The Road to Happiness : Chapter 2

Then, he let go of my hand and threw his hands around me. He wrapped his hands gently around my body, taking me in his arms.

- ‘It’s okay Alex… I am here. I am here for you.’ He whispered in my ear. His whisper flooded life back into my body. It slowly warmed up and there I was, throwing my own hands around him, clutching on him, afraid of losing of him. My mind was not working anymore. Emotions took in place and it all just flooded. I broke in a loud cry, snuggling myself as deeply as I can in John’s arms.
- ‘Shh, babe, it’s okay, it’s okay…’ He whispered in my ear and gently planted a kiss on my cheek. I withdrew my head and looked straight in his eyes. I gasped when I saw them. I never had noticed he had deep, blue eyes. But those eyes… they were wounded. It reflected plead, pain. And.. for the first time in my life, I saw John silently crying.

Our faces slowly closed in, making our noses to touch. He breathed on my lips. Though it was cold, it was his breath that made lips a bit warmer. They say never kiss in wind. I didn’t care. Not this evening.

I relaxed my clutch and gently put my palms on his back, holding him too. Then, our lips touched. What experience it was. Static electricity coursed my body as I kissed John and he kissed me back. His lips were gentle with mine as if I was treasure. His kiss was true, pure and nothing held back. He wanted me in his life. He wanted me in his arms forever, I could tell. I could feel. It was strange but yet, I knew – it was true. And I wanted him too in my life. More than anything. We stopped kissing and looked again in each other’s eyes. He pressed his forehead against mine and put his palm on my cheek. It was warm and it felt especially warm on my cold cheek.
- ‘I love you Alex.’ He whispered, never lowering his eyes from mine.
- ‘I love you too John. You have no idea..’ I whispered back. Both of us smiled then. I still cried, and I knew he had tears in his eyes too but for what seeing smile on his lips made sure that these tears were happiness. Maybe he knew or not but at that moment he saved me. His gentle arms took me in and saved me.

His small free time from college quickly ended. John had to return to college and I was left behind at home. As soon as I saw him driving out of his family’s driveway I already missed him but I knew he loved me and I loved him. I had to wait for a merely month till he was back home for Christmas. It was small time but still, long enough for me to drive me insane and miss him like crazy. I already missed our cozy cuddling at his couch when we were watching movies. I already missed his lips touching mine all the time. I missed his gentle touch which meant to me everything. His family knew he was gay and he had told his feelings about me. His family had promised to be silent and nothing to tell my mother. I was grateful them for that. I still didn’t know would it be good to confess my own mother about my sexuality but sooner or later I had to do it. But it was not time yet.

I found how to keep my mind off those moments a bit – I volunteered for community job. I was helping out at old people’s home, taking care of them. They offered me payment but I couldn’t accept it. My heart was kind I knew these people needed love like I did. My life without John felt like nothing but then again, I thought life without Stephen was impossible. I knew I should be on guard a little bit at least but something about John and his aura made me sure. So for next month I spent my time taking care of old people, helping them and preparing the place for Christmas. Old people deserve that, especially those, who had no families who would visit them. I always thanked the relatives of these people as they visited them and told everything what these people had been telling me about their families. I felt sorry for those, who were abandoned. It was heartbreaking to watch how they were gazing out the window, hoping they could see cars of their loved ones drive in. Some of them did, some didn’t.

