When I'm with you : Part 6

I just lay there, legs open, Toby licking and kissing the most private areas of my body. It felt so good, being sinful in this way. I wondered what my parents would do or say if they randomly payed a visit to Toby's house right now. I pictured my mother crying and my dad yelling, telling me that I was possessed by the devil and that I would surely burn in hell. "Mm, don't stop!" I panted as he slipped a finger inside me and pushed it in as deep as it would go. I just lay back, wriggling about and gasping for air. The room was suddenly boiling hot and I felt my face burn up. There was something deep inside me which changed when I was around Toby, I didn't want to please my family, I wanted to do everything against our religion. I always felt so guilty and dirty once it was over, but it was worth it for the amazing pleasure!

Toby removed his fingers, I stayed with my head over the back of the sofa and eyes closed. I heard a spitting noise and then two fingers force their way into me, "Ouch!" I whispered, biting my lip. Once against I wasn't going to tell Toby he was hurting me, I didn't want him to stop doing this, I didn't want to stop ever! I opened my eyes and looked down, watching Toby's two fingers slip easily in and out of my loosened hole. He looked up at me and I smiled down at him and nodded, we both knew I wanted something bigger in there now. Toby roughly grabbed me and shoved me onto the floor, I felt his heavy muscled body press ontop of me and his hard cock dig into my back. I heard another loud spitting noise and his warm hands working spit between the crack of my arse. I then felt him shift into position so his cock was by my hole. I tried to relax my body as much as I could, but as the head broke past the entrance I groaned in pain. I know i'd taken him before, but I obviously didn't get used to anal penetration enough the last time we had sex.

Like before, Toby only waited a few seconds before he gripped my shoulders and forced himself all the way up me. Like before, I bit my lip and said nothing, but it felt like I was being ripped open and poked with a boiling hot rod. Toby then slowly but rougly started sliding in and out of my abused hole, his hands were already sweating and by his breathing I could tell he was getting extremely excited. After a few hard jabs with his cock, he pulled me close and kissed and licked the back of my neck. I was shaking with atticipation and pain, "Hurt's doesn't it" he giggled seductively. I just nodded my head and groaned. With his strength he easily pulled me onto my hands and knees and gripped my waist. "Right lets do this properly" I heard him mutter from behind me. Toby then started pumping me with short quick thrusts, hitting my pleasure spot over and over again. I started trembling, I was about to cum! Toby obviously noticed this because he pulled back out slightly so his cock wasn't rubbing against it. I sighed in disapointment, making him chuckle to himself.

Even though Toby's cock was adverage in length, it was thick and the power he used to thrust himself in me made it seem twice as large and powerful. I looked up at the clock, and watched five minutes go by, then ten, then twenty, this guy just didn't seem to stop! Everytime I thought he was close to orgasm, he'd pull out slightly and slow down, I could feel drops of pre cum lace my insides, I was so sore now and thought I would start bleeding soon. All of a sudden I felt Toby grip my soft hips with one hand and the other pinch my plump backside, "Your arse is so sexy Ty!" he moaned and the pace picked up. As Toby went deeper he started rubbing that special spot again, we were both moaning and covered in sweat. He was getting bigger, or I was getting tighter, either way it felt great! "Mmm!" I groaned and everything went white, when I opened my eyes again my legs were all warm and sticky. Just a few more hard thrusts and moans until Toby sprayed his cum inside my well used body. As he pulled out I rolled over and sat up, he was about to stand when I gripped his cock and softly licked and sucked on it again, tasting the left over cum, "Your so naughty Tyler" he grinned down at me, before taking my hand and pulling me onto my feet.

