The Recluse : Part 1

I had always had a tough life. I was living a lie. Being a homosexual in high school was tough, especially when you lived in a single parent household with sparse income, and worse a brother in the seventh grade. It was hard to where a smile but I did. My world came careening to the ground when the stress got to my mother. It was the worst time for me. I was very close to her. As a senior I, tried my best to be responsible. I brought home good grades. I worked some jobs here and there, but I began to realize that my mother was terminal. My mother’s time was limited. She wouldn’t live longer than three weeks and I had three months of school left.

It was devastating to me. I cried for those twenty one nights until she finally left. I knew I was screwed. I had no family. I had no ways of making ends meet. I had aspirations. I dreams of college. I wanted to be a real-estate agent so I can get my remnants of a family out of here. But my priorities were put on hold. I looked at my brother. It was so surreal to him. He hoped that my mother was just closing her eyes.

“It’s going to be alright.” I said to him with a smile. I knew things would never go back to normal. I just didn’t want him to know that. He was the only family I had left and I was going to protect him and provide for him at all costs. I didn’t care if I had to drop out of high school. I was going to take care of my brother. The doctor looked at me, noting that I was young. I knew he was going to call child services.

I grabbed my brother and we left. We went back to the apartment and the horrors continued. All of our stuff was thrown out. People pillaged through it. The landlord was there giving us a cold eye. I couldn’t believe it. We were homeless. I looked at my brother. He was angry. He ran up to one of the men taking our stuff a knocked him down. I stood their speechless.

“Stop!” he yelled to the others. He grabbed all of his and my clothes and turned to me. “Why are you just standing there?”
I walked up the landlord. She just was a bitter woman.

“You don’t understand! My mother has been sick. She couldn’t work. Can you please just give us another month?” I begged.
“You are two months behind in payments. Tell your mother to get off of her sick ass and provide!” The woman said back. I gave her a cold scowl. Her words bit me deeply. My brother looked at her in anguish. He wanted to hit her in the face.
“She just died.” I said to her. The landlord’s eyes opened widely. She was shocked that their mother was not there with them anymore. She turned around.
“I can’t help you.” She said bitterly. My brother dropped the bag. He ran after her ready to lash out.

“YOU SELFISH BASTARD!!!! WE LOST EVERYTHING AND YOU CAN’T EVEN HAVE A SYMPATHETIC EYE!!!” My brother screamed crying. I grabbed him holding him back. He desperately tried to get at the woman. He elbowed me in the neck but I held my grip. The land lord turned around.
“Tell your father. I know you have some family.” The woman assumed.

“No, we don’t.” I said back as I dragged my brother away. I picked up the bag with our clothes and walked away with my pride. I let my brother go. We didn’t know where to turn to. We had no money, we had no food, and we were in the middle of New York City.
“What are we going to do?” My brother asked. I knew some things. I knew there was an underground place for people like us. Fugitives if you might, people that lost everything. They called themselves the Recluse.

One of my best friends was a Recluse. He joined after his parents died in a car accident. The Recluse is not a gang, just a group of kids that look out for each other. They lived in the abandoned city far underground. They called it Limbo’s Amsterdam. I’ve never been there but I knew where it was. I looked at my brother.
“I know a place where we can go. It’s far though.” I finally replied back. We walked all the way to the industrial mill. It was cold out. By the time we reached it, the sky was dark. My brother was extremely confused. He had no idea where we were going. He didn’t ask though. He just had a dumbfounded expression on his face.

We continued, making it to huge drop off point. It was a large broken hallow tower shaft that went hundreds of feet below the ground. It was so dark I could barely see. I could barely make out the ladder. I turned to my brother. I got the bag from him and went down the ladder. To him it appeared if I was disappearing. He stood their nervous and afraid.

“Allen, are we supposed to go down that?” He asked unsure about it.
“Yes!” I said back. He cautiously climbed down it. It was scary for him. He couldn’t see anything. He didn’t know if the ladder would break or if the ladder had missing steps. We eventually got to the bottom. I looked up. It was clear that we were desperate if we climbed four hundred feet below sea level just to have somewhere to stay. I turned around to the long tunnel. I could see lights illuminating the tunnel from where I was.

We walked down the tunnel. We still couldn’t see but as we continued to walk we could see the light getting brighter. We eventually reached it. It was two large lamps with candles attached. I could see the in Recluse sign painted on the walls. I could hear them talking. I followed the voices. I turned the corner, and there were countless old buildings. It was pretty. There sitting at the base of a building was a camp of runaways. I spotted my friend. His name was Max. He was a tall fellow, at about six foot four. He was fit and well cut. I was so nervous when I looked at him. He was so sexy. I walked over to him.

