Training of a cyber teenage cunt : Part 1

Here is the story of 1 year of my life as a cyberslave. It was a very intense relationship which ended unfortunately. About 3 years later, I still think about it and if I share this story today it’s because I hope some readers might take interest in me and maybe become my cybermaster.

A few years ago, i posted an ad on the internet. It was saying:

"19yo boy looking for pain and humiliation. Send me your request of what disgusting or painful stuff I should do to x10x10 [at] hotmail [ddot] com. I'll do it and then send you pictures or a video".

I received quite a few replies. Things like this:

« Damn I just can not resist such a challenge. Things I would like to see you do:
1. Get your cock hard and then hold your piss slit open and drop in 6 drops of tobasco
2. Using a G clamp on your left Nut lift a 5 pound weight with the clamp and hold it suspended. If the clamp falls off it was obviously not tight enough
3. Go into a chat room and piss all over your face on cam.
4. Scrub the inside of your asshole with your toothbrush (make sure you clean it all) then clean your teeth with it. That will do for now « :) »

or

“Saw your post above on newsgroups. I'm keen to test your limits. I'll send you one instruction at a time and when you get back to me I'll follow with another.
First, get a 1 metre plastic tube and a funnell, then get naked. Then I would like to see you lie on a bed with your head on the floor. Place one end of the tube in your mouth and attach the tube to the funnel. Piss (and save up to do this) directly into the funnel and let the fluid run directly into your mouth and stomach. Don't spill a drop so take it easy. Finished - lick the funnell clean. Very simple task to start with - love a couple pictures and describe the taste and colour of your piss. This task is best done with your first piss of the day - more flavour. Hear from you and I'll follow with another more discusting/humilating task.”

I received a few tasks, did them but it never folloed by a real relationship. Until I received this email :

“Hey pig boy. I want to see a pic or video of you pissing all over a bowl of cereal and then eating it...to include drinking the residue from the bowl.”

Nothing really new. So I did it, sent my video, and received another email.

“Good boy. You are a good pig. If I were there I would pat you on the head and praise you...then I would torment you some more. Here is your next assignment bitch....
I want you to insert a dildo (you can substitute another inanimate object if you don't own a good sized dildo) into your fuck hole. Do it when you have to shit. Insert it deep enough that it gets dirty...real dirty. Yep you guessed it fuck face...lick the dildo clean. Do not let any escape your mouth...swallow all your mud.
If you do well I will have more torture for you.”

I have to say that at this moment I started to feel there was something different with him, I liked the way He was talking to me and thought that He could well become my Master. But it was yet too soon to be sure. This followed :

“you are a good pigboy. you did exactly what I expected. I am very proud of you. I want you to tell me about yourself. Age? Location (don't worry I won't stalk you) and availablility of others to take part in your torture. I also want to know what your average day is like. For instance do you work or go to school and if so for how long each day. This information will aid me in devising tortures for you that last longer and take a certain level of commitment from you. Have you ever been truly tortured by a Master and if so do you have video of it? I would like to see it if you do. Answer my questions and then you will receive your next torture. you are doing very well. Stop capitalizing I and me. you are doing a great job of submitting. Embrace it totally pig. Captial letters are for Alpha males. Pigs like you only get lower case letters in referring to themselves.
I have an assignment for you. I want to see you whipped with a belt....I mean WHIPPED. Red assed is good....welts are better. Do you have someone who can do it for you? If not I will come up with an assignment for you that is solo.

i'm 19yo and live in Paris, France. i live in an apartment i share with 2 other people who have no idea i am a pigboy which sometimes impose restrictions to what i can do. i am still a student. i go to college every day. Schedule changes but it's usually 9am to 5pm. i regularly receive emails from people who want to see me do things. Sometimes i really can't do it (like putting needles in my balls or putting my hands in boiling water) but most of the time i manage to force myself. Little by little i learn to take more. What i have to do vary a lot. Some people want me to become a professional cocksucker, others want me to evolve as a permanent toilet, others just want to see me get pain, others want me to focus on specific part of my body like balls, throat, pisshole etc. Until now i only did selftorture. i don't have a Master. The closest i had from a Master was a guy who followed me during nearly a month (through emails) and gave me a tough schedule with things to do every day. i am not in contact with him anymore.