It was 23rd of December and my shift was slowly closing in to end. I was helping to decorate place with Christmas decorations as well as prepare presents the families had left in case if they don’t make on Christmas Eve. Weather news predicted snowstorm coming on Christmas Eve. Suddenly my phone rang.
- ‘Hello?’ I asked, pressing my mobile between my shoulder and ear as I was hanging a decoration on top of fireplace.
- ‘I hope you haven’t forgotten about me.’ Voice said in phone. I felt like my heart rebooted for the exact second as I heard his voice in my phone. I smiled widely.
- ‘Hmm, let’s see… missing you each second and just waiting for our reunion tomorrow night. I am dying to see you.’ I said. Some of the staff girls turned at me and smiled. I blushed slightly but smiled back. They knew about me, because I told them and I knew I could trust them. So I told about me, John and our relationship.
- ‘Well, to be honest, I can’t wait any longer so…’ I heard him saying and then there was a ring on old people’s home doors. I went to open them and there he was, with smile on his face and his phone still pressed to his ear.
- ‘Guess who.’ He whispered, gazing in my eyes. I threw my arms around him and snuggled myself in his arms as I did first time.
- ‘I missed you.’ I whispered, my face tucked in his neck and nuzzling his neck.
- ‘I missed you too.’ He caressed my back and kissed my cheek.

- ‘Wait, I thought you are getting back only tomorrow morning?’ I asked.
- ‘Well, we did our mid-term exam faster. Professor thought we were ready and apparently he had his own plans for today. I don’t complain.’ He smiled and kissed me on lips. The kiss was warm, caring and also taste of missing me. I loved him so much. I was madly in love with him.
- ‘My shift ends in 20 minutes.’
- ‘It’s alright. I can help you.’ He came in with me. I did a quick introduction of him to people who were in main room, decorating. We were assigned to decorate Christmas tree while everything else is finished. I let him the honors to put the star on top of it.
We said our goodbyes and went to his car. I knew I would be coming back after Christmas here but for Christmas I wanted to be with John. For a month I missed him and was just dying to be in his arms again and feel his touch. And I was finally ready. I wanted to give myself to him, completely.

His parents were planning to visit grandma, who was 2 hours drive away. John wanted to go too but his parents told him to stay home and besides, he could visit her for New Years. But I know they wanted to him be together with me. He was not the only one who was keeping in contact with his parents. They begged me not to tell him for they had spilled me that whenever John was on phone with them, he just couldn’t shut up about me. That was making me blush badly so that day I was stuttering on phone struggling to jump in my mom’s car and drive off to college where John was. His brother was supposed to get back home on 25th of December. He was flying in from New York, where he had flown 3 months ago to attend college there. He had transferred there. I didn’t know his brother because no matter how much time I spent together with John, his brother was somewhere else. But from what I gathered, he is cool.

24th was just the two of us at his place celebrating Christmas. I had cleared it with my mom. Why am I saying mom? Because, well… I told her. I told her about me. I told about me and John. She was shocked but still, she accepted. She loved me no matter what. I was grateful to her for that. We watched a bit of Christmas movies and then..
- ‘Merry Christmas Alex.’ John smiled at me handing me small wrapped up box. I hoped he would give me a Christmas present because I had prepared one for him – I had gotten two tickets to his favorite band concert in February.
- ‘Oh wow, thank you!’ I blushed and took the box but put it away. I took my own present.
- ‘This is for you John. Merry Christmas.’ I whispered and handed him the envelope. I was not much of wrapping person, so I went with first thing I could put the tickets in – envelope. He opened it straight away and from his smile I could see he loved the present.
- ‘Thank you, I love it. Now open mine.’ He smiled and handed his box again. A bit nervously I unwrapped and took off the lid. To my surprise, there was a small necklace with small chain like guys would wear and in middle was noticeable enough, a red ‘J’ letter. I certainly knew what ‘J’ stood for.

- ‘Thanks John..’ I whispered and put it around my neck straight away. I loved him so much, so badly I couldn’t wait anymore. I wanted him. And I wanted him badly.
- ‘Are you okay?’ John asked. That, I couldn’t answer. I still had my doubts about everything but one thing I knew definitely – I loved John. Maybe all the things were still inside me but being around John had made me feel safe. I was secure in those warm arms of his every time he gently wrapped them around me. I didn’t want him to let me go, never.
- ‘There is… another present I want to give to you.’ I whispered and gazed in his eyes. I could see he was interested. I could see he was waiting for me to break the small silence I left after my words. For that moment, I let go everything. I erased it was even Christmas. I erased even myself. There was just him, perfect boy right there, next to me sitting on couch and he was mine. For that matter, I was his.