I went back to where my trousers were just a pile on the floor and pulled my phone out my pocket. Five missed calls and three texts from my mother, all asking where I was and if I was okay. I rolled my eyes, I bet no other seventeen year old's mum is this protective. I sent her a short text : Hey, i'm at Dan's house, text you earlier saying that he's letting me sleep over, it must of not reached you, don't worry i'm fine x. I then turned my phone off and chucked it back into my pocket, I didn't care what her reply was, when I was with Toby I could do what I wanted. I noticed Toby didn't pick up his clothes or try and clean the floor, he just beckoned me up the stairs and into his room. We climbed into bed, both extremely tired, but there were still some questions I had that needed to be answered...

"Toby?" I said, looking over at him, he looked so hot, his big arms behind his head, showing his tufts of curly brown armpit hair. He opened his eyes and looked over at me and made a "mmm" noise to show me he was listening, I watched him get up and switch off the light and get back into bed.
"Was everything you said true, like back when I was with Codey, or were you just jealous?" I asked, I was worried to ask Toby serious questions because he wasn't the sort who thought about things and was serious about life. I watched him glance away from me to the other side of the room, he couldn't of been looking at anything because we were in complete darkness, I felt like i'd pissed him off, I wanted to kick myself, but then I heard sniffing noises, was he crying?!
"Toby what's wrong? Tell me!" I asked, trying to cuddle into his back. He elbowed me away and I felt hurt, but as he rolled back over to face me, I realised he was trying to make room for himself, there was a long silence
"I was jealous of course I was, but it was also true, everything I said, and i'm greatful for the way that you were willing to forgive me, even after the way I treated you, and that you didn't hate me for spoiling something between you and Codey" he mumbled, his voice was cracking, he was trying so hard to fight the tears.
"Oh he wasn't that important, I didn't feel the same way about him that I do about you" I said, holding his hand, trying to comfort him.
"See, were talking about feelings. I don't have feelings Ty! A guy like me, I just don't! Especially not for other people!"
"Is this because i'm a guy?" I whispered, breaking the blind eye contact.
"No, it's because your another person, it because i've never been jealous of anyone before, hell i've never had to be! It's because I felt sick seeing you with another guy, it's because you can make me cry!" He said, I knew he was fully sobbing now, I just stayed quiet. "Your my only weakness Ty..." I heard him whisper. I'd never felt so nervous and happy at the same time.

"I don't know what to say...Toby...why are you sad, why are you feeling this way?" I questioned, I felt like i'd hurt him in some way.
"Because i've come to a realisation!"
"And what realisation is that..." I asked, hoping it was good. I felt his hand on my chin, pushing my head up so that we were looking at each other. My eyes had adjusted to the light and I could see the tears in his eyes.
"When i'm with you I think i'm a better person! I'm feel happy, I don't feel like i'm not worth anything" He cried, pulling me closer to him.
"Your worth everything Toby!" I gasped, shocked at what he was saying. It only took a few seconds before his tongue was in my mouth, kissing me roughly, but it was also extremely passionate. I wanted him to say "I love you" I wanted to tell him that I loved him, but I felt like he'd already poured his heart out enough for one night. I placed my head on his chest, "Come on let's get some sleep" I whispered. About five minutes later I heard loud snoaring, I laughed to myself and closed my eyes...

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I was awoken by Toby's loud talking and laughing. "Seriously? His place? Tonight? Fuck yeah i'll be there, i'll bring my boys with me too" he said confidently before hanging up the phone. Toby was still completely naked, his semi-erect cock moving as he paced the room. "Who was that?" I asked, rubbing my eyes. "That was Alex, his friend Rob, you know the one who's seriously rich with a huge house? He's having a big party tonight, and us lot are invited" he replied. I smiled about Alex, he was on the team and even though his gang didn't hang round with ours, we all got on really well with him and it was really pleasant that he invited us to a party. "Let's go get some breakfast i'm proper hungry" he muttered, and started walking out the door, still naked. I fallowed behind him, Toby had a small bum, it was really toned and I liked the way it got wider as it reached his hips. I could hear his fingers tapping away at the key's of his mobile while he trudged downstairs in his usual lazy manner.

