Impotent

Like all young guys the sex newness wore off between me and my wife and we both began to stray discreetly. But not regular. Then a young chick got to hanging around that lived in the trailer park we resided in. The wife had a day job and I had a night job and I had sex twice with the girl. She had younger brothers that also hang around and we had to be very careful. But he caught us during our second sex act. We asked him to not tell on us and he agreed. Then one day I was asleep and was awaken to being erotically kissed and it was the best kissing I’d ever had. I awaken to see it was him. I was astonished and yet acknowledged to him that I enjoyed it. He said, you on love me or I’ll tell on you and sis. What he didn’t know was that as a minor I had once had a boy lover for a short time and the new advance from him set me on fire with desire. 

I eagerly took his youthful penis in my mouth and felt the climax of his penis jerking and spurting come in my mouth. Then later his sis not knowing that I was involved with him stupidly told my wife that she should leave me and let her have me. Boy that shot everything to pieces for all of us because my wife ran me off quick which I think was to her advantage, because soon after she took a boy friend that I had been somewhat aware off. I was actually glad for her because I now realized that now I could hunt for a boy friend which I knew I really wanted and was ready to come out as gay people often refer to.

I made trips down to State Street in Chicago several times and those older guys were only working those peep show gallery for tips and even though my youth turned them on and they never asked me for pay they possessed no chemistry as queers would have and were like dead from over exposure. I found that even big dicks with no chemistry was not fulfilling as the youthfully coming out exciting lad that I couldn’t contact any more. I returned back to my home state and my neighbor hood that had no gay sexual potentials. I started dating a virgin girl that I had a real love for and sex wasn’t the only reason I loved her. But just before our marriage I met a boy her same age that I made advances on and he accepted and we had a couple of sex affairs. He wasn’t mental capable of doing all my desires like as never no kissing and he never gave me head but allowed me to suck his heavy larger than mine penis and he sure probed me out good a couple of times. So just before our marriage and I knew truthfully that he wasn’t gonna work out for me. So I confessed to her about my gay feelings and gave her a choice of taking me or leaving me. She was not capable of understating and I was and now so glad she didn’t leave me.

Any way we had lots of heart to heart talks and she also confessed that she had sexual thought around other guys. So one night we went out in our sport car and we were doing sex with her buttocks lying on the console and her head and shoulders in the back seat between the front lay back seats. And I was getting into her to the bottom like never possible in bed.

I kept whispering about how much she liked deep probing and she mumbled yes to everything I said. I knew she had met my boy friend that I had confessed about and I asked her if she found him attractive as a sexual stud. I even mentioned that he was hung larger than I was. She seemed like so hot from this talk and encouraged me to talk sexy to her about big dicks. Now I was also heated on the subject of big dicks and with his dick that I had sucked in mind I started craving come from it. I then had one passion in mind was to see how she would react from it fucking her. I knew he actually wanted pussy and would be willing. We were only a very shot distance from where he hangs out nights and we had often dropped by there before to pass the time chatting with him. We didn’t even dress completely and went looking for him. She still had her panties of under her very short mini skirt that exposed her sexy white legs. He came out to the car and I got out and walked around and said drive us around. He was liked programmed to obey and we was on the road quick. She was getting a little jittery or at least pretending to have second thoughts. So the conversation was not about sex but just rambling everyday talk.

I was massaging her pussy under her skirt and she kept looking at him nervous like as he kept glancing at her sexy open exposed thighs. I whispered for her to reach over and touch his bulging crotch. She said no! I can’t but I nudged her hand toward him and she did. She whispered that it was on a hard and I said that she should unzip him. She had to lean toward him and use both hands and she got it out in the air grasping the shaft of it. She whispered back to me as how big it was. I said try sucking on it and she refused. Then she released it and positive confessed that she couldn’t go any farther with this conduct. I pretended at ease and agreed that it was OK and yet kept fondling her wet loosen vaginal. 

I whispered that she should help put it away and zip him up. And tell him she was sorry.