“Max.” I called out. He looked up surprised. He stood up ready to greet me. He towered over me. I was five foot nine and rather skinny.
“What are you doing here?” He asked smiling. I smiled back weakly. He could tell something was wrong.

“My mom just died. Me and my brother have nowhere else to stay. I don’t want him to get taken from me.” I said back.

“Well, Allen we have plenty of space but times are tough. You still have to get a job. It’s not like it was five years ago when we could just manage our own food. Now it is every man for himself.” Max said to me. I sighed.
“I’m dropping out of high school. But I’m making my brother keep going. I may not have a choice anymore but he surely does I’m eighteen and he’s twelve.” I said. My brother heard me. He didn’t care. He just wanted to be treated fairly.
“Dex can go to the kid caravan. It is safe and the girl in charge over there is stern with the kids. She makes sure they are well fed, well dressed and well educated.” Max told me. That was good news for me. Yet I felt that I wouldn’t have to take care of my brother. That went against my vow. I know pride was a horrible thing but I wanted to keep my word.

“That is good, but I’d rather take care of my brother than somebody I don’t know.” I said with a weak smile.
“Allen, it has been so long. Come on, I’ll take you to my place. You and your bro can stay there.” Max said with a smile. I looked back at Dex. He was unsure how he felt.

Max led the way back to his home. It was rather close. It was a huge old town house with three floors. It was old and tattered but fully furnished with electricity and running water. In fact, all the houses here had electricity running water.

“There is no type of regulation here so we can take what we want.” Max told us. Dex still had no reply. He was hurt that he had no mother anymore. It broke my heart to know my brother. I knew Dex was going to bottle up how he felt. I didn’t know what to do.
“Where can I sleep?” Dex asked.
“You can pick any room. I don’t care.” Max told him. Dex walked up the stairs and found a room to sleep in. He hopped into the bed and dozed off quickly.

I just sat down on the couch. I couldn’t stop thinking about how my mother left so abruptly. What could I do? What was I going to do tomorrow? I need a job. How does my brother feel? All of these thoughts ran through my mind. I couldn’t hold back my tears.
“I felt the same way you did when I lost my parents. I just…you have it worse than me. I was an only child. My parents spoiled me to death. It was a wakeup call when I realized that I had nothing. You had to struggle all your life, thinking about when your next meal was going to be. But you don’t have to worry about it anymore. You are free in a lawless town. You can do what you want!” Max said.
“I hope and pray that I can find a solution. I don’t think this is the life for me.” I said.

“It is a crazy lifestyle. You have to leave for work every morning, climbing four hundred feet twice a day. But it is worth it. No utility bills, No mortgage can hold you back.” Max told me.
“I just can’t see all the solutions. I’m blowed right now! I can’t think straight.” I said back. Max sat next to me, he sighed.
“You need to do something that will take your mind off of this.” Max suggested. Irritated, I looked at him.
“What do you have in mind?” I asked.

“Let’s go to the Grind. The Grind has tons of females that are just looking for fun. You have to be eighteen or older to go.” Max smiled. I knew it. He didn’t know I was gay. I had to break it to him.
“Uh, Max I’m gay.” I said to him. I couldn’t look at him. I could feel him getting up. He didn’t respond. He stood in front of me.
“Well still you should go. Just go have some fun.” Max told me. I looked up to him. His crotch was right in my face. It took all of my self-restraint to not risk our friendship on some risqué thoughts. He was just right there. He was so sexy. Even more so because he understood it, he didn’t judge me. It was all I could ask for from anyone.

“You think so?” I asked surprised.
“Of course, you don’t think I’m going to judge someone I was friends with for my entire life just because of their sexuality?” Max asked me laughing.
“I don’t know. I lost people that I thought I trusted so much just because they learned I was gay. It hurt me. So I said fuck it. I’m gay and proud!” I told him. Max stood their looking impressed.

“If I remember you from ninth grade, you were the most passive dude ever. I see you got some fight in you know.” He said laughing.
“People think they can just run over me. People still do, I just can’t stand there and be mean to someone. That is not me, even if they’ve dogged me.” I told him. He sat back down beside me.

“You made me speak to soon. Well I’ve got to tell you this. These people here are mean and cold. That is why this place is called Recluse. It will turn you. I swear. I got your back though. People here respect me.” Max told me. I stared at his face. He still had the same jaggedly rugged appearance except, with maturity. He was filled out completely. He was muscular and dense, with such a sculpted body that it brought out the lustful side in me.

His eyes were green, his hair jet black. He had a raptorial brow ridge that made him look fierce and stern like a mighty eagle. Yet he had a gentle side that he was not afraid to show. That was what had me hooked. I didn’t know what say. I just stood there looking star struck in his presence.