After some toast and a glass of well needed ice cold apple juice, I figured it was time to head home. I went upstairs to brush my teeth, once again trying to sort out Toby's bed, we must toss and turn a lot during the night. When I came downstairs I collected my school uniform which Toby had practically torn off me the night before. I walked back into the kitchen with my school bag on my shoulder. Toby looked up from his drink and pouted. "What's up?" I said, walking over to his seat. "Your leaving me" he said, and pretended to sulk. I really loved the playful manner Toby had sometimes. "Awww, i'm sorry baby" I said, playing a long with him. "No! No, i'm mad at you, theres nothing you can do to make me forgive you!" he said, his pout got bigger and he looked away from me. "Oh really?" I thought, and without warning him I dropped to my knees and gripped his cock. The minute I touched it it became harder and warmer. I stroked his foreskin up and down, rubbing the tip and hole with my thumb. My hand was soon soaked with sweet liquid which I licked up off his cock and my hand.

I felt his large hands grab the back of my head and push me forward, his cock slid into my mouth and down my throat. I relaxed and took him all the way into my mouth, his thick pubes itching my nose. I went straight the work, swirling my tongue round and round the head of his cock while sucking rougly on the shaft, his hands guiding the depth and rhythem that I sucked him. "Yeah suck on that cock Ty!" he panted running his fingers quickly through my hair. It hurt a little bit, but wasn't unbearable. I liked the fact that Toby was strong and could do whatever he wanted to me. There was spit running down my chin but I didn't care, I kept working his dick in and out of my mouth, I couldn't believe how naughty I could be. "Yeah Tyler you little bitch, suck on it, come on, harder!" Toby groaned, getting more excited by the second. His delicious cock was extremely hard and throbbing and I knew what was coming. I sucked harder and harder, taking him down my throat, but not too far as I wanted to taste his cream. "Oh yeah, here it comes! Oh shit, oh shit!" he moaned and started moving his hips, pumping his squirting cock deep into my mouth.

A few more trembles from Toby's legs and it was all over. I swallowed happily and stood up. "Do you forgive me now?" I said, smiling sweetly. He didn't say anything, he just stood up and forced me against the wall. Quicker than a flash our lips were together, tongues fighting each other, but of course his won. He kissed me like I was his own personal possession, and I guess after everything we'd been through I was. As I approached the front door I didn't want to leave Toby's house, I wanted to stay with him for the rest of the day. "Come to mine later, like around half seven? And we'll meet everyone at the party alright? I wanna go there with you" Toby said, kissing my lips again. I was happier than ever leaving his house. This time I hoped Lauren wasn't going to pay a suprise visit to Toby. I smiled to myself, I was practically skipping home, I knew she wouldn't, and even if she did he would send her away, do you know why I knew this? It's because I trusted him now. I trusted him completely!

"Did you have fun at Dan's house?" My mother asked when she heard me coming through the front door. "Yeah it was great!" I replied, I didn't even feel guilty about lying to her for once. She walked into the hallway and sighed at me, "I wish you'd come home and changed your clothes, it just not very hygenic" she muttered, she was a total clean freak. My mother then started to pull on my shirt, "Come on take these off so I can wash them for monday, are you going out again tonight? Because if you are then i'm going to have to get Andrea from next door to look after James, me and your father are planning to go out for dinner and we won't be home till late" she said. "Yeah i'm going cinema with Kai tonight, then probally going to sleep round his" once again I didn't feel guilty for lying. "How lovely, he really is just a lovely boy, say hello to his parents for me!" my mother cooed before heading back into the kitchen leaving me standing there in my undies.

