To be gay or not to be gay?

From Bombay, INDIA 

The beginning:

Hello my ‘NEW’ friends. I am Preso age 21, from other side of ur world i.e. INDIA. A great country to live. With good looking, dark haired, tanned spotless skinned girls. They wont give u ready entry in their hole but once ready they will be willing to have sex anytime (but hidden from world). Here sex is like a four letter word. Not to be used openly but to be practiced beyond eyes of so called cultured world. So u will find lot of hypocrisy going on here.
But all these dark brown fair girls are hold no fascination to some Un (?)fortunate boys like me.

Because I think I AM GAY! (Well actually BISEXUAL)
Though I also like to Fuck girls I am more inclined towards strong muscular well built guys with tight jeans showing their tight bums and most of all that bulge in their crotch.
But I was not like this. At 12-13 yrs of age I also would date girls and would feel & fondle them in school backyard. I was a smart good looking lean mean guy whom all girls loved to talk. Then came 10 th standard (1996, 14 yrs age). A very important academic yr here in India where we have to score an A or A+ to have a secure career. I got engrossed in studies with my friends and cut off from my girlfriends.

And then came a day which changed my life…. Completely

It was September 1996. a heavy rainy season in India. I was studying frantically for my coming exams. I used to be very busy with my schools, classes, homework test series and all. My best friend at that time was … ‘SANJO’. We used to be together all time for studying.
Our only recreation or break was as any other boys of our age were to watch Porn films. 

That day after our class test was over we were walking towards home. It was a dark cloudy and wet day. We had whole one week of break from school before our final preparation for The BIG exams begins. So to celebrate our temporary vacation we decided to watch some Hot films and have drinks at his place and have a great time together…Just Two of us… 

His parents go to work daily and come back in evenings. We had whole 7-8 hrs of empty house. we went to rent cassettes to a local video parlor but shits it was closed! Then we went to another small dingy video parlor but were disappointed to find an old groggy old man on the counter. Without asking him we started browsing the cassettes. There were only cartoons and family films. Even then we were feeling awkward to ask that old man about our cassettes.
After 15 minutes in vain we were about to leave when he gave us a stack of cassettes. But that too were some old classics. 
“Good war films. A must for u young boys!” he said grumblingly.

We had no choice but to take them. We picked one and came out of that den of that old bear.
“Ahh found a porn at last” Sanjo said gleamingly.
“what porn? That oldie said something of War Films.” I replied bewildered.
“oh Preso! U are so innocent. It was his hidden meaning” Sanjo explained “else why would he keep them hidden under covers?”
“I am not sure” my soft innocent doubt.

Our amusing argument continued till we reached his home. he opened the lock and we dropped on the couch. he hurriedly pulled the drapes and locked all the doors. He was excited to have some relaxing moments after months of ‘hard’ time’s i.e... study. But I was still not sure of contents of the film. 
Finally we slid the cassette in the VCR and glued our eyes to TV. when we saw the statutory warning screen our spirits lifted. And finally after hearing the familiar saxophone arousing music we got sure that this was the film. I was in awe at cool and intelligence of Sanjo.
How did he knew?

So, the film started. It was Hardcore Indian film which showed a young prince sexual escapades from royal pool to hunting grounds sex.
Girls in the film were extremely hot with medium but shapely boobs and black dense hairy cunts (Indian specialty). I got a instant hard on and my tight underwear and jeans made it intolerable. We both had pillows placed on our crotch. I just was enjoying the movie and waiting to rush home and jerk off my cock of all the built up tension and empty all pooled up cum. Sanjo was very talkative in beginning but then I didn’t know why he went silent. Maybe he was thinking of something?

Of course of this hot film!! I thought.
Then came a very erotic scene where the prince is having his 16 th birthday and he gets a gift of 8 virgin girls and to my astonishment 8 virgin but good-looking boys of his age. Then his bash becomes a orgy of my wildest thoughts. The prince fucks 3-4 girls and others indulge in more wilder stuff. Also there was lots of homosex as cock sucking ass fucking and boys jerking off each other. 
I thought it all was grosse.

There is semen shooting all over the screen and we have to mute the volume to prevent those loud aaahs and eehhhhs to get out. My undy was getting sticky wet from precum oozing out of my dick which was at all time tight. I could sense Sanjo getting more restless.
It’s the drinks!! My innocent thoughts again…

When the scene got over and so did the movie I got up slowly and turned and tried to adjust my rock hard to its place through zipper so that Sanjo doesn’t see the big bulge on my crotch. But when I turned I saw Sanjo was rewinding the tape.
“Whats up?” I asked.
“Lets see it again. Its damn good !!”
“No yaar! I wanna go home. I have some ‘errands’ (bathroom shagging) to attend” I replied 
“oh fuck off yaar sit there” he said commandingly.
His tone was changed. I sat reluctantly. 

There was the scene again. Girls licking each others pussies , chewing each others pussy hair and plucking them thus putting her on edge of painful ecstacy.
Some girls were crying out in pain at there bloody dripping hymens were raptured.
It was enough for me.
And then came a scene where a dark tanned young boy with brown haired long cock with blood on its tip came and started to lick the princes ‘ASS’. Then they both indulged in a very hot steamy homosex packed sequence. I decided to go now as my cock was about to spurt its juices in undies itself.
Just as I was about to get up…..
Sanjo said “hey pres! Lets do it”
“What?” I didn’t understand what he was telling.
“don’t be a fool! Lets do what they are doing.”

I was so dumbfounded that I lost my words and my mind just stopped working.
I haven’t even thought of something like this in my whole life with Sanjo or any other my friends.
Though very rarely I did fantasized about threesome including another guy.
“its getting late .i should go!” I said after what seemed to be an year.
“why? Aren’t we friends. This is completely O.K between BEST FRIENDS.
Don’t always go on track all others use. Have some variety.” Sanjo said restlessly.

Its completely harmless & will be a secret we will share all our life” he added
“But its not right. I am not gay” I replied somewhat calmed.
“ so. Big deal. Neither I am gay! Its for a change and it will be fun.” Sanjo said without a sign of guilt.
My mind was racing with 1000 HP and most of all my cock was pumped with cans of testosterone.
“ what if someone comes and catches us” I said
“ why u behave so timidly. We are alone for say next 4-5 hrs” he said assuringly.
“ but Sanjo… its…i..think…” I wasn’t still sure