My Heart part 6: Smiles and Trials

Dan

I been in this jail cell for two days. Officers keep questioning me and my lawyer keeps bothering me with details. I don't fell like going to trail, in fact, I don't want to do anything but sit here and rot. I try not to cry, at least not during the day, but the tears come at night. It hurts so much to be laying by myself or not even hearing Johnny's sexy voice in the morning time. Today is no exception, yet it is worst than the other days. I just woke up with tears in my eyes and the scent of Johnny on my mind and in my nose. I just break down crying realizing I never see Johnny ever again, in fact I am the reason he is gone forever. Why couldn't I just forgive him? Why didn't I just admit how I felt instead of playing hard ball.

All of these depressing thoughts cause me to lay back down and cry in my pillows. I cry for another thirty minutes then the guard and my lawyer comes and tell me its time for my first day of trial. I get up and the guard handcuffs me and walks me to the police car to take me to my trial. My lawyer who is a 5'4 tall bold guy tells me he ride with us.

On the way to the trial, I continue crying because I know Johnny isn't gonna be there to tell me its all gonna be ok like he always use too. Today is already turning out to be the worst day of my life, I am in tears consistently, I miss Johnny, and I realized my life isn't worth shit without him. Its funny now I finally understand his letter and what he was saying, I laugh while I quietly think of these thoughts. But my laugh turns into hard sobs as I realize just want a dick I was.

I deserve whatever happens to me because there is no way I could ever repay Johnny for the pain I caused him.

Tif

I roll over and look at my cell phone which is virbating nonstop. I pick it up and see its the girl Kim who told me about Andy and Drew's stupid plan."Hello" I whisper

"Tif! Dan's trial today at 9:00 did you know. Where the hell yo ass been." She screams through the phone.

"I have been looking for Johnny any clue at all, trying to visit Dan, and just talking to Johnny's parents who will try to make Dan's trial today, Why?" I was getting worried all over again.

"Well because, Andy is trying to bribe people to testify against Dan at the trial." She said then paused giving me time to take the news in.

"Bribe them for what?" I asked puzzled.

"He wants people to say how Dan was abusive and stuff so they could put Johnny's disappearance on him. Some are taking the bribe but the true honest and loyal people like Tim and Jack aren't" She replied.

"Thanks Kim but I gotta go try to save Dan.

I got up rushing over to Johnny's house, and I didn't even put any make up on, I sure hope nobody sees me. I ran up to the front door and knocked like crazy on the door, but of course I had the key but I didn't want Johnny's parents to know. I saw a note they lift on the door mat. It said they were heading to the trial early. I quickly grabbed the key to the door out my purse and bursted into the house.

I ran up stairs and checked Johnny's closet for any signs like missing clothes, shoes, or anything that give me a clue to where he might have headed or how far. I looked all over the closet on the floor, on the top shelves, and still nothing. I collasped on the floor when I heard a buzzing sound coming from under the bed. I reached slowly under the bed and felt this hard, rough surface which I quickly grabbed. It was a big white and gold box which I remembered as our high school memories box we started making.

I removed the lid from the box and saw all kinds of pictures of Johnny, Dan, Jack, Jak, and I doing various activties. I got an idea maybe if I showed the judge these pictures maybe I could save Dan, but then I felt the box start vibrating. I moved some pictures and saw Johnny's cell phone, the same cell phone the police searched the house up and bottom for. The phone kept vibrating because Johnny's parents kept calling hoping he pick up if only they knew he didn't have his cell phone. The stop vibrating and I was about to put it back and grab the pictures when I noticed there was an alert that a text message wasn't sent.

I went into Johnny's text message and saw he sent a message to me right after we got to school, but it didn't send. I read it out loud:

"Tif I am sorry I can't do this in person, but I just had to let you know since your a sister to me and like the only family I have everyday. I am going to kill myself. If you want to pay your respects, Do you remember the Old Death Bridge where that lady forced her kids to kill themselves then killed herself because her man left her for a younger woman while thats where I am going. I am going to jump off the bridge because I can't bare this pain anymore."

I put the phone back in the box, grabbed the photos, and quickly headed to my car. I had to go to Death Bridge maybe his body is still there. It may be too late for Johnny but I am going to save Dan for him. I got in my car and drove to the Death Bridge. I got out of my car in my boots and walked on the dirty gravel road. I ran to the bridge and looked out down to the river down below. I saw Johnny's promise ring the one Dan gave him sitting on the edge. I grabbed it and fell to my knees and started crying...

Dan

It felt weird to be sitting in court with everyone I knew here looking and judging me for something I didn't do. It even sucked that they cancelled school for this bullshit. The judge was sitting on his chair and staring me down. The lawyer against me was 6'2 tall and young, he couldn't be more than 26 years old. He was attractive with long blonde hair which reminded me of Johnny, a big butt which reminded me of Johnny, and a sweet voice which also reminded me of Johnny.

I felt like crying all over again, but I couldn't because everyone I knew was here. I just looked hopelessly toward the judge with no emotion showin on my face.

"Your honorable Judge Dick please we would like to call on witnesses of Mr. Dan's abusive behavior and you will see that he is not only the one who caused Johnny's disappearance, but also a cold hearted murderer. First I like to call on Andy, Dan's closest friend." The lawyer shouted so everyone could hear him.

I watched as Andy walked toward the witness chair. He shot me his best evil grin and then put on his sad face for the court. Andy explained the various incidents of my abusive behavior even the recent Drew's pary. Next, the lawyer called on a girl named Sarah who was on the cheerleader team. She described the times I use to get mad if we lost and take it out on Johnny like yelling, hitting, name calling.

The last person was Drew who described the incident with me and him, and how I left him mentally scarred for life. I had to just sit here and listen to all these people expose my bad past. The stories they told hit my straight to my heart. I remembered all those times and it hurt worst to realize how horrible I actually was to Johnny and the fact he stayed made me almost cry.

The judge saw my grief and was merciful enough to call a thirty minute recess so I could get myself together. When everyone left I just broke down crying...

Tif

I cried a little longer, but knew I couldn't stay here crying all day. I got up and thought maybe Johnny didn't follow threw with it maybe he was somewhere else hiding out. Then I realized, there was a town just nearby here. I got back into my car and drove to the diner where we ate the time we all came out here together last Halloween. I was sitted by a beautiful girl or guy with long jet black hair with red streaks in it, black tight skinny jeans, and some black and pink stiletto boots. It looked like she had boobs but I was too sure they seemed flat.

She sat me in the back by the window, which I was glad because I didn't want to be around a lot of people. The lady's name tag said Cutie which I quietly giggled about. I ordered a cup of coffee and that was it because I needed to get to the trial which started 20 minutes ago. I put the ring and pictures on the table and just stared at them.

Then it finally hit me, my best friend was actually gone and I couldn't save him. I just broke down crying, thank goodness I didn't have any make up on. The waitress came back with my cup of coffee and looked at me. I looked up and saw the saddness she felt watching me cry. She tired to comfort me but that just made me cry harder. She reminded me a lot like Johnny which caused me to cry even harder. She whispered calming words in my ear which this also reminded me of Johnny. Her voice even kinda sounded like Johnny's, soft with a lot of feeling which could be hearded based on the emotion.

I looked into her green eyes and smiled, but I guess she got tired of me because she closed her eyes, shook her head, and said "Bitch shut the fuck up..."