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"Hey guys!" I said confidently, strolling over to the gang with my arm round Ty. There was a lot of busy and noisy talking before one of the girls descided that we should head up the drive and get into the party. Rob's house was pretty amazing to say the least. The outside of the house was the kind of place you'd exspect a horse and carriage to pull up to take him and his family into town! We could hear the extremely loud music from outside the house. I knocked loudly on the door. Neither Rob or Alex opened, it was this random guy who was extremely drunk, which probally meant a lot of people who weren't even invited were here anyway. Inside it was a lot more modern, which suprised me. Their were people passed out all the way up the stairs, and a lot of people dancing in the kitchen. The gang split up pretty quickly. "Let's go get us a drink" I whispered in Tyler's ear and pulled him into the kitchen. We had to force our way through a bunch of people, most of them I knew and they nodded as in to say 'sup' but half of them were strangers.

"Tyler! TJ! Hey!" we heard loudly behind us. We spun round the face Alex, the guy who invited us to this party. "Hey Alex, what's up? We were just looking for something to drink" I said. "Yeah! I need another drink too!" he slurred but we all knew he clearly didn't. He too shoved his way through the crowd and walked over to the cooler, he dug through it and handed us both a large can on beer, then got a bottle of god knows what for himself, and stumbled back into the crowd. Soon we had been there for over an hour, I think all the beers were starting to kick in and I could see that Ty was already tipsy. We had drunk loads of different things, and danced. It was really weird for me just stick with one person for the night. We did another tour of the house and saw Harry and Dan chatting away with other people. "Hey lets go see what there up to!" Tyler said, and then start giggling when he heard his drink voice. "I need some fresh air, you go over to them and i'll meet you later, okay?" I said, and leaned down and kissed him gently. More gently than I knew I could. I watched him sway over to them and join the conversation.

The house was full of people and I felt really hot and stuffy. My mind was hazed and I ventured round the house until I found the backdoor. There were atleast eighty people outside, some of them mucking about in the pool. Others sprawled out on the grass or on chairs. I spotted Megan and Rose sitting and talking with some other girls. I walked over and joined them. The whole time I was in the garden I could feel eyes on me. It didn't phase me, because often someone was checking me out, I just smiled to myself. I felt better, and I was heading back up the garden to find Tyler, honest I was! And I would of actaully found him, if I hadn't of spotted an extremely cute guy by the ice bucket, searching for something to drink. He kept glancing at me, we both knew we'd seen each other. He turned around and leaned against the table, waiting for me to come and speak to him. I gathered all my confidence and strolled over to him.

"It's Kyle" he said to me, grinning and holding out his hand, I shook it.
"Hey Kyle i'm T..." but he had already cut into me.
"I know who you are, i've heard a LOT of stories about you, not all of them good" he said laughing.
"What sort of things?" I asked, laughing too. There were a lot of rumours about me, not all of them true, but they were never bad or disgusting, just outragous, but then again I was outragous sometimes, so I didn't care.
"Just that your the notorious player of this town" he whispered and pressed himself against me, "But I don't mind" he said seductively. He was wearing tight blue jeans and just a plain white shirt, but it was unbuttoned completely showing his flat but toned abs and small pecs. I noticed as we talked he would often fluff up his bright blonde hair and his eyes would sparkle as I made jokes or that he'd lick his small pink lips as his eyes wondered up and down my body. He might of been a bit small, but he was really cute, really sexy.
"You keep looking around, you got a girlfriend or something that's here?" he giggled.
"No, I came with this guy, were sorta together" I said, I hadn't even realised i'd been looking around nervously the whole way through the conversation.
"Sort of? So your not actually in a relationship?" he pressed harder against me.
"Well we haven't made it offical, but after the things we say, and all the stuff we do it's kind of obvious that-"
"So your not actaully together, you haven't asked him out, or stated that your in a relationship with him?" he said loudly, cutting into me again.
"No..." I sighed, I felt guilty, but also hot and horny for this guy.
"Well then" he smiled, winking at me.

