When I'm with you: Part 5

Eleven twenty-five. That's pretty late for me, but I suppose last night had something to do with it. I couldn't hear my brother's TV, so i'm guessing he still wasn't up, which is normal as it's a sunday. I slouched down the stairs and peered into the front room where my mum had passed out on the sofa again. My mother...clearly depressed about the fact my dad was in hospital, he was hit by a car you know, and has been in a coma for two weeks now. She lies to me and says she's coping fine, but i've noticed she's drinking atleast five glasses of wine every night. And this random man coming to our house, my mum tells me he's a friend of dad's and that he's just seeing how were all dealing with this, I reckon she thinks i'm fucking stupid.

"Morning mum" I said when I noticed her stiring. Her eyes fluttered open, her make up still on from the day before, all smudged round her eyes, she looked at me like she'd never seen me before in her life then after a few seconds smiled at me.
"Goodmorning sweetheart, how are you feeling?" she croaked.
"I'm good mum, just a bit of a hangover..."
"Oh I remember the days, your father and I used to go out and get so smashed that we'd..."
"Actaully mum, i've got to go and get ready" I cut into her. I knew she was having an affair and I didn't want her to talk about my dad.
"Where are you off too then?" she questioned, faking having an interest in what I get up too. I picked up a box of ciggarettes, pulled one out and lit it.
"To see Kai, i'm going round to Kai's house" I said, taking a drag of my ciggarette.
"Eddie sweetie I wish you wouldn't smoke in the house...when do I get to meet this Kai, you mention him a lot?"
"I NEVER mention him unless you ask me what i'm doing today or where i've been!" I snapped.
"Alright alright, no need to yell at your mother, I would just like to meet my son's boyfriend."
"No mum, I haven't told him about dad or any of the shit going on right now" I said firmly before walking out the door.

I walked back into my room and stared at a photo of me and Kai stuck to my wall, he had his shirt off, and we were kissing. Words can not describe how he makes me feel. I stared at the picture harder, at the way the corners of his mouth were turned upwards, because he was smiling as we kissed. Taking another drag I sighed and shook my head. Kai Rawlings, your the total opposite of me yet I can make you happy, how? I am nothing special. I put my ciggarette out, i'm not actaully a smoker, just have a few when i'm feeling stressed. Taking the picture down from the wall as it was only stuck with blue tac I took it into the bathroom with me and locked the door. I turned the taps on and the room was filled with the loud noise of warm running water.

I waited for the bath to fill and then stripped naked. Before climbing in I stopped and looked at myself in the mirror, running my fingers over my slightly visable shoulder blades and ribs. With everything that had been going on I wasn't eating properly and was sick quite a bit. Lets just say I wasn't in the best state, luckily Kai thought I was naturally this skinny. I hopped in the bath and sat there, bringing the photo up to my face as I didn't want it to get wet. Kai. I don't actually believe it, shit like this doesn't happen to me. I don't fall in love, or people don't fall in love with me, he brings me hope, makes me feel like I can carry on.

I pulled out the plug and went to my room still holding the photo to my chest. Getting dressed isn't difficult for me, I threw on some black torn jeans and a hoodie before stepping slowly down the stairs and swinging round the bottom to face my mother who was sitting in the kitchen. I glared at her, it hurt what she was doing, I wouldn't cheat on Kai if he was in a coma, but then again maybe my mum and dad's love wasn't real love or maybe it was, either way I didn't know, it was something i'd never experienced before meeting Kai. I mean how do you know your in love if you've never been in love before? I've liked a lot of people and thought I was 'in love' with them, but then the next relationship would feel different and i'd think that was love instead. My feelings for Kai were stronger than any i'd ever had before but maybe that's because things were new and different with him.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" my mother asked, bringing me back to the moment.
"Like what?" I said bluntly.
"Like that, that evil stare" she said watching me nervously.
"Nothing mum" I shrugged and started to walk towards the front door, I then stopped and turned around. "Sometimes the truth hurts mum, but if you keep it locked down and cover it with lies, when it becomes uncovered, it will destroy everything." My mum gave me an extremely suprised look, I smiled fakely at her then walked out the door. Kai's house was about twently minutes away and it was actaully freezing outside, I kinda wish I wore a t-shirt underneath my hoodie and my jeans weren't ripped letting the breeze get to my legs but it was too late now.

I took a short cut through the woods that me and Kai went to the second time we had sex, it was kind of our first time out together. "Well well well!" a cold voice said behind me, "If it isn't Eddie Stroud, what you doing all on your own faggot?" I spun round to face Barry Goodman, a guy who had threatened me the first day of school. I didn't say anything, I wasn't at all afraid of him, but obviously him being atleast 6'2 and extremely overweight meant he could do me serious damage. I watched about four of his friends come out from behind the trees and stop infront of me. "Oi you stupid ugly fag, I fucking asked you something!" he said, getting right up close to me. "Maybe I don't wanna fucking answer you!" I said back folding my arms and trying to stand as tall as I could.

