Rolling in the deep: Part 4

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I was going to see Olivia today, we were supposed to be meeting up with Kevin but apparently he had family plans or something like that, I was looking forward to seeing Olivia but I also had a lot to tell her, I guess it would feel good to get it all of my chest. I kissed Alex goodbye and left looking forward to seeing Olivia. I met her outside a small café where we always met up. She threw herself at me and wrapped her arms around me. We went inside and ordered two coffees. Olivia can always tell when something is wrong and so it made sense we had barely even sat down before she asked there was anything I needed to talk about. I couldn’t lift my head to look her in the eye, I just sat staring at the coffee swirling in my cup while I stirred it, it kind of reminded me of how my stomach felt at that point. “Danny, I know something is wrong so just tell me. Is it Alex? Did he hurt you? Oh my God I’m going to kill him” “No, Alex is the only thing getting me through this, its my parents, I told them I’m gay.” I stopped then to compose myself before having to utter the words which made my stomach turn every time I thought about them.

Before I could tell Olivia she interrupted me. “Wow, Danny, I’m so happy for you, what did they say?” Olivia looked so happy, she seemed so proud that I had the guts to tell my parents. “They kicked me out, I’m living with Alex” I felt like crying and just wanted to leave at this point”. “Oh no, I’m so sorry Danny, I didn’t know” I could tell she regretted her outburst of how proud she was, she felt stupid and embarrassed. “It’s fine you didn’t know, besides I’m fine now, everything’s ok, Alex is getting me through it, and I have you and Kevin, honestly I don’t need anything else, and Alex’s parents have been great” I could tell she wasn’t convinced, she always knows when I’m lying. “Daniel, don’t take this the wrong way, but, are you sure you’re ok with all this, you know, this would be hard on anyone, it’s ok to admit you’re struggling, Alex will understand if you tell him” I lifted my head to look her in the eye, angry at her for implying I couldn’t cope “For fuck sake Olivia I’m fine! I can cope just fine! Listen I have to go.” I stormed out of the café with tears streaming down my face, I just wanted to go home and be with Alex so I ignored Olivia when she called after me. Nothing else could possibly go wrong today, or so I thought.

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ALEX’S POINT OF VIEW

I sat waiting for him to come over, Dan had just left so I hoped he wouldn’t be back for a little while, I really needed time to be with this guy while Dan was gone. I just couldn’t stick it with Dan anymore, it was all too much and I needed to do something, so I decided to see a guy, I think his name was Kevin. He’s friends with Danny and I hoped he could help me to help Danny. The doorbell rang so I guessed it was him. I opened the door to a guy who looked to be about 5’8 and pretty slim, he had short black hair and piercing green eyes. “Hi, I’m Alex, thanks for coming over, I just didn’t know who else to go to” I tried to seem polite but honestly I wasn’t pleased at the situation, having to go through Danny’s phone to look for this guy’s number wasn’t exactly something I wanted to do. I remembered Danny came to my party with this guy and a girl, I think she’s called Olivia or something, anyway, we organised for Olivia to meet up with Danny while we stayed here and tried to work the whole thing out. I brought Kevin into the living room where I reluctantly explained the events of the past few weeks.

From Danny coming out to his parents, then being kicked out and then his mood swings and the problems we had been having, but this Kevin didn’t look surprised, he looked disappointed and upset, “Please Kevin I need your help, I cant go through this with him anymore, it’s literally killing me to see him like this. “Alex, I think I know what’s wrong here, just try not to get angry, Danny couldn’t tell you, he hates talking about it…” Kevin spoke with fear and seemed like he didn’t want to tell me what was up with Danny. “Kevin, please just tell me”. I could just barely make my voice heard, I was nervous and scared. “Danny’s not well, he’s been through a lot you know that, and now I know that” “Please just tell me Kevin” “Danny’s bipolar”. For a while after that all we could do was sit in silence, it was horrible, discovering something like this about the person you love, knowing you could have been helping them if they had told you, I didn’t know why he had to keep this from me.

After what seemed like an eternity Kevin continued. “He’s on medication, and normally it keeps him ok, I mean yeah, there are some side effects, like, he has no appetite, ever. But it keeps him happy, it makes him… normal I guess, but with bipolar people, a traumatic event can trigger a reaction like this, mood swings, not sleeping, not being able to concentrate on one thing for any length of time, feeling worthless. You probably remember seeing all these things now, but at the time you didn’t know, this happened to him when he was first diagnosed, he had a nervous breakdown, me and Liv, we’d seen all the signs, but taken no notice” I broke down and started crying, I felt like I had let him down, that it was my fault, “FUCK! I should have been there for him I should have known realised, what now? I can help him now right?” Kevin lowered his head when I said that, he couldn’t look me in the eye for whatever he was about to say, and I didn’t want to know why.