I felt him undo my jeans and slip his hand in, my cock went stiff, as well as the rest of my body. I heard his seductive giggle again as he withdrew his hand. "If your nervous about it, we could always go upstairs" he questioned innocently, but I knew there was nothing innocent about this guy.
"Someone might walk in on us..." I said, my guiltiness was almost gone and replaced by pure lust for this stranger.
"We can do it in the bathroom, that has a lock."
"You sure? I might be a bit too much for you" I joked.
"My ex-boyfriend had a pornstar dick, I bet could ride you easy" he said, running his fingers through his hair. I knew what his intentions were, I found it sexy that he didn't hide the fact that he wanted to fuck a popular guy, that he wanted to see if the rumours were true. He held my wrist and took me back into the house, pulling me through the crowds of people. When we passed the living room I saw Tyler in there still talking to the guys, but he didn't see me, thank god!

We both stumbled up the stairs, trying not to step on the random chicks passed out on the stairs. We finally made our way into the last bathroom. Kyle shut the door and then turned round to look at me. He studied me for a while, undressing me with his eyes. "Right..." he said, staring intensly at me, there were a few minutes where we just looked at each other, our breathing getting louder and filling the air. Suddenly our lips were together, tongues down each others throat, my hands slipped down the back of his tight jeans and squeezed his small soft arse causing him to moan into my mouth. He smelt so good! I wanted to feel bad about what I was doing, I wanted to feel guiltly but for some reason I couldn't. Soon he was on my knees, he almost ripped the button off my jeans as he prized them open and reached inside. Pretty soon I was recieving an amazing handjob. "Fuck, not the biggest i've had but you've got such a nice dick baby!" he sighed, and started licking the head and my piss slit, getting it soaking wet with his spit.

Kyle's lips wrapped round my cock and his head started moving up and down, sliding up and down my shaft, tasting me on his tongue. I shut my eyes and relaxed. I placed my hands on the back of his head and pushed him down on my cock, making him deepthroat me. This guy obviously had a lot of exsperience because was great at giving head. I blocked out all my other thoughts and focused on the blowjob I was getting. We were getting into now, and I was about to cum. My hips were rocking, pumping my cock in and out of his mouth when...

I heard an enormous screech, my eyes snapped open and Kyle was laying on the floor, face down, blood pouring out of his forehead and onto the floor. There was smashed glass all over the floor. I turned towards the door and Ty was standing there, half a smashed bottle in his hands, his eyes full of nothing but hatred. "What the fuck!" he screamed at me. I was stunned, I didn't know what to do, I just absent mindedly put my cock away and straightend my shirt out. "What the actual fuck!" Ty's voice was like a car break screaching inside my head. I felt two arms on me, they shoved me into the mirror, it cracked all the way up the middle. "Ty, Ty calm down, come on" I whispered, trying to stroke his face and calm him. Tyler headbutted me hard in the face and ran out the bathroom crying loudly. I knew my head had automatically bruised but for once I didn't think about myself. I thought of Tyler and the look on his face. I dailed 999, and straight away told them that there was someone here with their head cracked open. About ten minutes later I heard police cars and ambulences outside. "What happened?" "Who did this?" "Why did they do it?" So many policemen asking so many questions! "I was taking my friend Kyle to the toilet because he didn't feel well, some guy, I don't know his name just came in and bottled him, they obviously don't get on and under the influence of alcohol this guy acted violently" I lied, I knew I shouldn't have, but I didn't want to get Ty in trouble, I ran outside the house searching for him...