She leaned to ear and he kissed her lips in response but she finished the sentence to him and turned back to tell me that he had kissed her. I asked her if she liked the kiss and she moaned, oh! Yes. I said well go back and kiss him again. She went to him and he was already nearing a side road in preparations to park the car. She clung to him passionately as the car halted and he was eagerly tongue kissing her and massaging her body as I helped her fully undress for this new big dick fucking I was so eager to see her take. And I also was fondling his quicken erection and admiring his taut firm cheek buttocks as I assisted their bodies into position with her butt on the console. I was so far gone with sexual arousal that only then just remembered that she was not using any birth control. As I was guiding it in positing to screw her I whispered to him of this chance of pregnancy and asked him if he could pull it on climax, he said yes, but I was doubtful. Anyway it was too late and I was greedy for the show I was enjoying. 

He was slow on entrance into her and I was touching the pulsating organ opening for him and felt it bottom out and palmed her spread thighs that were actually trembling. I had my face against his steamy buttocks and could hear the squish and slap of tummy’s and their pelvises. Then just a few plunges to the very bottom climaxed him and her and he was rising up without warning withdrawing this jerking throbbing peter putting it against my cheek spurting hot semen and after the first gob hit my cheek I got my greedy lips onto it and whams! it shot a couple more or so hot shots so spurty against my throat and it was jerking so hard I could hardly hang on to it and it had never done this during my head jobs to him. I sucked it dry and tried to squeeze the rest of it from way back near the ass hole out under the now drawn up scortum of balls so he could go back into my quivering wife body and not get her pregnant. Sure enough he drove it back in and they went on for quite awhile and he didn’t withdraw on the second or maybe third climax and I assumed that she begged him not to pull it. 

When it was all over I eased on to her sweaty body and eased my ready to eject peter into her wide open loose slushy come filled pussy and sank into a blissful climax inside her now unfeeling spent pussy. I asked her if she liked his fucking and she conning and whined about how she loved it and admitted that he sexed her better than I ever did and somehow I was not jealous of the two’s conduct even though they had left me as an outsider and had treated me like nonexistence during their heated session. We all got out of the car and even with only her mini skirt on she looked like a movie actress with her lengthy white legs glowing in the moon light. Then I also was admiring his gleaming tan looking macho body with his large dong swinging as he hop skipped from foot to foot while getting into his jeans. It was then that I remembered my affair from my adolescent days and how the lad had also hop skipped as he was dressing and how even though he was my same age that he had a man size root that swung on his small adolescent body.

Then I also recalled that he never showed me any affection or had desire for my wimpy sissy body or my small dick. He was almost just like this stud that I had let service my wife. My first sex with that boy who actually had greatly humiliated me by forceful rapeing my then virgin bung hole with his lecherous fucking and I also just then remembered how that I whimpered and pleaded for him to release me from my pinned down position on the first session because of shock and pain. But most of all I recalled how humiliated I felt from being sodomized against my will because I was afraid to fight him and how he had laughed and called me a sissy. My memory kept reacting to how I had become so use to being humiliated and got pleasure from humiliation which started by my being envious of that macho lad. And how that he mistook my admiration and envy of his sex organ as to think that when he forced it into my mouth that I was desiring to suck him which had actually scared me to a weaken slut feeling during the first time that he ejected into my mouth. 

From then on I was a slave to enjoying the feelings of humiliations by him and had just now realized that my whole drama that I had planned tonight for to see my wife taken by another guy was actually just so I could enjoy the humiliation knowing someone was fucking my wife, and I realized I lusted for and climaxed on being humiliated. Now the next day she started her monthly period which was brought on early by the deep probing he did unto her. But now the worry of her becoming pregnant by his servicing her was somewhat of a relief especially to her. I always enjoyed thinking I’d get her pregnant each time I climaxed in her. I wondered if he felt this way and knew I would enjoy the humiliation of watching him as he seeded with his large peter that I loved and desired so much. Three or four days after she quit the menstrual period I was eager to get her sexual aroused so I could coax her into confessions about the sex drama I had produced while using her as the star. Sure enough she helped me to feel humiliation by whispered that she was so hot and needed his wild kisses and that she could hardly feel my small penis inside her. 

I picked up the bedside phone and told him to get his big dick over there and fuck the hell out of my hot wife. While waiting we kept playing around and I asked her if she would like to have his baby and she oooh yes. I was turned on by this and was feeling weaken by the thoughts of being a slave to fulfilling her desires. He arrived shortly and quickly was lecherously astride her and I lay along side reeling in humiliation as she responded to his lusts upon her. He didn’t seem to mind or notice as I licked into his sweaty anal crevice that was white foamed with sweat from his macho hunching into her. I ran my hands around his large shaft and could feel her pussy lining stretch outside of her as they clung to it each time he pulled up to restroke.