Barry let out a nasty cackle "School is one thing, but getting rude to me when nobody else is around, you must be fucking stupid!" he screamed in my face. I turned round, I wasn't going to let this guy abuse me, I was nearly out of the woods anyway and once there were people around he couldn't exactly attack me. But as I turned around I felt two large hands shove into my back so that I face planted into the muddy ground. One of his friends then kicked me over so I was lying staring up at them. Barry sat on my stomach and wrapped his hands tightly around my neck, "Your not going anywhere until you learn to respect me" he whispered. "What have you done to earn my fucking respect!" I spat, but I could hardly breath. Barry and his friends laughed, "So rude" he smiled, but then the smile faded and I was greeted by a fist in my mouth.

Barry backed off and I could taste blood on my tongue. All of a sudden I felt hard shoes in my stomach and ribs, slamming into me over and over again as they all kicked me. I felt a fist in my eye a few times but by the time that happened I wasn't paying attention to who it was. Pain shot through my body like a thousand electric bolts as I squirmed about on the floor, I knew purple bruises would be everywhere and I didn't know how much more I could take. Then it all stopped. I still had my eyes closed, I didn't know what was happening, but what more could they do me? Then I felt a cold sharp pain on my legs, my eyes snapped open and I looked down to where Barry was dragging a knife round my ankles which were bleeding like mad.

He came up and grabbed my wrists and dragged the knife across, I shut my eyes tight as he got to the large vien we all have straight down the middle. But he skipped past it and kept on cutting until both my wrists were bleeding. Holding the knife to my throat Barry leaned in so close I thought he was going to kiss me, "It's going to get so much fucking worse than this I swear to you!" he hissed. Then he leaned down close to my lips, I was completely grossed out, but obviously he wasn't going to kiss me, no, he bit my lip. Hard. Making it split open and leak blood all over my chin. They then got up and ran away quickly, leaving me here to bleed. I wanted to die right there, but slowly I pulled myself up into a standing position.

I made my way out the woods and back onto a street which was round the corner from Kai's. I was bruised, bleeding and covered in mud, a few people gasped when I stumbled past them, I caught a glimps of myself in a car window, I looked like a zombie roaming the streets. When I got to Kai's house I fell against the door creating a loud thud, he would of heard it, and I didn't have the strength to knock. I sunk down on his doorstep and lay there waiting for him to save me. About a minute later the door opened, "Eddie oh my god!" I heard Kai burst into tears, I felt awful, I didn't want him to feel sad. "I'm sorry, I should never have come" I sobbed. How stupid of me to turn up at his house like this.

I felt his strong but gentle arms scoop me up from the ground making me groan in pain. "Shh, shh, i'm sorry okay, I know it hurts" he said softly bringing me into his warm home and closing the door quietly behind him. He held me like a baby so we could look at each other, he was still crying as he bought me up the stairs and into the bathroom. "We need to get you to hospital!" he cried, sitting me down on the toilet seat. "No Kai, no, I don't want too, they'll ask questions, I just wanna stay here" I whispered, I felt cold inside, I hated to see him suffer because of me. Kai looked at me, his eyes were scared but also very kind. I loved his deep brown eyes, so huge and so beautiful, he was beautiful. "Okay, but you need to let me clean these" he said, running his finger gently next to my cuts.

Kai stripped me off till I was just in my boxers and turned on the sink taps. I moaned slightly as I felt a warm wet cloth against my leg, slightly out of pain but mainly for the feeling of Kai gently nursing me. By the time he'd cleaned me of mud, sweat and blood, i'd stopped bleeding and was starting to feel better. He looked up from where he was kneeling and gazed into my eyes, "I wanna kiss you but that looks painful" he sighed, nodding towards my split lip, which i'd forgotten about just from looking at him. I pulled him up and kissed him, he was so gentle. Kai lifted me with ease and still kissing, took me into his room and sat me down on the bed.

"You wanna tell me what happened Eddie" he said, standing over me folding his arms.
"I was walking to yours, I took a short cut through the woods, and Barry Goodman was there, he started talking to me and I tried to walk away but they just beat me up, i'm sorry I should of just gone back home..." I whispered.
"I'll kill him..." he said quietly.
"No Kai leave it!" I begged.
"I'll fucking kill him!" Kai screamed and started punching the wall. I'd never seen him like this and it scared me, he looked so different angry, he didn't look like my boyfriend anymore. I Stood up and put my arms round him resting my head between his shoulder blades, he sighed and turned round and steered me back to the bed. We lay down next to each other, "I'm so sorry, I just don't want anyone to hurt you, I couldn't live with myself if I did" he whispered. I stroked his face, running my hands over his frown lines and strong jaw, he was so perfect! "I know, I know" I whispered, pulling off his underwear.

