Mark and Jason - Part 3

Mark woke up Sunday morning still tired, having not slept well the night before. After slowly rubbing his eyes to waken himself, he looked over at his clock - 8.47am. Then he remembered it was his and Jason's birthday and wondered if Jason had thought about it at all. He led in bed a while longer, thinking about his best friend...the friend he may now have lost. He sighed and felt his morning wood, giving it a quick tug and playing with his balls. He got up to take a piss and decided to shower while he was in the bathroom. He lazed about upstairs with just his tight boxer briefs on and thought about giving Jason a call to wish him happy brithday.

He walked downstairs and made himself a coffee before sitting down on the sofa. Mark noticed an envelope on the table with his name on it. He raised his eyebrows in question then knew it must have been Jason. He still had a door key.
He opened the card and smilied. 'Happy 18th Birthday' it read on the front. Inside was a piece of paper and on the card written.

'To Mark, the best mate a guy could ever have. Happy Birthday Love Jason xx' 

Mark picked up the piece of paper and started to read it.

Mark
I know the past few weeks haven't been easy and I know its my own stupid fault. I haven't exactly made it easy 4 u. Anyway just wanted to say I'm sorry 4 being a dickhead and for not being there 4 u like I should have been. Sorry 4 running out on u, twice and 4 ingoring u.
I dont care you're gay buddy. I was just pissed coz u didn't tell me and didn't think u could trust me to tell me earlier. Maybe I'm an asshole 4 not seeing it.

I've really missed u Mark. I hope u can forgive me somehow. I love u and want u in my life as we used to be or maybe more. I don't know yet. I've been thinking about stuff with u and me. I got all these thoughts going on in my head and I don't know what to do it's confusing.

I've thought about doin stuff with u, u know sex stuff and it turns me on. Shit this is so embarassing. I loved suckin u and tasting your cum and wanna do it again maybe. I think I'm attracted to u as well coz when I picture your body it gets me hot. I don't fancy other guys Mark so I can't be gay but u do something to me. Fuck what am I saying. 
When I saw u naked I just had to touch u but I don't know why. Maybe it's some sort of fuckin power or bond between us. shit I don't know maybe that's just an excuse for feeling this way. why didn't I feel this sooner like u did with me?

But Mark I don't want u getting your hopes up and start thinking were gonna be b/f or something or were gonna have sex. I don't want that-or do I. I don't know. Took me about 20 pages to write this crap and still can't get it right. I don't know what I want from u or us but something's changed. u might not even want me now anyway I've been such a dick.

Another thing I know you're a virgin Mark and u probably won't believe it but so am I. Never fucked a girl, but I wanted to just didn't feel right. Maybe waiting for the right one like u.

Ok finishing now. But another thing. That girl on the phone last nite, well it was Michelle. You might remeber her, well anyway I met her and Gary while I were shopping yesterday and we talked and stuff. They got engaged u know. Sorry if u got the wrong idea buddy but I really was busy and maybe u will see why soon. I wanted to call back but she said to leave it, maybe I shouldve done now eh? But thats just me though isnt it. Never think of anyone but myself.

Anyway Mark hope u like your card. I was hoping we could do something together today, u know talk and stuff. I know I should've said this to your face but I'm just scared shitless about it. Fuck knows what your thinking when I dont know what I'm thinking myself.

I got u a suprise too but it's up to u now buddy. I'm leaving it in your hands. If u don't wanna know then I don't know..I will cope somehow without u. I do miss u Mark

If u wanna see me then I will be sitting under our tree at 12 today, waiting 4 u.

hope u will come
love Jason xx

**
Mark sat back against the sofa in complete and utter shock. He read it about 5 times before the actual words sunk in. What did he think? Fuck knows. Confusion? Happiness? Sadness? All of them.

'Ok now what' he thought to himself. He got up and went to the sink, splashing his face with cold water to make sure it wasn't a dream. He looked at the time..nearly 10am so plenty of time just in case he was going to go and meet him. He wanted to, really but maybe it was all just a sick cruel joke, make Mark look a total prat. 
No Jason wouldn't do that, yeah he may have been an asshole but he wasn't cruel.

Mark couldn't help bring a smile to his face 'he fancies me. does he? why after all this time?' These are things that he would have to find out soon. But then Jason said he didn't know himself. Maybe that blow job brought feelings he never thought he had. Maybe he was attracted to him. 

The thought of what could happen made Mark tingle all over from top to toe. He felt the mound pushing against his boxers and gave himself a feel through the fabric, moaning to himself while he tweaked his own nipples sending shocks to his groin. He pulled his boxers down and took out his now hard cock, struggling to walk back to the sofa while giving himself a feel. He sat down and fantasized about his lover, Jason, being with him, touching and kissing him all over, replacing Mark's hand with his own hand, then mouth. 
"Fuck me Jay." he said outloud, hoping nobody could hear. 
He squeezed his nipples harder making his solid cock jump and pre cum.
It wasn't long before Mark shot his hot sticky load over himself, then wiped it clean with his fingers, tasting his own cum.

He made himself some breakfast then realxed before getting dressed ready to meet Jason. Today was their birthday and they had some things to say. He tried not to get excited like Jason had warned him of doing, but he couldn't help it. Although he had been an idiot at times, he loved Jason and the apology seemed genuine and sincere enough.
The walk would take him 30 minutes, since his car had no petrol.