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I was running, I don't know where I was heading, I was in a field by the house. I was blinded by tears, I couldn't hear any roads, I was all alone in a huge open land. Atleast I thought I was alone, until I heard pounding footsteps behind me, faster than mine, I spun round, hoping it wasn't the police. Infact I would rather it be the police than the person I spun round to face. I stopped dead in my tracks, "JUST FUCK OFF!" I screamed when Toby was in earshot. "Tyler, please..." Toby begged.
"No, I can't believe you did that, again!" I said, but this time I wasn't afraid to cry. This time it was all too much, I broke down on the floor, screaming in fits of tears. I could hardly breath, "I trusted you!" I yelled up at him "I trusted you!" I kept repeating it, over and over again, until I heard a thud and he was sitting next to me, his hand on my back.
"I didn't want to Ty..." he said softly.
"Didn't fucking look that way!" I snapped, my face still in my hands.
"No, I mean I wasn't looking to hook up with anyone, I promise" he said, he pulled my hands away and pulled me into a sitting position, I didn't want to look at him, I wanted to burn his face off so no one would ever be attracted to him again, that way he couldn't hurt anyone the way he hurt me.
"Don't make promises Toby, you can't keep them. I loved you...I love you! I didn't say it because I thought it would be a bit too much but there's no point lying about stuff now. It's my fault for trusting you, so...I forgive you..." I whispered. I was hurting so badly, but I wanted him to know that I wasn't going to sink to his level, I was going to somehow some, way erase all my feelings for him.
"Ty, your making me feel bad..."
"You should feel bad, look at what you've done to me! And I won't be the last person you do it to either. I get you, I know your lonely Toby. You want someone to think your special, to like more than your looks or your reputation. You want someone to care for you, you want someone who just wants YOU... Well... I do! But It's never enough is it. What is so special about playing everyone all the time?" I said to him, I felt stronger now, there were so many things we needed to sort out and we were going to do them right here right now.
"I guess there are just so many people out there who think i'm amazing, who find me interesting and attractive" he muttered, looking at the floor.
"I think all that and more Toby? So why can't you just have me? I would of given you everything!" I whispered, I slowly started to sob again.

"Ty...you nearly killed someone tonight..." TJ said very seriously.
"Is he going to be okay?" I was frightened, I didn't want to hit him, I just felt like it at the time.
"He's going to be fine, turns out the cut isn't that deep and won't cause any serious damage, and don't worry, I didn't tell them it was you. However i'm more concerned about the way you acted..." he said, looking into my eyes.
"I acted upset Toby."
"You fucking bottled someone Tyler! That's not normal and that's not you either...what happened to the sweet little boy, who was always shy but cheerful, and wouldn't hurt a fly?" he sighed.
"He's gone" I said bitterly.
We sat there in silence, the burning rage was still within me but slowly dying out like a fire, I hated feeling this way, I wish i'd never walked in. But to be honest I would of wanted to know. He'd fooled me twice so shame on me I guess. I stood up, the alcohol still buzzing in my head.
"Where are you going?" I heard.
"Home TJ" I said bluntly, and started to walk off, I realised i'd called him TJ, but I felt like Toby was something special and personal that I could call him, and we didn't have that connection anymore, I turned to where he was still sitting on the ground, "Oh, and this thing between us, it's completely finished. That means when you see me with another boy, I don't want you charging in and telling me how much I mean to you, or starting an argument, your just going to have to get over it." I sounded confident, but as I walked away my heart felt as if it had crumbled into dust and tears starting falling once again...

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"It's a shame the party had to end because of that guy getting hurt" Eddie said, wrapped up and naked in my bed sheets, waiting for me to wash and come to bed. But I doubt there was any point considering we were about to get pretty sweaty again. "Yeah I know" I said, unbuttoning my shirt. "Kai come here i'm getting cold" said Eddie, doing his cute little half smile. It was pretty warm in my room, but I found it sweet that it was just his excuse for getting me into bed with him. I climbed in, pressing my nude body against his, he felt so warm, Eddie was the sweetest boy i'd ever met. "I love you" I whispered, kissing his gorgeous lips. "Prove it" Eddie giggled, raising his eyebrows at me. "Well what do you want tonight Eddie, go on it's my treat?" I smiled, kissing his small nose. "I want you to give me a blowjob" he said confidently, looking into my eyes. I was shocked, "Eddie, i've never done that before..." I said trying to keep my cool, "What if I don't...you know, do it right?" "I know it's your first time so I won't be bothered if it's not amazing, i'm sure you'll be great, your amazing in bed, this will be a walk in the park for you" he said reasuring me completely. We cuddled for a while, our heart beats getting louder as we grew excited about the night ahead...

