Why don't you love me : Part 2

Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep
My black alarm clock sounded, The clock said 6:30.
School started at 8:30.
I hoped out the bed and ran towards the bathroom.
I took a piss.
I looked anxiously in the bathroom mirror, Making sure it was no blemishes or acne on my face.
"Neutrogena and clean & clear really helped this time" I said to myself
So I put on some more clean & clear morning burst on my face and started to brush my teeth with some colgate total whitening.
I left the bathroom after I was done with all those procedures.
I text my best friend porsha.
*Text messages*
Me:Porsha today Is my 1st day I can not wait....
Porsha:Nigga yu crazy texting me this early lol :D
Good Luck bestie...
Me:Rofl sorry for wakening you, And thanx bestie... ttyl
So After I got done texting porsha it was about 6:45
I got my hollister shirt I brought back in florida at the sawgrass mall.
It was already iron. Because I had Iron All my clothes last night, The shirt was red with white stripes and had a big hollister symbol in front of it.
So I threw On my denim blue skinny jeans, And then put on my high top all white blazers and tuck my jeans into them... I was looking dead fresh... I had to. At least for the 1st day...
I had got a tape earlier in the weekend, So I put my dreads in a pony tail and put on my white g-shock..
I was not rich But I was middle class and my dad had a nice paying job... So i through on my curve cologne

Knock,knock, knock..
"boy hurry up damn we go be late." my sister ashly screamed sounding really upset
I looked at the clock it was 7:00am
"Chill I'm coming" I said calmly not trying to make her any madder
So me and ashly walked out the house, We started walking towards the bus stop.
"Ashly you know winston likes you" I said in a funny voice
She mugged me
"child please, Nobody ain't stunting winston, All he want is some pussy, and he aint go get none from me, So tell him to go shove his dick
some were else" She said in a i don't care tone
"well damn you ain't gotta trip like dat... He a cool guy" I said
"Uh uh I don't want him" She said as she rolled her eyes
We reach or bus stop which like 2 blocks away from our house
"Alright but head, see ya after school" She said as she walked towards her group of friends she hung with at the bus stop
"iight" I said
I looked at my sister with her nice round ass and how it sit up in her skinny jeans... I thought to myself "only if that wasn't my sister"...
"Damn Nigga you look dope son" Winston said as he gave my 5.
"Man You know me had to show yall dat florida style nigga" I said looking at my rawrr as shoes
"Man Yall floridians got shit on our swagg" winston said like he looked better then me
Winston had on a white v-neck, with some skinny jeans and white high top vans... If i wasn't mistaken peoples would look at us as jerksters.
"What ever nigga, Where ryan???" I said trying to change the topic, Because I knew that yankees have nothing on floridians swagg
"He don't ride the bus his mama drop him off to school" He said
The bus rolled up it was kind of dark outside as we got on the bus so all I can see is lit up cell phones.. and then all I heard some one playing nicki minaj Your love

*nicki minaj your love verse*
"He the type to pop tags and be cockin the brim
Might breeze through The Ave, might stop at the gym
And he keep a du rag, keep his wave on swim
Wa waves on swim so they hate on him
Anyway I think I met him sometime before
In a different life or where I record
I mean he was Adam, I think I was Eve
But my vision ends with the apple on the tree
'S' on my chest cuz I'm ready to save him
Cuz I'm the one like I'm Tracy McGrady
And I think I love him like Eminem call us Shady
When he call me mama, lil mama, I call him baby"