“He needs help Alex, proper help, no matter how much we tell him it’s going to be ok, it’s not enough, we need to take him to a place where he can get the help he needs. It’s not going to be easy, and you need to know he could hate us for this, but its what’s best for him” I understood why he couldn’t look at me now, the news broke me into pieces, I felt like I could hear and see my world falling down around me, like this was the beginning of the end. “Ok, listen Kevin you need to go, he’ll be home soon, I’ll ring you later tonight, we’ll try to sort this.” I showed Kevin out but didn’t wait at the door to wave goodbye to him as he walked away. I shut the door immediately and tried to calm myself down before Dan came home. He was going to need me.

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DANNY’S POINT OF VIEW

I was coming around the last corner before Alex’s house when I seen Kevin leaving Alex’s. Why did he lie to me? Why was he with Alex? My mind rushed from thought to thought constantly imagining the worst the way it always did. There’s only one explanation, Alex is fucking one of my best friends, Kevin and Alex, I should have fucking known, I didn’t know how they could do this to me. Olivia must be in on it too, why else would she have invited me out today. There was no way I was going to see Alex right now. I didn’t know where I was going to go but I was going to go somewhere.

ALEX’S POINT OF VIEW

It had been a few hours since Dan went out with Olivia now and I was really worried, I tried ringing him but there was no answer. I rang Kevin and he organised to meet me at my house, I met him outside before getting in one of my parents cars and heading of to look for Dan, scared of where we would find him and what state he would be in.

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DANNY’S POINT OF VIEW

I wandered aimlessly for a few hours, not knowing where to go and not caring, I got a few dirty glares from people because of the state I was in but I didn’t care, my world was crumbling and I knew this was the end.

Eventually I arrived back at Alex’s house but it was empty, I threw my keys down in the hall before wandering through the deserted house. I made my way to Alex’s room where I lost it. Seeing the place where I allowed him to take my virginity made me so angry, he had probably fucked Kevin in here, in our bed. I smashed anything I could find, throwing his things, destroying everything he cared about and loved, I smashed his sports trophies he had worked so hard to win, his photos of loved ones. Once I was satisfied with the destruction left in his room I unleashed havoc on the rest of the house, I felt happy but distraught at the same time, I was glad to get revenge but I hated myself for doing it.

I left nothing intact, destroyed anything I could. I only had one thing left to take from him, myself, I went upstairs and started to pack up my belongings which just a few days ago I had placed with his. I lifted my bags and made my way towards the foor feeling exhausted and upset, but then collapsed in the hall, lying with my face flat on the ground, the same way I had landed that night my father had kicked me out, I felt this was as low as I could go, then I heard a car pull into the driveway, a few seconds later the door opened and two men stood staring at me in disbelief.

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ALEX’S POINT OF VIEW

I opened the door to find Dan lying on the floor in the middle of destruction. Everything was wrecked, the house, the furniture, the man I loved. I took a second to adjust to my surroundings, I was in absolute disbelief. Then I rushed to his side, “Kevin lift his bags and throw them in the car now!” I scooped a broken Danny from the floor and carried him in my arms, I put him in the back seat of the car and fastened his seat belt, this wasn’t going to be an easy journey.

We drove in silence as I followed the sat nav directions leading us to the end of our journey. Danny sat in silence with his head down, it was probably best I didn’t see the state of his face, I don’t think I could have handled seeing him this upset. Finally I gathered the courage to speak to him, “Dan, Kevin told me about your illness, so we talked about it, and were going to get you help, everything will be fine I promise baby” Danny just kept his head down but I heard him start to cry “No, please don’t do this, I cant go back, please Alex, don’t make me” I had never seen him this upset, it killed me as I felt my stomach twist and my heart split as I listened to his pleas for help. “Dan, please don’t make this harder than it already is, I love you too much to see you like this” Danny said nothing just kept his head down. “Dan, I love you”. Still nothing, “DAN, answer me” “I hate you for doing this to me”. I clenched my fists to the steering wheel and bit my lip.

Finally we pulled up at Greenwing Psychiatrist Ward, the place looked horrible, the building was old and dark, very few lights lit up the surrounding area and doctors in uniforms were waiting outside to section Danny. They approached the car and helped him out before escorting him inside the building. I watched him as he made his way towards the building, he turned to look at me with a mix of love and resentment, Kevin put his hand on my shoulder and told me we had done what was best for him. Dan turned back towards the building and disappeared inside leaving me feeling alone and upset, wondering if I would ever see him again.

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