My old mate the 3rd and final visit or is it?

I went around to his house wanting to have a bit of fun, and he let me in, his boy friend was away so we where alone. After only a few minutes we went through to his bedroom. 

I got him to strip me naked, he did with pleasure He kept on touching my semi. I looked through his drawers for some condoms and found a pack.

We both sucked each others cocks, which was the 1st time I had his cock in my mouth and it felt wired and I could not managed without coking, so I had to only go down half way. After a minute or two we pulled away and he jerked me off which felt so nice.

So I let him try to fuck me, my arse was a bit dirty so he got some toilet paper and cleaned my arse for me. He then tried to do me but it failed to work again like last time.

So he put a condom on his fingers and started to ram it up, this turned me on so much I thought I might follow through, he was poking me for around 2 minutes, I wanted it to last for ages but after a while he pulled out and had loads of shit on his fingers, so we decided to wash his finger and my arse was messy again, so I cleaned that before we went back to his bed.

So I put on a condom and tried to get up but I did not have the feeling to get rock hard so I failed to enter his arse. So I stuck a finger up to turn him on. 

After this we both just jerked off until I was about to cum, so he pulled me to him and I let it go all over his naked body.

I got my clothes back on and went home to have a shower since I smelled a bit.

A week has past and I am unsure if I want to go back another time or not, failing to get my cock up his arse, is what I really want to do. He loves my visit but i might have to back away since I am unsure if I really want to do any more stuff with him or any other guys.

I have been doing stuff with guys for over 15 years and have many nice memories of different guys. The only thing I have failed to do is cum in a guys arse, I have been up a few but never for long enough to cum.

So after 15 years I am going to call it a day with guys.