Secret Admirer

I was a 'normal' guy, 36 years old, married to a great woman called Laura and had 3 gorgeous kids, Joe at 14, Darren at 13 and Hannah at 11. I lived in a 4 bedroomed detached house in a good housing estate, near to family and friends. I also owned my own advertising company which was doing well (Still do and is), with loads of contracts and jobs coming in and it kept the money rolling in. I thought myself as a kind and caring boss to all my staff and I hoped that they respected me more for it.

Ok so my life and marriage wasn't brilliant. We had or ups and downs, and the last couple of months we hadn't made love, or been intimate once. Marriage guidance had helped, but after 16 years of marriage, I think we both knew what was coming. Yeah so I loved her and she loved me but something was missing for the both of us, especially me. My kids mean the world to me, so we stayed together. We remained good friends though and got along well.

I was bi-sexual, well I'd experienced gay sex when I was younger and found to like it. Since I met Laura, I hadn't really thought about it, or another man. I'd look and admire, but nothing would come of it and I wondered if maybe that was the problem, that maybe I needed to do something to get it out of my system. I never did and vowed to never cheat on Laura and we had both agreed on that. I would leave before going into another relationship and she said the same thing. She knew about my sexuality and at first it worried her, but she trusted me and I trusted her.

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So the week started off as normal. Monday morning I got up, showered, shaved, dressed and had breakfast. As I was about to leave the house, the post came so I picked it up. I decided to open my mail at work. Sitting in my office, I opened up the bills, then there was an envelope with just my name on, no address, just my name in handwriting. It looked like a birthday card type envelope. Inside was a plain card with a red heart on the front, and inside that, read

'Daniel
You are a wonderful person and mean a lot to everyone, mean a lot to me. I love you with all my heart and soul. 
All my love, your secret admirer xxx'

I stared at the card for what must have been ages, before my secretary walked in. I quickly came back to life and hid the card away. The look on my face must have been one of shock and suprise because she came rushing up to me like I'd just passed out. I thanked her but made no mention of it, and we discussed buisness for that week.

When she left I looked at the card again. I didn't recognise the handwriting, but then again I was sure it was disguised. I thought about who it could be, maybe it was Laura, maybe someone at work or female friends. Maybe it was just a simple prank, a joke to make me think someone actually fancied me. Yes that was it, a joke. 

I never gave it another thought and put the card in my draw, but casually kept a closer eye on people as I walked around my building and offices. Maybe someone would give something away somehow.

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Nothing came of it until 4 days later on the Friday. As I walked to my car in the morning, there was a single red rose held down by the windscreen wipers. I picked it up and looked around me for any signs of unusual behaviour. Nothing. I took it off and drove to work. When I got there, in my parking space was another single red rose. I was seriously beginning to think someone was having me on. 

Going into work I looked at everyone again. So this person knew where I worked and where I lived. I suppose that narrowed it down a little, but still, most people at work knew where I lived. 

Mary, my secretary came in with a coffee. She smiled and said good morning as she normally did. Was it her? At 52 she was a little too old for me. Anyway I doubted it, she was very happily married and had just renewed her wedding vows. But then again?

I tried not to think about it again, but I couldn't help confess my problem to Andy, Steve and Marco that night in the pub. Andy was my best mate since childhood, Steve we had known for a few years and Marco we had met at the gym, 3 years back. They all laughed it off and thought it was funny. 

"You seriously think you have a secret admirer Dan?" Andy asked laughing at my expense.

"Well how do you explain it then? You know I'm starting to look at people differently, wondering if anyone could be her."

"Or him." Marco butted in.

"No guys it's a woman, I'm sure of it." I laughed.

We all sat there quiet for a moment. I hadn't thought of it being a guy. So a few people knew about my sexuality, I didn't hide it from anyone. Andy, Steve and Marco knew. Hell, me and Andy had sex when we were teenagers, wanking and sucking each other off like you do when growing up and we never thought anything about it. Most guys do the same thing, expect my feelings for guys became a bit stronger. Thats when I knew I liked guys as well as girls and we stopped messing about. I even fancied Andy at one point and if I were honest I still found him attractive, but gave it no more thought. They also knew about my troubling marriage and lack of sex life.

"Hey it could be that hot new neighbour of yours mate?" Steve asked.

"Fuck yeah she's gorgeous." Andy answered. We chuckled. "I'd do her."

"What about you're wife?" I asked smiling.

"I'd settle for a threesome." He casually said, then grinned.

We shook our heads in despair. That lad will never grow up.

We carried on chatting and I got pissed. We soon forgot about the secret admirer.

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The following Monday in my office, the phone rang but when I answered it, they hung up. This happened numerous times that week. I wondered if it was the 'admirer'. I dialled out to see what number it was but it said 'the caller withheld their number'. Typical. 

On the Thursday I recieved a bunch of flowers and chocolates. I asked the delievery guy which flower shop he was from and decided to phone them and find out who ordered them. A woman answered the phone and I told her who I was and what I wanted.

"Sorry love, the person who ordered the flowers gave the instructions by our website. It's a new system we have for those who want to be kept anonymous. I don't know who ordered them. Sorry I cannot help you."

I thanked her anyway and put the phone down. Fuck! 
Still, I ate the chocolates.

"Who are they from Daniel?" Mary asked, walking in. 

I allowed my collegues and employees to call me by my first name. It doesn't seem as boss-like that way. "Wish I knew Mary." I replied, offering her a chocolate. "Would you mind finding a vase for these?" I asked politely.

"Not at all." She answered grabbing a chocolate and the flowers then walked out of the office.

I was honestly baffled by all the secret admirer stuff. I needed to know who it was soon before I cracked up. I even started looking at my new neighbour like Steve had suggested, but she gave no indication of finding me attractive or wanting me. 

Nobody at work did either, except for Janice. Now Janice and I got along well. She started working for me 5 years beforehand and we flirted something big. She was hot, but had a boyfriend. Still she was one possibility. 

At the gym there were a few people we spoke to. Brad was a hot guy and he knew I fancied guys as well as girls. We flirted around also, and he asked me out a number of times. We went out just as mates and I really liked him. In fact I stopped seeing him because I felt like I was cheating. Maybe it was him, maybe he felt more for me than I realised. He wouldn't be a bad choice, maybe something could happen between us.