New School Year, New Crush : Part 1

First off.. My name is Rogelio and I live in Chicago. Well this is my first story and a little feedback would be appreciated.

So I'm 5'5;18 and 120 lb. I often got teased of how short I was. Haha. Thing was that we were back for our last year of high school.. And I was hoping to make it the best. School started and I made new friends as my schedule completely changed. I didnt really have a look out for any dude, I was kinda just living by everyday.... There was this one kid in division that I had always. I mean. Always liked. But he was totally straight.. No way I ever had a chance on him.. That's when I heard that everyone was comparing me to a kid named Ansel. Hmm... Everyone seemed to know this kid. He was popular. Good looking;) , tall, smart, but also a jackass. But rumors also went around that he was gay. I really wanted to find out. And so I added him on gay facebook. This kid really was good looking. He had that curly hair.. That smile. I was like OMG totally my type

I did one of those Like my status for truth is and he was first to like the status. My world stopped for a second while my heart skipped a beat, then thudded a million times per second. But I mean... Its just a face book thing, hes not into you or anything.. I thought to myself. And so I posted on his wall..
"Truth Is.... Your Cool.. We Should Talk... We Should Chill... Dude"

I really hoped I wasn't jumping over the line... Meanwhile... I started looking through his pictures and oh my.... He was so good looking.
That night I slept with a tingling in my heart that I hadn't experienced.. And I was afraid of what it was.. My god, what if the rumors were true.. And we got together...? I couldn't help my self from wondering...

Next thing I knew... I woke up, and it was time for school... I was feeling shitty today so I just chose some joggers, a bright blue sweater, and a white v-neck shirt and some Nike's to put on. I went on to the shower.. And I noticed that I was wildly thinking of Ansel.. I started to get kinda hard.. But I let it off and got into the shower.

By the time I knew it. I was on my way to first period... "Hey" I heard a friendly voice say. "Youre Rogelio arent you.?" I looked around for that voice. "Up here dude.." I heard a voice with a tint of humor. I looked up... And my heart raced a thousand miles per hour and my stomach did flip flops.. It was Ansel.

"Uhh.. Yeah. Its me" I replied EXTREMELY nervously.. I hoped he didnt notice... I noticed he was so TALL ... And just at that he stated "You're short.. That's cute" he said.. Did I just hear right.?!?! "Yeah I know.. And you look so tall.!" AGHHH I noticed we were right outside my 1st period class. "I Gotta go dude. See ya around" I said. "Talk to you later dude" he said... All first period I played over and over our mini conversation. And just then I realized how good he looked... And how shitty I looked... That got me feeling so down... Just thinking why he would ever look at me... 'sides... I could always loose a couple of pounds..... The bell rung.. On to 2nd period... I was still expecting Ansel to appear out of. Thin air. to my extreme depressive moment.. He didn't.. But I saw him far off he distance.. Joking around with some friends.. And I noticed just how he walked.. There was something about it that looked feminine... But I couldn't place it.. The day flied through with Ansel tied to my mind all day... Just then I would remember how bad looking I was... And how I wasn't that attractive at all. BUMMER.

I got home... Went on gay facebook chat... And saw Ansel was online... I was just about to rip my nerves apart trying to decide wether to chat him when he Posted on my wall. "Hey dude.. You look short.!" oh.. Wow... "Yeah I know.. Haha" was all I managed to reply. All the while... My brain was being fried over excitement.! My god.. He was talking to me. ME.! We kept on talking and it wasn't a very productive conversation. I did all my homework... And ate... When I happened to look in the mirror... I instantly noticed too much fat around here and there... How I could loose weight... And instantly remembered why Ansel or anybody else would ever lay eyes on me.

Just then I got a text.... "Hey Dude.. You Sleeping Yet.?-Ansel"
My body went up to heaven and back. My he texted me.! *HOW DID HE GET MY NUMBER!!?* But it couldnt. Be that much.. Just a friendly text. "No dude its okay.. Im still awake and you.?".

"i'm just bored.. Lying on bed...you're short lol" he said
"hahaha.. You like to tease me about it don't you.?"

