The White Rose : Part 2

Diary of Chris Wakely
May 21, 1959

Today was my third day of school I saw him again looking at me from across the room. His eyes they held a gleam in them, I have never seen from another, a soulful look one may call it the look of angels. When he seemed to look at me, it seemed as if there was nothing else but just me and him in this very small room as if we could not get closer to each other or is it that I did not want to. Just then the class bell rang and I was snapped out of my trance.

I was walking through the halls to my locker and that's when I saw him standing right next to my locker I was thinking to myself "is he waiting for me" but then I realized that his locker is next to mine. What was coming over me I had never felt this way before I turned away, walked fast more like. I went to my next class the rest of the day I didn't see him again. that is until after school.

I noticed him leaning against the same post with that same smile on his face I started walking, I was going to walk right past him but then he grabbed my arm and asked me something I never thought he would "Wanna walk home together?" and as those words left his soft pink lips I said "Yes!" I figured that I might as well find out who this kid was, Why I couldn't get my mind off of him at night as I lay there in my room looking at the light from the cig through my window, and I might as well make a friend.

As we walked and talked I learned some things about this guy for starters his name is Danny Jenkins, He likes to work on Cars Greece um up you know, He use to live in New Orleans with his mother and father that is until his father contracted T.B and died from it then his mom did just what my dad and Stepmother did to me and moved him to this God forsaken Hell hole of Wells Nevada, He told me when he was 8 his family was poor so when he lost his first tooth at that age there was no money under his pillow the next day. why he told me that story I got no clue, but oh how I came to like this guy he was pretty cool sadly those angelic eyes were hidden under those dark sun glasses.

Now as I lay on my bed his lips come to mind how soft like pink velvet they are, His muscles under that black t- shirt, oh lord help me I'm getting a hard on just thinking about it.

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May 24, 1959

It's Saturday not much to do today. Danny said he was gonna take me fishing at the Humboldt River, across from the Transcontinental Railroad. He's coming to pick me up at noon he says that, that's the best time to go. I'm wondering how this is going to go if we are going to have more conversions that just draw me into him more. I cant stop thinking about him and the thought of being with him all day today just gets me going even more I don't no if its cause I'm anxious or if its just cause his presents makes me wild.

He got here to pick me up for the fishing trip right at noon I can see already he's never a man to be late. we got to the river around 12:20pm we sat up our gear and just sat there relaxing not much conversation at first then Danny turned to me from where he was sitting and said "Hey were not gonna catch anything today do you wanna go swimming...." before I could even answer he was stripping off his shirt reviling his flat washboard abs, huge pecks and 2 eraser size nipples and his happy trail that led down to his boxers, a thin trail of black hair I thought I was gonna die with this God in front of me but I got control of myself stripped down to my boxers and went right in with him.

ounce we were in the water he commented on the object dangling around my neck "What's that..." "oh its just a miraculous Medal ... it belonged to my mom its the only thing I could swipe of hers before my dad took all the rest of her things and burned them in a metal trash can in our front lawn" a sorrow came over me a pain I really wanted to forget on this day. "What are you Catholic or somethin?" with a sly grin on his face "sorta... I haven't really went to church science my mom died" moments passed in silences then he looked at me a devilish grin under those angel eyes and said " You know what's the best part about swimming..."

" What?" what I asked kinda puzzled. Next thing I knew his boxers flew right out of the water. The best thing about swimming is when nobody's around to watch you. I was so shocked I didn't know what to do. I tried running in my moment of panic but he caught me by the arm and spun me into his tight god like embrace the water made his skin feel blood hot and Ice cold at the same time. I swear I could hear the song " This magic Moment" playing in my head.

I freaked out when he was holding me so close to his body to his heart, that's when I pushed him away. At that moment is when I asked him to take me home. He walked me home around 6:00 pm and just like the gentle man I think he is he walked me to my door and bided me a good night.

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May, 28, 1959

I woke up this morning just thinking about Danny, lately I have not been able to get him off of my mind, it just seems to be me and him in my head at all times now I don't understand this all of these weird feelings that keep going through my head. At school all I could do was stare at him, it was no longer him looking at me now its me looking at him. Its like he has me in a trance every time I see him. Even now I'm in my room and I'm still thinking about him his eyes that capture my soul my whole essence in them. When I look into them I think of his soft and oh so pink lips on mine just moving me from where I sit now.

I went to school today when I should of stayed home because I'm sick, I went to school so I could see him, to see Danny. He just came to my front door and knocked, I went down stairs and opened the door. He looked at me and ask me if I was ok, from my surprise what I said was, "I'm doing good, why do you ask?" from what he said to me surprised me he said "I'm just making sure cause in school you didn't seem yourself."

"Yeah like I said I'm good." I stepped outside to get a better view of the blue sky. Sadly I didn't get three steps out the door before the earth it's self started to spen under my feet then everything went black the last thing I herd is Dannys voice call my name.

I awoke many hours later it was dark outside I could feel a cool breeze coming in from the window I got up in my weakness to close it and almost fell. Just then I felt two strong arms reach out to steady me I figured it was my father but when I turned it was Danny. His sweet face looking at me with such care and worry, oh the worry how I could see it in his eyes. He lifted me up off my feet, holding me like a child he layed me down into my bed.

Our eyes met, Face to face, cheek to cheek and in that one moment it felt like the room, no not just the room, the world was collapsing in around us leaving only me and him he leaned in closer as did I and our lips met in one perfect kiss as smooth as a glass of Absinthe in the warm summer night. My heart, his Heart beating as one oh sweet God if that was heaven I wish I would have never have left that moment, the moment that was taken from me when my stepmother walked in the room and Danny was forced to break our loving embrace.

After my stepmother left the room, Danny said that he should get going before his mother starts to worry about him, in that moment I said to him good night, ill see you tomorrow after school that is if you plan on visiting well I'm out sick.

Even though I was sick late in the night I walked to the window that looked out at Dannys the air smelled of roses. I whispered out into the night air " I love you Danny " knowing it would only be the angels that would here this secret pray uttered from my lips.