Then My memory flashed back, remembering the 1st time I met ryan.
I looked at my pants I was getting a boner, Luckily Winston could not see on the dark bus...
We finally got to school..
The school was called new day high
The shcool was huge... it look like a mansion the paint look freshed the school looked so welcoming.
Me and winston stuck together in school we looked for ryan.
I showed winston my schedule and he said we have geometry and science together.
I walked to my locker and winston said He will catch up with me and lunch
I walked the halls of this new school thinking about How I could have went to my ft.lauderdale florida high school.. and how everything could have been different... I was daydreaming into a familiar voice startled me
"Whats up slippery" Ryan said in a calm tone
I was so fucking happy to hear his voice, I turned around... I almost melted I never felt like this about a boy... Not even my last crush lorenzo made me feel this way... His wave grease look so fucking good it complimented his deep waves... I started thinking about nicki minaj verse wa waves on swim so they hate on him..
"Whats up nigga" I said as we slap five
"Damn Nigga yu look fresher then a bitch" He said staring at my hollister shirt and my hight top blazers and g-shock
"You don't look bad either" I said staring him up and down.
Ryan had a plaid red,white, and grey shirt, with some light brown cargos and some nice canvas boats... He looked so damn fine with his 2 diamond earrings that nearly blinded me.
"Thank you" He said
"Now lets go find winston o broke ass" He said
"iight" I said as we started to walk
We walked through the halls the halls was clean and waxed red lockers where every where.. the bulletin boards was stack with welcome back to school signs and try outs on them... since we had a inside school
we got to walk through halls and upstairs and shit.
The girls where just dying for the both of us, I was a red bone, and ryan was a nice brown caramel color... the girls was just dying for us... and the niggas where just hating and trying to keep there hoes under control... I knew I could have any hoe in here but I wanted the nigga who was walking by my side. I wanted him to love me. His personality was so gorgeous.
I think its because I'm a virgo and he is a taurus.. I was born september 22nd and he was born may the 9th.
He had leadership personality and was quiet.
I was quiet to but around my friends i'm a talker and he loved me I knew he did... but I knew he will never tell me.
We walked past a fagget in the halls
"Brah I hate them fucking fags, I don't mind if they where quiet and kept to them selves But I hate the ones who just strut around and talk all loud and just act Like A straight female" He said with disgust on his face
I got kind of nervous, but I thought to myself, "even if I was gay I wouldn't be the one who be strutting and acting like a little queer" So I agreed with him
"yeah me to, I would be friends with the ones that act like a nigga or the ones that's bi, ya feel me" I agreed
"Yeah.." he looked at me
I could tell he tell he was thinking about, what i told him this weekend.
"see your not like dat your cool, and plus your bi yu like girls to" he said making feel better

I thought to myself why can you be bi to... Why Can't feel the same way As I did... why???!!!!!!!! Why Don't you love me
I Started to think about beyonce new song why don't you love me..

*BEYONCE Why don't you love me lyrics*
Why don't you love me?
Tell me baby why don't you love me?
When I make me so damn easy to love.
I got beauty i got heart keep my head in dem books I'm sharp but you dont' care to know I'm smart

We ate brekfeast with winston
Then I went to 1st period I met a girl name rachael who met up to my standards and gave her my digits.
My teacher was smart and all my other periods went by quick some of the teachers where snobby some where mean but none to less I liked this school, It was the high school dream.
I finally got to gym
We worked out, Played basketball and then We had to take a shower
"Damn nigga yu ripped" Eugene said to me as he stared at my 6 pack
"You already know brah brah, Keep this body in shape" I replied
I got in the showers and wash off and sneaked a peek at some other boys... The only one that looked good to me was maryse thompson he was a hansome young men he was about 6ft tall, He had a built body, Ha a yellow skintone, Not a red skintone but yellow, He had some tattoos that were colored and stood out on his sexy body...
The water ran down his body, dripping down right into his pubic hair, It was just the sexiest sight I ever seen... he had a hair line leading to his gorgeous pubic hair, His dick was on soft and was 6in and fatter then a sausage, It was yellow like him his dick head looked like a apple. His balls dint have much hair it was so gorgeous just sitting in that perfect sack.
I thought to myself " GOD DAMN, God has really blessed some of these boys"
I Got out the shower last the locker room was empty it was just me and maryse drying off...
I got my clothes on and was heading out the door; Before I could maryse push the door back closed.
"Damn i seen how you was staring at me in the shower son, and I want some of that ass you got back dere" He said in a low deep tone
I was nervous, I was in love... I could not think I thought about ryan and I how I fell in love with my crush I couldn't do this to him.... But As I looked in maryse willing light brown hazel eyes I could Not resist, this was once in a lifetime thing.
I couldn't control my mouth and blurted out
"Alright meet you where???" I said in a nervous voice
"Call me and Ill tell you the directions to my house" maryse said as he looked at my sexy face/
"Iight brah" I said still tyring to sound manly but still nervous
"But brah promise you won't tell nobody" He sound anxious for my reply
"Promise, I don't want nobody to know I was kind of sexually attracted to boy either" I said with a smile

I walked out and school started to fly by... I was in luck I was go fuck a girl and loose my virginity to a boy... I was kind of scared to about the boy situation
So I got of school I rode the bus home
My mom Dint have a problem with me bringing a girl home neither my dad
So rachael and I and my sister ashly walked home together after we got off the bus
"I guess you go with my brother" She said kind of slickish
Rachael had sweet personality about her, Even though it was are 1st day meeting I could tell she was no hoe or no girl who go around sleeping with no other man besides look at me I'm every thing girl needs..
"Yeah He is such a sweet heart" she said in a marilyn monroe tone

I was shocked to hear how she talked, She talked just like marilyn monroe that shit turn me on...