I slowly leaned in. I was lost in his eyes but then I closed mine, rubbing my nose against his own, gently and slowly driving my palm around his dressed chest.
- ‘I want to be yours tonight… I want you to make love to me.’ I whispered and before he could say anything I gently pressed my lips on his. I kissed him softly but with the help of my tongue, licking his beautiful soft lips. I wanted my tongue in his warm mouth. I wanted my tongue to meet his in his mouth. He slowly opened his mouth, letting my tongue slip in but then he softly wrapped his lips around my tongue and still – our lips kept touching. The honor to explore his mouth was granted and I started with inside part of his cheeks, rubbing my tongue gently against it. Then I got the taste of his gums, finally finishing with his own tongue, playing with it, toying as if the tongues were dancing. Surges of electricity kept going down my stomach with every movement our tongues were doing.

We stopped. I opened my eyes and gently stroke his cheek with my palm. From the looks of it, he enjoyed that because his eyes still were closed and he smiled his dashing smile which was meant for me. He opened his eyes.

I was taken upstairs to his bedroom. I have been here many times before but still, this time it felt personal. This time, it felt like this is just meant for two of us.

He guided me to his bed, kissing me again, never stopping. I completely had given myself to him and I was enjoying it. Every time our lips touched, every time I felt his breath on them, I was in heavens and of course, so was my cock in my pants. I could feel his one excited also as it kept pocking my crotch.

- ‘I have been waiting for this moment for so long…’ He whispered in my ear, laying me on his bed. I kissed his neck, letting him work his fingers over my shirt with buttons. I could hear the silent ‘clicks’ the shirt was slowly opened with. I couldn’t stop kissing him. I couldn’t stop tasting him. I wanted him so much.
- ‘John…’ I whispered his name, with my eyes closed as he planted soft kiss on my neck. I bit my lip as I was ready to give off a moan just right there. He didn’t stop and that was good thing. I wanted him to go on as each kiss he gave to my body gave off sensational feelings I had never felt in my entire life. My cock was pulsating in my pants, ready to be freed.

He slowly kissed my body, starting off with my neck, then arms. By the time he was to my chest and my nipples I couldn’t control myself anymore and I gave off a first moan. My cheeks flushed red as pleasure goose bumps ran all over my body. I could hear his low chuckle.
- ‘You are enjoying this, aren’t you?’ He whispered again. I couldn’t reply. I did reply but the reply was not words; it was another moan, approval to things he was doing to me. Even his palms were working, slowly caressing my chest and sides while he slowly lowered himself by planting soft kisses to my chest, eventually stomach and then crotch. He unzipped my jeans and slowly took them off. I had hidden my palms in his gorgeous hair, letting my fingers to feel them brushing against. John licked base of my cock, making circle-based movements. I moaned again, this time louder. I loved him and loved everything he was doing to me.

I didn’t have to wait long – I think he was eager to taste my cock. So he did a slow, teasingly lick upwards to the head of it, stopping there. It was pulsating and he could see it. I could sense the anxiety in him to make me feel pleasure. I wanted him to make me feel good and only him.

He took the head of my cock in his mouth, licking it. I gave off a very loud moan as I felt sensitively good. I was uncut so my head was really sensitive to these kinds of things. He didn’t stop there; he went further, slowly starting sucking on my cock. I enjoyed it.
- ‘Oh, John…’ I moaned and slide my fingers through his hair. He swirled his tongue around head of my cock, making my legs to shudder from pleasure his tongue serviced my cock. I kept moaning barely holding myself together as I was ready to cum right there, right now. I had to stop him if I wanted to survive next thing I wanted to feel; his cock in my mouth, taste of his pool in my mouth, work on it all over until it is all ready to be pit inside me. I wanted him to be inside of me, badly.