Eddie tore the covers off us and licked and sucked on my nipples, it felt amazing, I couldn't ever get enough! His full lips slowly kissed down my abs until he reached my semi-hard cock. I felt his tongue lick the tip, warming me up completely, "I'll go first" he whispered, smiling up at me. Then he quickly eased his mouth down until I was filling his tiny mouth. I watched him close his eyes and slide his mouth up and down my cock making me shudder and gasp. He then pulled off and planted a few kisses on my shaft, before going underneath and licking my balls, making them tight and wet with each stroke of his tongue. As he pulled off I grew extremely nervous about sucking his cock in return. Eddie lay on his back and grinned at me, "Come on, it's not half as big as yours. If I can do it with that massive thing, then you can do this!" he giggled, glancing between his cock and mine. I leaned down and opened my mouth and started his soft balls, they tasted weird, but in a good way. Eddie took my face in his hand "Come on..." he said gently, guiding my head towards his cock. I lowered my mouth onto his cock and wrapped my lips round it. "Oh yes...Now suck it like I suck yours!" Eddie groaned, running his fingers through my hair. I started moving my head up and down, taking him deeper into my throat each time I went down on him.

After a few minutes I felt him pushing my head away. "That was amazing for your first time Kai" he said, grinning at me. "Was it, or are you just saying that because you don't want me to feel bad" I mumbled, looking away from him. "No, look Kai, i'm still hard!" he laughed and cuddled into me. "Finger me" he whispered into my ear and then pressed his lips against mine. I hoped up and went over to my draw, I pulled out a pot of lube and smeared it all over my hand. I walked back over and Eddie spread his legs for me and I pressed my finger against the dark pink hole. It slid in, his tight arse clamped around my finger and I fell in love with it all over again. I started sliding my finger in and out of him, feeling him relax and tense with each penetration of my finger. I slipped another finger inside him and started moving my fingers faster, losening him up, getting him ready for something much bigger. Eddie put his arms round my neck and pulled me down till I was laying ontop of him and kissed my lips again. I responded my sliding my tongue into his mouth and masarging his with it, his hands guided my cock into his hole. He groaned slightly in pain into my mouth but then relaxed and let me enter him.

I started pumping into him slowly, when I noticed something...I was looking at his shoulder and saw the large scar that he had gotten from his beating. The blood boiled inside me, I couldn't believe this had happened a week ago and i'd still done nothing! In the space of seven days Eddie could of easily been attacked again because I didn't make sure that Barry got the message not to mess with him. I hadn't even said a word to him and I saw him each day at school. I felt mad at Eddie for not letting me go after him when I wanted to, I was mad at myself for doing fuck all! I called myself a boyfriend yet I hadn't made sure he was protection from all who wanted to hurt him "Stop." My rhythem started getting rougher, I bit down on my lip, losing controll with my anger "Kai stop!". I had flashbacks of Eddie's face and mangled body as I opened the front door to find him a battered heap outside, the way he'd cried, the way I cried too and the fact that he was scared..."KAI STOP!" Eddie screamed. I had heard him say stop a few times before, but was too deep in thought to hear him. I looked down at him, his face was of pain and shock. "Why didn't you stop!" he sobbed as I pulled out of him.