After awhile he got her on her all fours doggie style and I got my face down under them in position so as to lick his wet steamy rod gliding in and out of her and I mouthed on his balls. Then again I got back behind so I could lick his anus hole as he was studding my hot bitchy wife. This to me was the most humiliation thing for me to enjoy. After he left we sleep till dawn and I still hadn’t climaxed because my dick wouldn’t get hard from all the mental stress of knowing no one needed me. I woke before she did and she was eagle spread with her knees propped open and her pussy was gaping open and her womb was so swollen it was visible like a little pointed dick through the gaping opening and dried whit semen was all around the hair because his large dick had squeezed her dry. 

They went on for several affair sessions after that night I would not even stay in the room anymore or even attempt to have sex with her because I knew that I was no match for him and I was now impotent and my dick was limp as a rag. I’d just lie on the couch listing to her moans and savoring and enjoying my pitiful crying mental state of humiliation. She later told me there was a young guy at work that was flirting with her and that she desired him. I asked her what she wanted me to do. She said that she needed me to let her bring him home with her and wanted me to watch her because she liked knowing I was enduring it for her. Well what she didn’t tell me was that he was a sleek shiny brown black boy. On his arrival I was astonished and shocked but willing to act the slave part of her bidding. He was bashful as they sat on the couch with her teasing him. 

Finally he got so hot that he put his arms around her pulling her to a standing position and put his dominant large lips upon her little puckered lips and I went weak from this obscene submission by her. She got druggy weak from passion and he had to hold her short submissable body up with her feet off the floor against his tall lanky frame so as to keep kissing her. I went to them and undressed her as they stood there embraced exposing her clear white body to this shiny dark stud. I was trembling with intimation as to see his nudeness. I unbuttoned his shirt and he let me slid it from his beautiful lean muscular upper torso. 

I then undressed his pants as he stepped from them exposing first his pouty buttocks that brushed against my face as raised up from his ankles when he stepped out of his clothes. They were so heated to the touch and flawless smooth and beady texture skin was tastily kissed by my lips thinking oh! How those firm buttocks could drive a dick home in a pussy and knowing they would be on my wife very soon. I moved to stand beside them and his dark dick was standing straight up pressed between them. I pulled it sideways so I could lick this over eight inch giant of a tool and barley could reach around this three inch in breadth massive organ. I also became swooned with ecstasy and sat down on the couch to keep from falling. He kept holding her in the air and walked to the bed room. I wanted to watch as she had asked, but I couldn’t walk back to the room from the spasm of guilt knowing that my wife was being fucked by a huge hung black guy.

I heard the loud groan and moan from her caused by his penetration into her and the slap of his body against her body and had thoughts that she is now maybe getting bred and will carry a black baby and I just lay back so weak with my trembling body enjoying my new humiliation and my little limp impotent dick dribbling pools of sex lubing juice which was wasted because I couldn’t any longer do sex to her. Then I roused up and slowly entered the bed room and watched in the dim light as he strobed slowly out and in upon her small white body with her legs clinging around his body.
I approached and lay my palm on his sweaty bungs and felt them hunch up on each drive into her and then suddenly he gasped and rolled over spent. The long dark expiring root was lying downward between his open thighs. I whispered to him as how thankful I was that he serviced my wife for me and he replied that he could see how as I needed help fulfilling her bitchy lecherous desires. She went to the bathroom and lingered there probably douching the black man sperm from her raw stretched vaginal. I lifted his heavy lanky expired organ and toyed with it and asked if he wanted seconds. He laughed and said he had climaxed three times and was tired of pussy for now.

I kept caressing him and it started firming up and I put my hungry mouth on this thick man meat and it was barley going in my wide open mouth. I couldn’t believe how it was so good to gorge upon. I slid down its length and gobbled at his balls a bit and then pushed his legs up so I could tongue into his anus hole. He moaned with this delight unto him and when I came back upon his shaft and just forced it plum down my throat into my gullet he ejected so pulsational down deep inside my gullet. He got up and left and I lay there and toyed with my impotent limp peter until it climaxed mostly from the erotic thought of this meaty morsel that I had brought to a climax which gave me mental pleasure.

I’ll end my story for now and will beat my meat while remembering all my past sexual commitments that turned me on and especially the ones that shamed me with humiliation.