***********

Jason hardly slept the night before either. He was up writing that letter until about 3am, then he had to let himself in Mark's house without him hearing. The original plan to give him just a card with 'sorry' on failed. He thought it better to write a letter instead, although he hadn't heard from Mark and didn't know whether Mark had actually read it yet. He looked at his clock and noticed it said 9.25 so he must be up by now.
If Mark didn't show up at the park, then he knew their relationship was over for good. He hoped it wouldn't be, but he still had no idea what he wanted from it. Mark had the last word now, he owed him that anyway. Jason knew it was a risk to take, but he loved Mark and hoped they could work something out.

No shouting screaming or banging yet from next door, maybe that was a good sign.
He wondered what Mark was up to, still in bed? in the shower? getting dressed? He felt himself harden at the thought and yet again cursed himself as to why this was happening. He thought about how much torture Mark would have had to go through for last 2 years. 

Jason looked down at his semi-erect cock and wondered if it would be good enough for Mark, whether he liked what he had seen, or at least in the last few years when they hit puberty. He and Mark had similar cocks, both uncut and both around 7 inches, although Mark's was a little wider and Jason's had a bigger head when the foreskin was pulled back. 'what are you thinking?' he thought to himself. Suddenly aware that he was worried about Mark's opinion. He had been doing that the past couple of days, even before he sucked Mark off, he thought about what it would be like.

Jason decided to get up and take a shower, His now rock hard cock stood to attention and begged for release. The warm trickle of water splashed over his body and he soaped himself up with the shower gel. He wodered if Mark would ever shower with him again. Not as litte boys like they used to, but as grown men touching, feeling, kissing.

"Oh fuck" he shouted as pre cum dribbled out of his slit, stroking himself harder and faster. For the first time, he entered a finger into his asshole. He twitched with pain then relaxed and pushed in deeper and wiggled it around finding his prostate. Suddenly he moaned and jerked his cock like crazy until he came to a wonderful climax. His body shuddered and he stood back against the tiles breathless.

"Shit that was...oh God Mark" he said outloud but to himself.

Jason finished his shower, not before cumming again, fingering his ass with 1 then 2 fingers. He knew he wanted more, and wanted Mark. 

But he had his pride, his reputataion. He couldn't be seen being Mark's boyfriend. The thought made him feel funny, queezy, but good inside. By the sounds of it, most of the town knew Mark was gay and he couldn't cope with knowing that others might think he was as well.
Maybe talking to Mark will help him decide what he wanted.

He got dressed and went out, driving to the park where hopefully Mark would meet him.

*******

Both Mark and Jason came to the same park as babies, toddlers, schoolboys, high school kids, and hopefully as 18 year old men. They did everything there, from paddling in the lake, playing on the swings, to playing sports. The big oak tree that stood alone at the bottom of the green was their 'home' and both of them used to climb it. Often just sit there and talk, have a laugh, secretly having McDonald's after their supper or drink alcohol when they shouldn't.
To them, it was 'our' tree, but it had been a while since they sat there alone. Maybe it could change that day. 

******* 

Jason arrived at 11.45am and sat down. His left ass cheek was still sore from the tattoo, but he couldn't take the plaster off as yet, so he was careful not to bruise himself. 'who the fuck was this idea' he thought to himself before realising it was his own.

By the time 12.15pm came he was worried and nervous. Mark was never late, and he thought how stupid he had been letting his best friend down the way he had. He checked again making sure it was the right time. He wasn't sure if this was all a big mistake. A tear fell down his left cheek 'fuck fuck fuck' he said to himself over and over, waiting.

Mark rushed to the park in urgency. Fucking neighbours. Old Mrs Thomas across the road needed some help, making him late for Jason. He hoped he was still there. He knew Jason would be worried now and his stupid phone was switched off so he couldn't call him.
He walked into the park and jogged over to the edge of the green. He could see Jason waiting, his head bowed down on his knees. His watch said 12.35pm.

"JAY." Mark shouted. Jason looked up and smiled as Mark got up to him. "Jay fuck sorry I'm late, Mrs Thomas wanted me to..."

He tried to finish but Jason stood up grinning and pulled him into a hug. Mark hugged back and melted into him.

"Sorry Jay." Mark said pulling away after a minute or so had passed. He felt he was getting too close too soon.

"No I'm sorry, for everything, hope you can forgive me. I don't wanna lose you." Jason replied in tears now.

"Don't be daft. Your my best mate, yeah you can be a shit sometimes but I still love ya." Mark replied.

They both paused. Mark didn't know what Jason thought about that comment, and Jason had no idea what he actually meant by the word love.
They both sat down in silence. 

"Look at me I'm a wuss, fucking crying coz you weren't here on time." Jason laughed, wiping the tears from his eyes. Mark smilied thinking he still looked hot, wuss or no wuss. "You got my letter then I guess?" Jason asked. Mark nodded back. "And?"

"Well you know I was shocked, confused, then sort of happy, but then felt strange. I don't know, but I guess you don't either. I can't deny I weren't pleased though Jay. But anyway I'm happy whatever you decide, as long as we can be mates again. I miss you as well Jay. It's been hell without you."

"Yeah I know. I need to think a bit more." 

They both looked at each other then turned away. Mark glanced up and down Jason's body, with lust and love. Jason looked gorgeous as ever, wearing a new pair of Levi's, a tight dark blue t-shirt, and his blue jacket.