guy Josh who was really nice.
Josh started to get close to me & one Saturday afternoon we sat watching TV & he made a pass at me.

We had sat there for an hour or so watching the TV & his hand slid over on to my leg.
Now you have to remember that I had never been touched before in this way.

His hand slid on to my leg I turned to look at him he smiled at me lent over & placed a kiss on my lips.
I didn’t know how to respond I had started to shake with nerves.
I placed my hand on his leg & moved it up & down. He responded by moving his hand up my leg & rubbing my fast hardening cock through my trousers, I could of shot my load then but I held it back.
I moved my hand up his leg & felt my first cock he was all ready hard & it felt oh so good to be able to touch another guy in that way.

He turned to me & said “I need a bath will you come & scrub my back.”
All I could say was “OK”.
He left the room & went to run the bath. I just sat there not knowing if I could go through with it.
I got up the courage & went up stairs & knocked on the bath room door, it opened as I knocked he hadn’t shut it on. I walked in to see him sitting in the bath washing his hair. I went over to the bath picked up the soap & started to wash his back as I got lower I shook more.
I reached the top of his arse I stopped & washed the soap off his back.
The whole time this was happening we never spoke a word I assumed he knew what to do but this was all new to me & wanted him to guide me but he didn’t.

I reached round to soap up his front & ran my hand straight down & grabbed his hard throbbing cock he moaned as I started to jack it, then stood up & turned to face me.
I straight away took it in my mouth it felt so good having it in my mouth I sucked on it & jacked it until he shot his load in my mouth & over my face I hadn’t even tasted my own cum but oh how I loved the taste of it, I sucked him dry & scooped the rest of my face & licked my fingers clean.
He picked up the sponge & wiped my face clean then knelt in the bath & said “now let me suck you” the first words spoken. I stood up un did my fly & my hard cock was pushing at my underwear to escape.
I pushed my cloths to the floor & stepped forward to the bath.

He reached out his hand & grabbed my cock & jacked it as he sucked on my balls; it felt so good to have some else touching me for the firs time.
He moved his tongue up my shaft & started licking the pre cum off the tip the feeling was so intense. He opened his mouth & took my whole cock inside & started to suck.
I couldn’t hold back I shot the hot load down his throat.

I didn’t really know what to do so I pulled up my trousers & left the room.
Back down stairs Don was sitting on the sofa watching TV we past the time of day but I was too preoccupied with what had just happened.
My feelings were mixed up as to how I felt about what had just happened more to the point how it had happened with not a word spoken.

As I went to leave the lodger came to the door winked & said see you next week then.
I got a call in the week from my friend would I like to go over one evening.
Thinking about having a chance to be with Josh again I jumped at the chance.
I rang the bell & a guy I had never seen before answered the door I stood looking puzzled he spoke.

“Sorry you don’t know me I’m Joshes boyfriend Andy. I have just moved in here with him”
I think I felt the world disappearing from under me. The evening went so slow I just wanted to get out away from all of them; in the end I said I felt ill & left.

Saturday afternoon came round & I went to see my friend. Josh opened the door for me & I went in.

“I’m on my own at the moment Andy is at work & Don has gone to the shop he wont be long”
I went in & sat on the sofa he came & sat next to me.
“Do you fancy going further today?”
I jumped up “what do you think you are doing you have a boyfriend”
He lay back with an evil grin on his face & said “he doesn’t have to know does he”
I just turned & left the house.

From then on I refused to go round if he was there just making excuses not to go.
A few months later they moved out & the last I heard of Josh was that he had aids I hope he didn’t pass it on to Andy. I went for tests just to be sure but I am clear.
While all this was going on Don got him self a steady boyfriend they were good together but it only lasted a year.
We continued to see each other & go to clubs & he soon found himself another one.
Paul a nice guy who I would of liked to be with. They brought a new house & were happy they were comfortable enough with each other to go out to clubs with their own friends & not worry about what the other is up to.

I went out one night with Don I drove to the club as I’m not a big drinker I could drive.
Don had been chatting to some guys during the evening I hadn’t taken much notice as I was looking at all the talent in the club.
As the club was closing Don said to me “I’m getting a lift home with one of these guys so you can go”

I was puzzled but not too worried so I went out to the car & had to weight for some others to go before I could leave. I saw Don get in to the car with the other guy & drive off; it wasn’t long before I caught them up.
Then their car pulled off down a track. No need to ask what was going to happen.
Next day Don phoned me & said if Paul askes about last night tell him you brought me home.

I never saw him again I wasn’t going to get involved in lying for him.
I’m sorry but I think that if you are with some one it are the only one you should be with. So that put me off going with guys I was happy with just me & my hands until now.

Now at 34 I want to try again so I went on a gay dating web site & posted my profile & with in a week I found a guy he wasn’t a model but he was quit good looking & a nice guy.

Now for the hard bit, coming out to my family. Why was I worried?
My parents were ok about it & my sister that just left her new boyfriend.
Oh what a hunk he is he is an ex body builder I don’t fancy him but I cant help but look.
He agreed to help me loos weight & be my trainer.
One night after we had worked out I told him that I am gay & to my surprise he is fine with it.

Things started to work out well with the guy I met it just seemed as if we had all ways been together. So then came the first night alone at his place.

We sat on the sofa kissing & I asked him if he wanted to go further. Silly question next thing we were naked holding each others cocks.
He kissed me deeply then broke off & said “can I suck you”
I moaned back “Oh fuck yes”.
He bent down & took my cock in his mouth I laid out on the sofa & we 69 for a while before I shot my load down his throat & he did me.

It felt so good to be with a guy doing it again how had I managed so long with out it.
We did this for the next couple of time we met up then he asked me to fuck him.
I had never done that so I was so nervous about it I had a job to get it up but I managed after some jacking & sucking.
He turned on his back & lifted his legs I fingered his hole with some lube then positioned my self at his hole & pushed.

Every thing went black as the pleasure washed over me oh it was so hot & tight.
I pushed right in & pulled out it was like nothing on earth it was so good & a few pumps later I shot my load.
I wanted it to last forever but I soon went soft again, I had to leave as I had work in the morning so no time to go again.
We had sex like that a few more times & I was getting better at it.

I started to have concerns about what was happening in the relation ship then I fell ill & we didn’t see each other for a couple of weeks & he went strange on me & I wondered if he was on drugs but I never found out we finished the relationship after only three months.
I told him that I loved him & I think I did but I never really felt it was true love.

Buy to help me through it all was my sisters boyfriend he helped me when I was ill & getting over the break up.

If asked have I ever been in love the answer would have to be yes with the one guy I could never have my sisters boyfriend & I know even if they split he would never want to be with a guy he’s not that type.

So there you are now I have found a guy to love I can’t have him.
So I suppose it back to the web site to try to find a guy who will measure up to him.

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