Me and him: PART 7

Thinking back to what I just saw was unbelievable. I never thought it would come true, and what's worse I ignored the warnings. Still banging on the door Charlie kept shouting he was sorry for five or more minutes. Between that time a million things were rushing through my head. Whether I should dump him and never talk to him or Josh was a dominant thought. Suicide past my mind a few times, probably a worst case scenario.

Thinking about bashing both their brains out was also another thing going through my head. Most of the things that were circling around my head were negative thoughts but there was one positive one. Faint but positive, forgiveness. Going out there and forgiving Charlie would of been hard but forgiving Josh that's a completely different story.

After being tormented by all the negative thoughts and Charlie's banging on the door, I decided to speak. "Just fuck off" yeah maybe not the most glamorous thing to say. "Just fuck off and leave me alone, and tell josh the same".
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean for it to go like this".
"But you meant it to happen".
"No..yeah, not really. It just sort of happened".
"I don't wanna hear about it".
"Josh was the one who suggested it".

"Yeah and you went along with it, your no better than him". During saying all this I could hear Charlie starting to tear up. I was balling my eyes out like a baby. Through the door Charlie spoke "Look I'm sorry, there's no good reason I can give you to make you forgive me. The only one I got is that I love you and that I am idiot for doing that and it will never ever happen again.

Please please forgive Brenton. And I don't believe I'm saying this but I beg you please your one of the only good things that has happen to me over the past 3 years or ever for a matter of fact. After all I've been through lately you were the one who took it all out of my mind. Brenton....I love you". After hearing those words I thought mane just mabe I should give him another chance. Even though I hated his guts at the moment I still loved him to bits.

I got up from the shut toilet seat wiped my eyes and slowly opened the door. As I peered through the door I could see Charlie sitting down leaning against the wall. He was still naked, I don't think he had worn anything since last night. He had his head buried in his hands slowly weeping. When he heard the door open he quickly looked up and stood on his two feet. We both stood there wiping off our tears. We didn't talk or do anything. Finally we slowly hugged each other. "I'm so sorry" he said again. The hug lasted about 30 seconds before we drew apart. I didn't say anything. "You must be furious with me, but I promise I will never do anything like that again" he said. We stood there for a while before I saw him lean in closer.

He moves in closer, I move in closer. I close my eyes and my mind goes dark. I feel like a floating vessel drifting through the wind in a silence that could last a millennia. The silence is broken when his soft lips press up against mine. I open my eyes to see his rich hazel eyes staring straight at me. You could get lost in his eyes if you wanted to. As we kiss his hand grabs the side of my face and I close my eyes again. In my mind I say "I can't believe this is happening" but I'm not rejecting it, infact I'm in embracing it because it feels right. I think I'm in love with him.

I didn't think I could forgive that easily, but he made it so. After finishing our passionate smooch we decided to head upstairs and confront Josh. Holding hands as we went up his stairway. Entering Charlie's room we could see josh had almost packed up and was getting ready to leave with a semi hard on. He looked at me. I was glaring at him in disgust. "Brenton please believe me when I say I am so so so sorry" Josh spoke. I continued glaring at him. Charlie had left the room knowing this was between me and Josh. I didn't say a word to him, he to me. He understood that I was interested in talking and that i wanted him gone.

So he grabbed his bag and headed for the Charlie's bed room door. I moved aside as he walked past me. Just before he left the room I tapped his shoulder. He turned around to have a breeze block of pain hit him in the side of the face. As my fist connected with his face he fell to the ground. I gave him kick in the stomach be for telling him to get out in a vengeance voice. He grabbed his stomach while stumbling to get onto his feet. He knew he deserved it and walk downstairs and out through the front door with his hands still pressed on his stomach.

Charlie entered the room front the bathroom. He came up to me and held my hands. "You okay?"

"No not really, I just need some time" I replied. I let go off his hands and walked up to his bed. I laid down on his bed and pulled his linen sheets over me. Charlie knew I needed some time alone so he left the room again and shut the door. As soon as that door shut a tear rolled down my eye. I started to sniffle as tears were slowly pouring down my eyes. I wasn't crying really but the tears were coming out none the less. Just knowing the fact that my friend betrayed my trust and had sex with my boyfriend was just so shocking. I eventually went to sleep after the tears stopped coming coming out. It was only 4:00 in the afternoon.

To be continued.....