"Eddie, your hurt..." Kai whispered trying to push my hands away. But I kept on until the love of my life was a beautiful naked sculpture infront of me. I wrapped my hand round Kai's already stiffening shaft and felt it pulsing in my hand. I stroked his cock gently feeling it grow to its full length in my hand. I loved the smooth skin of his shaft, the soft foreskin, the pink head, the way the viens were slightly visable when he became erect. I went between his legs and licked his huge balls which were dusted with soft brown hair. I sucked each ball into my mouth making my lover moan with appriciation. Even though my split lip was still very painful it was my duty to make Kai happy.

I turned my attention back to Kai's rock hard dick. I slowly lowered my wounded mouth onto him, I heard him gasp and I moaned as his warm cock slipped in and I tasted him on my tongue. Deeper and deeper, his dick plunging into my small mouth. I loved how big Kai was, the way he completely filled my mouth and arse. I felt the tickle of Kai's pubes on my lips and I knew i'd managed to take all of him. I looked up at him, and he looked down at me, in awe, seeing his large cock violate my little face. His hands stroked my hair and face, whispering to me that he loved me and that I made him feel so good. I went to work, moving my head up and down swirling my tongue around the most sensetive parts of him.

I started sucking on the head, I knew it was what Kai liked best. "Eddie, i'm gonna cum..." Kai whispered. I pulled off and looked at him. He tipped his head to the side in an adorable way which made me smile. I walked over to a draw, it was where Kai kept lube, you see I watched his every move that night I lost my virginity. I pulled out a tube of lubricant, I wasn't going to let Kai do anything today. I poured some of it on my fingers and rubbed my hole before inserting a finger and loosening myself up, I then added another this made me moan and pant, Kai just watched me. I loved it when he watched me, I knew I was teasing him and he found it a turn on.

Three of my fingers were up me now, Kai only had to use two on me but thats because his hands were twice the size of mine. It actaully hurt quite a bit, moving my hands when my wrists were cut and bandaged. Kai could see I was in pain as I pushed him so he was lying on his back and mounted him in silence. I gripped his cock and started lowering myself down on him, my other hand on his chest supporting myself so I didn't fall off him. The head of Kai's dick popped into my hole stretching me out, "Oh my god, ouch, oh fuck" I whispered, I felt tears welling in my eyes. "Eddie, come on baby, lets stop this your in pain" Kai said shifting a bit. I wasn't going to let it happen, I sat down hard on him and howled in pain. I looked straight into his eyes, "No Kai, I wanna thank you" I whispered and starting bringing myself back up. I then sat back down taking Kai deep inside me causing us both to moan.

"Thankyou for everything!" I gasped as I picked up speed and started riding him. The pain was gone and replaced by pure extacy. I couldn't feel the cuts, the bruises, I could only feel him stuffing my hole completely. I looked down at Kai, his eyes closed, moaning softly. I was really taking him all now, enjoying the way it felt to be in controll, to feel him slipping right up inside me. About ten minutes later I found myself getting so tired, my breathing was strained and my thrusts were lazy. Kai watched me then sat up, me still on his lap and starting shuffling till he was sitting, legs off the bed and feet on the floor, my legs wrapped round his waist.

We kissed very softly, our tongues massaging together. Kai held my hips and bounced me up and down in this hard but good rhythem. The room started spinning, I felt like I was floating on a cloud, I could see nothing but Kai, feel nothing but Kai, hear nothing but Kai's quick breaths as he concentrated on making love to me. The head of his cock was rubbing all the right places and I felt a tingle go all through my body and butterflies in my stomach. I bounced him deeper and felt his cock throb and expand inside me. I couldn't take it anymore, I gave into the way Kai felt and surrendered to my orgasm. I sprayed my cum like a fountain across Kai's chest and on my stomach, my body tensing and going through many spazms.

I nearly fell backwards off the bed, i'd never felt so good. Luckily Kai held me close to his body, I felt him shake as he kissed my neck and moaned quietly in my ear. I knew what was coming and made sure he was deep, no, deeper than deep. Each shot of his cum felt like liquid fire inside my body. For me he wasn't dumping his load inside me, he was filling me with his love, passion and the very stuff he was made of. We fell back onto the bed and I was disapointed when Kai removed himself from me. He stood up, pulling out the blue t-shirt I had worn on our first time together. He smiled sweetly and handed it to me, I slipped it on and let it fall down to my knees.

I let Kai clean me up then climbed into bed, he did the same and we looked into each other eyes like we always did after we'd shared a special moment together. "I love you" he whispered, kissing my forehead. I smiled slightly, being careful of my split lip, "I love you too Kai." Forget what I said before. This was love, I am in love with Kai and he makes me feel so right. But i'm scared for you Kai, I know your going to go after Barry, I know your going to really hurt him or he's going to really hurt you. Either way it won't end up good and I don't want to loose you. One day i'll tell you what's going on, that my dad is in hospital, that i'm pratically starving myself as i'm too stressed to eat. One day i'll tell you how I really feel about you, that this is more than love, i'm hoping your one to keep. I kissed his chest as he drifted off to sleep. "I love you" I whispered "I love you."