Good pig. You followed my instructions very well. I noticed you stopped
using upper case letters when referring to yourself. Know your place bitch. It is good to know your circumstances. I don't want to give you impossible tasks to do. Now that I know more I will devise tortures that are doable and that still please me. I want to see that they are difficult for you to do. I will enjoy the pained expressions on your face. I am interested in almost all of the things that you mentioned....I have already enjoyed seeing you used as a toilet. You probably will get a lot of piss related assignments since it is easy to do alone and videotape. If you have other video clips of you doing other tortures...send them to me. It will give me a lot of pleasure.
For your next assignment I want you to put out a lit cigarette on your
balls. If you cant force yourself to do it I want to at least see you
trying to....it is okay to be scared...I want you to be scared. It will
hurt for a day then it will go away. If you can eat your own shit (I was
proud of you) you can do this.
I am attaching a photo of myself so you can see who you are serving.
M

>i did what you asked for. i admit it was very difficult, at least as
> difficult as the first time i was asked to swallow shit. i really panicked when i received your email. i have once been asked to burn my foreskin with a cigarette and, even though i tried hard, i was not able to do it. It was nearly two months ago, so the fact that i managed to burn my balls today means i am more conscious of where i belong. i should not expect to have the same life as other teenagers my age, i'm here to get hurt and to please those who want me to get hurt and degradated.
> Thank you for helping me to accept that.

GOOD boy. I am proud of you. You are truly a piece of shit for me to
abuse. I am really happy with you today. Not all of your tasks will be
this difficult, but it is good for you to be kept in your place at the very
bottom of the food chain. You are bellow the fucking family dog and as soon as you accept that fully you will find inner peace.
Your next assignment is to go to a public restroom facility and video or
photograph yourself licking piss from a toilet seat or a urinal. I want to
see your tongue pressed flat and hard against the porcelain.
By the way....how do your balls feel? LOL. Fucking bitch.
M

> i'm sorry but i don't own a camera. i just use my webcam to take pictures or videos.

Not a problem boy. Seriously, I want to know how your scrotum feels now.
Does it still hurt? Describe for me what it was like for you to obey my
desire to have you torture yourself. Imagine how much more satisfying it
would be for you to have a Master who abused you and beat you and then
allowed you to sit at his feet with your head on his knee while he stroked
your hair.
This assignment is easy....no more furniture for you. By that I mean for
the next week you sleep on the floor, eat on the floor and engage in any
leisure activities without sitting on the furniture of your apartment.
When at school you may sit on a chair while in class but that is it. You
are lower than a pet dog (do you have a dog?) and will be treated
accordingly.
I expect to hear from you soon with an essay on why you are a worthless
piece of shit and why you are unworthy of humane treatment.
M

my balls still hurt badly. It's still burned deep and small blisters appeared around the burning. i understand i deserved it. i know i need to hurt my cock and balls because it's the only way for me to use them, i can't use them to fuck because only real men can do that. my cock and balls are worthless as i am. the only sexual intercourse i can be involved in is to suck cocks and take cocks up the ass, not to receive pleasure but to please others. i am a worthless piece of shit, i shouldn't be allowed to eat valued food but should be thankfull to eat dog food and piss and shit because i don't deserve more. i shouldn't complaint that i'm not happy because i don't deserve happiness. When i'm asked to hurt myself i should always say thank you because it helps me understand my true condition. i'm here to please the men who are kind enough to take some time to write to me. i should feel lucky they keep on writing to such a piece of shit like me and should encourage them to be less nice with me because i'm not a normal teenage boy and though shouldn't be treated like one.

It sounds like you are getting your mind right pig. I enjoyed watching you
put that cigarette out on your balls. I laughed. Too bad I could not hear
your cries and see the look on your face. I noticed some hair on your balls and crotch. Shave it. Pubic hair is for men.
I want you to take a piece of dry toast and spread some of your shit on it
like peanut butter. Then I want you to jack off on it and mix your sperm
into the shit. You guessed it fuck face....eat it. The challenge with this is that you will have just cum and will not be horny so it will test your commitment to your status.
M

I have not heard from you in a while bitch boy. Am I being too hard on you? Is your scrotum healing? Write back and tell me your first name. I also want to know what event(s) in your life have brought you to this point of self realization. When did you first realize that you were less than most men? Actually, you are less than most animated life forms. Take a few minutes to write to me. Tell me about your life so that I can more fully appreciate and enjoy abusing your worthless body. You understand, I am sure, that you must continue to earn my attention.
M

i'm sorry i didn't answer before but i had a very busy week and also other orders to follow that took some time. i still didn't eat the bread with shit and cum but i slept on the floor as you asked until last Sunday. It was kind of difficult even during the last days.
my first name is eric. i realized i was worth nothing nearly a year ago. i was dating a guy who was quite hard with me and when he saw i was submissive he acted even harder with me. It's him who posted the ads on the internet to ask for people to abuse me, he said i was made to serve and to be hurt. I don't see him anymore because he moved but he told me he would keep an eye on me, and i know he might be one of the people who send me email orders. my scrotum is nearly completely healed.

I accept your apology and of course I understand that you have a life to lead as well. Not even the best pig can avoid the day to day tasks that require interaction with the real world. That being said, I also hope that being relegated to the floor helped keep your place in the world in perspective for you. Pain free days of pleasure and respect are for others....NOT FOR YOU. You owe a real debt to the Alpha male who first instructed you. He did a good job.