When I looked down I realised there was a fair amount of blood on my cock and soon it was coming out of his abused hole too. I bit my lip, I hated myself for taking my anger out of him! I stood up and put some tracksuit bottoms on. "You really hurt me Kai..." he whispered, his face in his hands. I walked over and tried to touch his leg. Eddie looked at me in horror and forced my hands away, "No! Don't come near me Kai!" he cried. "Eddie, I didn't mean to, I just saw that scar Barry gave you, and it made me mad..." I sighed, trying to sit next to him. Eddie pulled his legs up and held himself, he pressed himself as far away from me as he could and wouldn't look at me. "Fuck sake, I fuck up every fucking thing!" I screamed and shot up off the bed and spun round to face him. "Stop yelling...you always yell..." Eddie sobbed. "No shut up! This is your fault! If you had just let me get Barry Goodman like I wanted to, I wouldn't be feeling guilty, I wouldn't be so fucking angry!" I screamed. I spun round and started pushing everything off my desk, some of the more delicate objects smashing onto the ground. "It's not my fault, you took your anger out through sex, and when I told you to stop you didn't, that's pratically rape Kai...don't ever blame me for that..." he cried.

"I DIDN'T, I'M NOT THAT SORT OF PERSON! WERE IN LOVE! YOU WANTED SEX!" I yelled and grabbed onto him, fear flooding his face. "Kai... get off me please..." he begged, tears spilling down his cheeks. When I saw those tears my anger calmed and little and I managed to let go off him. As soon as I did Eddie went to get his clothes and quickly put them on.
"You do something to me Eddie..." I whispered, trying to put a few things back on my desk.
"I know...and it's not healthy for either of us..." he said, pulling on his jumper.
"Where are you going Eddie..." I said, I could feel myself about to cry.
"I think we need a break from each other for a while Kai, your hearts full of too much revenge, i'm pretty sure this isn't the real you, I don't know if your prides been dented because you've done nothing since I got beaten up but..."
"Eddie, it's because I love you. Please we don't need a break, I just need help! I need to learn how to controll my emotions when i'm with you!" I replied, and when I said it it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Eddie tilted his head to one side and raised his brows at me, he then slowly removed his clothes again. "Let's go to sleep" he whispered, slipping back into my bed.

I nodded and removed my bottoms and climbed onto the bed. Eddie got behind me and rubbed my shoulders, "You get so tense" he whipsered, loosening the knots in my back with each rub of his hand. I turned my head slightly and he pressed his lips against mine, I was addicted to him...Some people smoke, drink or take drugs, but I needed him each and everyday, I needed him so badly. "I get inside your head don't I?" I heard Eddie hissing in my ear, his voice piercing through my skull and into my brain. I felt his hands on the side of my face, I turned to face him, staring right into his beautifully scary honey coloured eyes. "Tell me you love me Kai" he said softly. "I love you" I said, I could feel myself loosing it in his eyes. "What would you do for me Kai" he hissed again and once again his voice shot right through me. "I'd...i'd die for you Eddie..." I replied, like a soldier to his comander. He let out a laugh, it was meant to be cute, but I could hear the fact that he knew he had controll over me. "Would you self harm over me Kai? he said, staring at me harder. I just tilted my head to the side and smiled in awe of him, "Yes Eddie" I said, my mouth didn't seem to belong to me anymore.

Eddie grabbed a pair of scissors off my desk, "Show me!" he demanded, handing them to me. I didn't know if I was having some weird dream or not, but I grabbed the scissors and opened them. With the sharp blade I sliced across my arm, it stung and a few seconds later blood appeared and dripped down my arm. Eddie laughed, but this time it was different, I didn't like the way he laughed at me. "Right now stop, let's get into bed" he demanded, and I obeyed, putting the scissors down and turning off the light. I slid under the sheets with him and Eddie placed his head on my chest, "I can make you do, whatever I want" he giggled and stroked my stomach. "I love you Eddie, I won't hurt you ever again" I said, my head still spinning, I hadn't done anything with the cut, just left it softly weeping with blood. "I love you too Kai Kai" he whispered. About five minutes later he was asleep. Yes. Eddie loves me. Nothing and nobody will ever take him away from me, i'd kill myself over Eddie. He was everything! I wanted to cut myself again over him, I wondered why he'd made me do that, or if I had really cut myself. I didn't know what was real and what wasn't, I loved Eddie, but he was making me go mad...

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