"yeah..its fun...dude how do you make your hair like that..?its sexy" he said *He called your HAIR sexy I had to remind myself..

"uhmm.... I was pretty much born with it... Besides my hair=ugly. Your hair=extra sexy" I replied
After that we had an argument about who's hair was sexier.. Then we said good night and went to sleep...it was a great night....

I dreamed about him that night... Im not so very sure what it was about... But I recall that I dreamed that we were boyfriends... and we kissed.. And it made me feel so special....
It was friday.. And I was pumped up. I got ready for school and this time I tried my best to look good for Ansel. Turns out I didnt see him all day... And he had been absent... To much of my luck. He wasnt on facebook... But as soon as I hit home I received a text from ansel.
It was the usual friend conversation of hey and whats new.? Until I got a text...

"guess what dude.?"
"what.?"
"omg.. I just got a text from some guy asking me if we want to fuck"
*What.?! I asked myself...! I replied with a
"ew..lmfao dude.! What did you say.?! ;D lmfao"

"i obviously said no dude.!but dude.. Would you ever fuck a dude?" he replied...
I was left speechless (textiles)
"uhm... It depends... Like...i dont know... People change you know..so maybe later on in life..yeah... But as in now..NO.!" that was the best I could do
"i have a feeling you would nigga" he replied

I tried to back track.. I didn't want to loose him as a friend already...!!!!!!!i didn't want him to discover I was gay yet
"NO NO DUDE.! I just meant as if what if I went crazy or something dude.!"
"oh.. Okay then.." he replied... "but what of the guy was good looking and they payed you money... Would you do it still.?" he sent as a text...
My heart. was racing...my brain. I think im hallucinating.... He cant have just said that.....!

"Uhmm... Well...maybe then yeah...." I said....
He took like 20minutes to reply. Those were hell of nervous racking minutes... But he replied.
"You wanna dirty talk dude.?"
OH MY GOD.! What should I say.?!?!
"I dont know dude... Its gonna be weird..."
*i was so melting inside*
"it wont be.. It'll be our secret" he replied
"uhmm...okay...a secret"
*i couldnt beleive it... I was playing along
"so you start..."he said
"i cant.. I dont know how to.."
"i'll start... Im kissing you and were touching each other... Then what do you do.?" he texted..

*my hands were shaking. my world was rocking.!

"i'd kiss you back.... And touch you more"i said
"then i'd put my tounge in your mouth...and go down for your dick"
"i would moan...." I said
"omg.this is weird.lets stop" he said

"agreed..bye dude" I said.... He never replied... I felt so OMG. I had just dirtied talked.! Omg.!
And so I went off to sleep that night...wanking off to our dirty talk.
I woke up and went up for breakfast...just then I noticed my reflection on the mirror again and noticed how un-good looking I was... And decided to skip breakfast for my weight matter. UGH. I decided to go on the web and look for BMI calculators.. I put in all my info and got that I was *Normal Weight*
*not possible *not possible I thought over and over.... And decided to go for a jog... When I got back home... I noticed a text.
From: Ansel; 6:45 a.m. I opened it...

"Morning dude... Whats up.?" he had texted...
It was 11:40 a.m by now....
"not much..i'm eating pancakes" I replied/lied
Instantly he replied and I was surprised when the text came in.. And even the notification took my by surprise.. I dropped my new iPhone and heard it crash on the floor. Shit.shit.shit.! I screamed. "STOP CURSING" I heard my mom holler somewhere downstairs...
"thats cool..hey you wanna dirty talk.?;)" he texted
"uhmm..Let me eat breakfast dude.!" was my reply

"oh....sorry to bother you... Really sorry" he replied
Oh god... I didnt mean it that way.
"nah dude its okay.. So what you up to.?" I asked
"im in church school... I gotta go" he said...
Oh... I was left thinking....

He really was someone. He gave me the feelings no one gave me... My god.. Was it possible that we could hook up? I was bound to find lut in the next couple of weeks..

*** Thanks for reading guys. A little positive feedback would be appreciated.. It's my first story(True story) so dont be to harsh. I'll keep you guys updated. Thanks a ton