I grabbed him, making him to let my cock go. I pulled him up my level, kissing him passionately, attacking him like an animal. Few times I unconsciously bit his lips but he didn’t complain. Instead, his body heat raised, sweating even more and our sweat met on my body. I was not in control of myself anymore. Everything was long gone.

I quickly rolled us over so he was under me. I gave him smile, convinced he knew what was going to happen. My nose nuzzled his neck and inhaled his scent. It was like toxic to me, like drugs. My mind did not work as it was supposed to be working. Every ‘but’ was switched off and I craved for sex. I craved for sex with him and only him…

After I worked him all over the same way he did me I went back to his level, meeting him face to face. I kissed him again, and then played with his a bit.
- ‘I want you John… I want you in me..’ I whispered and bit his earlobe. He moaned in response, reaching for his nightstand’s drawer. I could guess what was kept in there, though I wouldn’t need to guess because he was about to get it out. I was right in my thoughts – he pulled out condom and lube. I smiled and hid my face in his neck, kissing it and biting it a bit. I could hear approval moans as he rolled condom on his own 7 inch cock, fully hard and lubed it. Then, we rolled again.

He lifted and spread my legs. I didn’t object.
- ‘Are you ready?’ He asked me, to make sure. He cared for me and wouldn’t do anything to me I didn’t want to. That was one of the many things I loved about him – he listened to me.
- ‘Anytime you are.’ I smiled and wrapped my legs around his waist, pulling him on top of me. A bit clumsy, he collapsed on me, caught by surprise. We both chuckled then he got back up, aligning his cock with my butthole.

I moaned. First came wave of pain as my virgin ass stretched as the 7 inch cock’s head was forced in me. I put my palms on his chest, applying small pressure on it, signaling for him to stop for a bit. I had to get used to it.

Inch by inch, he went deeper, stopping letting it rest inside me, dealing as less damage as he could. I kept moaning each time he pressed his cock inside of me.
- ‘Fuck me!’ I moaned out, unable to bear the tense slowdown. He started slowly; giving my ass final stretches so his cock could move inside me as freely is it is intended to do. He leaned down, slipping his tongue inside my mouth. Through my many moans each time he gently thrust in me, I sucked on his tongue and kissed his lips as much as I could.

- ‘Faster…’ I said, pulling him deeper in me, using my legs. My arms were wrapped around his back, clinging on to him, maybe for another reason – afraid to lose him. He fucked me well, even though it was our both first times. His cock reached my spot and my loud moans confirmed that. All the pleasure waves going through my body made my cock even harder; so much it hurt. I had to release but I couldn’t touch my cock.

As soon as I thought of it, I moaned out loud as my legs started to spasm. First shot hit my chin, second landed on my neck. With each shot cum landed a bit lower and lower. Soon after I was done, John pulled out his own cock, tearing off his condom and pumping it hard. His shot was as powerful as mine so now my whole body was drenched in two sorts of cum – my own and John’s. He collapsed on top of me completely and I tightened my grasp around him even more. We made out.
- ‘John?’
- ‘Yeah?’
- ‘I love you.’
- ‘I love you too baby.’
Soon after these words we fell asleep. John was grasped in my arms and legs completely.

I woke up from buzz downstairs. John was still asleep, his arm placed around me. I smiled and gently tucked out of his arm and pulled on my pants to see who’s at the doors. Only explanation was John’s brother, since his parents were spending time with his grandmother.

I quickly ran downstairs and opened the doors. As soon as I did that, I regretted I did that. I felt my heart stopping for brief second my mouth went off in a loud gasp. I had a feeling of something snapping inside my back. It felt like I was living through nightmare again, which I was finally able to let go last night. I went numb. My knees buckled under me as I saw the face I hoped I would never ever have to see again – Stephen was standing there, in doors and as it turns out he was John’s brother. I felt my stomach twist and turn and my last night’s dinner came up the way it was not supposed to. I vomited and went unconscious, passing out right there on carpet..