“Why are you looking at me like that?” He asked. I just felt so awkward. I had to do something. He seemed uncomfortable. Instead of looking away, I leaned in and kissed him. I didn’t know what I was doing. I didn’t recognize what I was doing until I tasted his soft buttery lips.

He pushed me off of him. I was mortified. I turned around about to walk away but I felt a powerful tug. I was being hurled back into the couch. I thought he was attacking me. I was terrified. He then got over top me pinning me down. I couldn’t even get a word out. I just shook their trembling. To my surprise he kissed me back. I was so confused. He put all of his weight on me as he kissed me lower. He went down to my neck. His body was so warm. It was like fondling a hot river stone.
He leaned up, stopping. He looked at me. He then gave me a cute smile. He pulled up my shirt over my head.

“You’re so cold.” He told me. I smiled at him. He then began to kiss me all over my chest. It tickled so well. I closed my eyes as he went lower. It felt so good. I was losing myself. He then began to pull my pants down revealing my tight briefs. My penis was like a rock. It bulged through the top of my briefs. He began to kiss me there too. It was like he was a professional. He pulled down my briefs revealing my cock. I was not terribly large. I was about six and a half inches and not so thick. He grabbed my dick and gave the most deviously hot smile I’ve ever seen someone make. He opened his mouth and began to suck my penis. All I could see was my entire penis disappearing down his throat. It felt so good.

Seconds felt prolonged into minutes. I could feel pre-ejaculate fluid coming from my penis. I knew soon that I was about to explode in his mouth. I closed my eyes tightly as the sensation set in. I did it. I came all in his mouth. He swallowed it all. He came took off his shirt too. He also took of his pants. His abs turned me on so much. His pectoral muscles were so well sculpted that I could resist staring. Looking at his legs, his quadriceps were so well defined that it looked like I was looking at an ancient roman statue of Jupiter. He climbed overtop me once again. His penis rubbed against mine as we kissed. I can feel his pelvis thrusting over mine. Whatever he had hidden under his boxers was some type of monster. I could feel that it was much thicker and longer than mine. I wanted it in my mouth so bad.

It was like he read my mind. He climbed up over my shoulders and he pulled out his cock slapping it over my face. The thump was heavy. I was so turned on at this point that I was willing to do something I never did before. I wanted to go the whole mile. I wanted anal sex.

His penis was like nine inches. I opened my mouth letting it slide in. He forcefully pushed forward several times making his entire penis disappear down my throat. I was being face fucked and enjoying every minute of it. His pre -ejaculation slid down my throat. I thought he was about to come in my mouth. I braced myself. I found myself waiting ten minutes, but still he hadn’t come yet. He stopped suddenly. I then found myself being flipped over. I was booted over with my butt high into the air. I thought he was about to slide his massive cock in. I grew cautious. I braced thinking it would be as painful as I heard.

No, he began licking my rectum. He spread my cheeks as he let his tongue slip down my anus. It was so amazing. It tickled. He must have had a long tongue. It went in like two full inches. It was so teasing. He then stopped.

I thought he was going to put his penis in finally. To my surprise he put his middle finger in. It burned slightly. It was pleasurable nonetheless. He went in and out with his middle finger swirling it around. It was so great. I never thought that pain could be so great.

He pulled out his finger. I thought again that he was going to put his penis in. No, he put his middle and index finger in. The burning sensation was so amazing. He twirled it a around. I could feel his fingernails digging in. It was so sensational. I could feel my hips grinding against his two fingers. All this teasing he was doing was so pleasurable.

He stopped again. I thought he was about to put in a third finger. I was shocked when I felt a broad dense cylindrical object sliding slowly up my anus. The burning was so intense that I clinched the pillows with my nails. He went all the way in. It was so painful. I wanted him to stop but I couldn’t resist the temptation. He grinded around in my ass making his dick touched every corner of my ass.

I could feel him putting his hands on my back. He pushed down as began to go in and out, slowly. The pressure and pain combined made for an experience so pleasurable that I never wanted it to stop. Soon he began to speed up. I moaned out as the powerful burning intensified. He sped up again. It was so great. I never thought my first time would be so spectacular. Soon he stopped. He flipped me onto my back. He spread my legs and pushed them up revealing my rectum. He slid his penis in again.

This position was so much more intense. We were face to face he. He placed all of his pressure onto me as he began to thrust his pelvis back and forth. We kissed the entire time we had sex. It was so intense. He went slowly. It felt so good. I didn’t want it to end. He did this to me for forty minutes. He suddenly began to speed up.

“I’m about to come!” He said to me. I smiled as I closed my eyes. Max let out a huge groan. I felt this warm fluid oozing inside my rectum. Max stopped. He sat on the couch staring me down as if he owned me. I looked at him. I got up smiling.

“Did that take your mind off of it?” he asked.
“Yes it did!” I said smiling.