"Girl Your boyfriend is a cunt" ashly said joking
"she said o well.. he is my cunt" rachael said smiling at me
"Damn right, This the type of girl I need right here Its' like I knew you forever" I said looking into her eyes
"Aww" rachael said
We started to french kiss, i could taste her trident gum we where kissing about 60 seconds exhanging the gum and massaging each others tongue.
"give me my gum back" She said in a innocent voice

By now we reached home and where in the living room

"Nope you gotta come and get" I said joking
"Stop playing quincy" She moaned in a innocent voice
I ran in my room
"come get it girl" I said in a seductive tone
"I'm not going back there.. you think im dumb" she said knowing what was going to happen
So I came back out there
and started tongue kissing her I gave her back the gum through are tongue battle
"There cry baby" I said with a playful tone
I started to kiss her again and we started to make out, as we stood I rap my hands around her ass, and then lift her up and carried her into my room on my bed... She looked nervous, I could feel her heart beating real fast.... I started rubbing her tits and started feel up her ass
"I can't do this" Rachael said
"something wrong" I replied
"yes I think we are taking this to fast and I don't want to seem like a hoe.. Because I'm not" she said fustrated
"I don't think your a hoe, I think your a beautiful girl with an amazing personality." I replied
"Usually I don't let dudes take me to there beds on the 1st day Its just I feel like I knew you forever..." Rachael couldn't finish
"I love you rachael Wilson" I said

I really love this girl it feels like I known her forever.
She is 5'4, She is a nice brown color like ryan, her face structure reminds me of megan good. She Have amazing curves and a nice but no to big ass... she was clean she kept up with herself. I Could tell.. She was just like another ryan in my life
We made out some more
"Your right we don't have to take it there now we can wait" I said
"Thank you quincy and I love you 2" she said back

I walked her home... I almost forgot about maryse, because rachael had me in her fantasy... I called him
"Hello" he sounded more sexier then ever
"Umm this quincy" I replied
"O whats up son" he said acting like he dint tell me to call
"Shit you... So whats up with them directions nigga" i replied
He gave me the directions and told me to be there by 6:00pm
It was 5:30pm now...
So I Got on the subway and went to his house... But in my mind something wasn't right I can't do this man on the 1st day I don't even know him.. I can't just be whore and fuck this men or last this men fuck me... I couldn't I loved ryan and rachael I could' t do it

I heard nicki minaj your love again coming from the subway

*Nicki minaj Your love chorus*
Shawty Imma only tell you this once, you the illest (dat for dat dat dude)
And for your lovin' Imma Die Hard like Bruce Willis
(bah ba dah dah oh)
You got spark, you, you got spunk
You, you got something all the girls want
You're like a candy store
And I'm a toddlor.
You got me wantin' more and ma ma more of
Your love,your love(yeah)

I started to think about ryan... Then I told him I was go meet him and winston at the park tomorrow

I got to maryse house then I knocked on the door
He open the door.

"come in son" He said as he gripped my ass
I was thinking I was about to fuck a girl and Now I got some man feeling up my ass this is crazy but felt so right.
He started to kiss me and My dick got so hard that I thought I thought the muscle was go break.. He was moaning in my mouth As we tongue wrestle.
He grab my ass and lifted me up on the wall and are dicks were bumping....
"Ahhh" He moaned
"Fuck I want you so bad" maryse sounded like he was about to cum already just from bumping dicks and kissing
He walked me to his room.. He layed me on his bed my
He started to take down my pants... then Took down My my boxer briefs
He started back up to my niple he started to bite it
"Damn nigga" I moaned
He started to lick down my chest until he reached my 9in dick
he started to suck it, His head felt so amazing, His mouth felt like a tight warm hole,
"Brah... Uhhhhhh" I moaned
As he was sucking my dick he started to lick my ass out, it must taste good because He was having a ball down there... His tongue was so fucking amazing I almost camed from him licking my ass so deep.
I started think " What am I doing I love ryan, I can't do this, i can't, I started cry
"Stop" I whimpered through my tears
"Whats wrong" He looked so scared
"nothing I got to go" I replied
I got my clothes on and I ran out the house
"No Don't go" He said trying to stop me

I ran past him I Could not stare at his face I felt so guilty... I ran I started think about ryan.. I was so confuse How Can i Be in love with some one who don't love, how Can I be in love with my crush... Those thoughts raced through my head... I finally got home and took a shower I was still crying... i cryed myself to sleep I din't answer no one calls, Not even my best friend porsha, ryan.And especially maryse who was blowing up my fone...
I just talked to rachael, But After I got off the phone with her I cryed myself to sleep...

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