Me and Him: Part 4

*NOTE: This series as you know is true, but from this part onwards I've decided to add a few fictional bits (detailed dream sequences). Of course they are not the real dreams I was dreaming about when all this happened, I can barely remember dreams I had 2 days ago. But these dream sequences add a bit of depth and are bit more interesting. Hope you enjoy.*

I stand up to observe my surroundings, I have no idea where I am. Dead trees with fragments of burnt leaf falling from the air are mostly what I see. No howl in the wind, no taste only dead trees, dirt and humanly murky shadows surround me. Seeing no light to lead me out only mist I realize I'm somewhere where I'm not suppose to be. Only problem is I have no recollection of me even entering this dead forest. I hear whispers of people's voices. Some of the words I can pick out like my mums voice calling me for dinner, my dad screaming at mum during their divorce, Josh's sexual whisper, Charlie's giggle and for some reason in very background faintly I could hear Purple Rain. This was all very bizarre and I had no idea what was going on. I decided if I wanted to ever leave this place I'd need to wander around for a bit.

As I walk around, past the first tree, I hear my mum call my name from the left. I run that way past a few more trees. Then I heard my sisters singing from the right. I ran that way. While running to her singing I realize Purple rain is getting fainter. Suddenly I hear Josh's whisper "Brenton" it calls and repeats as I follow it. I realize no matter where I go, there is no end beyond the sheet of mist that lays out in front of me. Everywhere I go all I see is the same trees and a lot of mist on the horizon, I'm stuck in a parallel universe or a loop. As I move towards Josh's whisper I hear Charlie chuckle behind me.

I turn around to see both Josh and Charlie stand there. Josh stood by the nearest left tree Charlie by the right. Purple rain was no longer in the background. I realize there is a choice to be made here. I realize they both haven't said anything so there was no point in speaking to them. I decide to move towards Charlie. Finally I make my way to Charlie and hug him. Then I feel a rain drop on my hand, and it's purple. The murky sky above turns purple and showers down rain. The guitar solo off purple rain fades back in and I am getting drenched in rain. I look at Charlie's face but he looking in the direction of Josh. Turning to look at Josh I see the most bizarre thing ever. He starts to catch on fire. He shows no emotion, no pain just a blank face. The flames consume him. I stare at him in shock before everything turns white.

I awake in fright. I sit up straight out of my bed. Putting my hands on my face I realize the dream I just had meant something. "Was it a warning, a vision of the future or just so weird random dream?" However I didn't want to find out. Anything with Josh burning would be terrible. I look over to my digital clock, it's 4:23 am. I decided not to go back to sleep, just in case I was to live my nightmare again. Instead I grabbed my laptop and decided to write a story based on what I just saw. While I was writing about my dream (using different characters of course) I couldn't help but try to figure out why Josh was engulfed in flames. I still care for Josh I won't deny it but I love Charlie more now. Though I do feel bad for Josh. Having the only someone you shared you sexuality with gone and having no one like them to talk to must be difficult.

After completing my story I decided it was best if I gave a Josh a ring. I know it's 4:35 in the morning but no is the only time to talk to him. I dialed his number waiting for him to pick up. Surprisingly he does. "Hello" he answers in really tired voice.
"Hey it's Bri"
"Oh...hi, why are you calling me at this hour?"
"Uh sorry I'll call back later today if you want?"
"No no no, I was just..Uh..I was just wondering why call me at this time in the morning. I'm actually surprised your calling me at all, in a good way"
"Hahaha. Nah the reason I called you was because, well you might laugh or think this is weird. But I had a dream about you burning. I won't go into details but it made me think about how shit you must be feeling right now."
"Awww thanks bro. Yeah I have been a bit depressed since you left. I have no one to talk to about everything I'm going through and yes I am itching to fuck" He told me. We talked about the problems he was going through from 4 till 7 in the morning. I invited him over so we could rekindle our friendship properly and get everything sorted out.

The day passed quickly and before I knew it Josh was already knocking at my door. I answered it and hugged him because no one was around. My mum was at work and my sister at the neighbors like always. "So what you want to do today, wanna start off by playing some xbox" I asked. An hour went pass and we joked and laughed. Finally we switch off the xbox and headed up to my room. I laid back on my chair and Josh on my bed. Then the moment came. "So let's talk about what's been going on" he asked.
"I'll start. When we were doing our thing I began to develop a care and love for you. I thought we could have a relationship.

So when you said you weren't interested, I felt like a fool and I thought you were using me. But I've always cared for you. So the other day I met Charlie my current boyfriend. Now I know you may be jealous but know that you missed out. Charlie is caring, nice, kind, hot, funny and a lot of other things that you and him share in common. Now the other day when we talked, I was completely surprised. I had no idea you felt that about me. The reason why I can't be with you and ditch Charlie is because one. He is my boyfriend. Two. It would break his heart. And three. Because I love him so much" I explained to Josh who looked a bit sad.

"Do you have a picture of him."
"Yeah I do". I reach from my chair to my desk where my phone lies sitting on the dock charging. I take it off find a cut photo of Charlie and pass it to Josh. Josh stares at it for a bit before handing it back to me. "He is really cute, I can see why you want to keep him" he replies as he passes the phone back.

"But hear me out. I still love you and I have no one to talk to or anything about this, except you. Can't you just you know. Have a bit of a thing with me as well. You don't have to love me as much as him but please just be there for me" Josh desperately explains. He walks over to me from the bed and grabs my hands and says "I love you". I look up into his eyes and almost fall under his spell. But then Charlie pops into my mind. "No. Don't do this Josh, don't ruin our friendship. I love Charlie. Don't push it. I'll be there for you but not in that kind if way."

"What am I going to do then?" He starts to cry. I feel so helpless and so bad for him. There's only one option, though I didn't want to do it. "Look I can't go behind Charlie's back like this. So here's the deal, you guys have to meet. Charlie's a nice guy and he will understand where you are coming from. So how about after me and Charlie get to the intimate stage of our relationship, I can ask if he would allow you to join in. No not in the relationship, but in the sex. I'm sure Charlie would like a threesome and I'm certainly sure that you would. We can all hang out and stuff but Charlie is mine and I am Charlie's. I don't want you to break us apart".

"Alright, I don't like this but alright. It seems like an okay deal" Josh agrees. We hug and shake hands. A few minutes later Josh leaves.

That night I sat back and contemplated what deal I had just brokered. What the hell was I thinking, Charlie doesn't even know and I've already made a deal. I was about to call Charlie and tell him, but my nerves got the better of me so postponed it till the next day. Looking at a picture of me and Charlie I fall asleep.

I wake up then in the same dark forest I had earlier this morning. This time, it was rain purple. Searching around for Charlie and Josh I hear a giggle which sounded like Charlie's. It came from behind me. I turn around and head for a glowing white figure in front of me. As I approach it I hear some of my conversations that I had had with Charlie but also the conversation I just had with Josh, both were a whisper. As I moved towards it, the whispers started to get louder. I ran as fast as I could to it. The white figure starts to stop blurring and take form.

What I see next leaves my in a state of shock. Josh and Charlie kissing. Both shirtless and in their jeans. They are passionately making out and I can't stand the sight of it. I shout at them to stop but they continue to do kiss as though I wasn't even there. I reached the last straw and charged at them as I got closer to them they both began to engulf in flames. Before I knew it they were totally covered in flames, it looked like a massive bonfire.

I wake up in shock to what I saw. I was sweating like a monkey on heat. I realized it was a dream but what did it mean and what reference does it have to reality. I turn and look to the picture of me and Charlie. I smile but think to myself am going down a wrong path with Charlie and are my dreams trying to warn me. I had no idea at all and was left feeling confused. I don't involving Josh into my relationship was a food idea.

To be continued........

*LIKE IN THE FIRST NOTE, REMEMBER THE DREAM SEQUENCES AND THE ELEMENTS RELATING TO IT ARE FICTIONAL. I DID INVITE JOSH OVER AND CALL HIM ON THE PHONE AT 4:00 IN THE MORNING BECAUSE I FELT BAD FOR HIM. ANYWAY I'LL TRY NOT USE ANY MORE DREAMS OR ADD MORE FICTION TO IT, REMEMBER TO RATE ME AS A AUTHOR, AND GIVE ME FEEDBACK :)*