Wishful Thinking : Part 2

He slipped his cock out of my ass and turned me around. I smiled at him and he kissed me. As though he wanted to thank me for being his sex toy. I liked being used by him in this way. So I kissed back. I noticed he had his hands on my dick again. I was still so hot for him and my dick was rock hard. With both hands he took care of my cock. I slid my fingers through his hair and bit on his lower lip. He was so focused on what he was doing to my dick he didn’t care. He was all mine for that moment. I put my hands on his neck and slid down to his abs and his stomach.

I was about to come when Justin licked my neck with his tongue again. That was too much for me. His hot breath against my skin and his hands on my cock.. I exploded.
‘Oooh yes’ I moaned and shot cum over his inner thighs. I leaned my head back against the wall and Justin kissed over my lips, my cheeks and my throat.

‘That was so hot’ he whispered in my ear.

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We both took a shower together, before we cleaned up the rest of the house. We were almost finished but I had to go home because it was already late and my dad should soon be there to pick me up. I was putting on my jacket and Justin brought me to the door. He didn’t wear a shirt but only some jeans and he looked so hot.

‘Soo.. you gonna call me later?’ I said smiling

Justin seemed kinda nervous ‘huh?’

‘When I’m at my dad’s.. you gonna call me?’ I asked again

‘Umm.. I don’t know.’ He looked out on the street and I stepped outside. ‘Gotta study for this Math Test later you know.. we’ll see’ he mumbled.

I was puzzled. Justin didn’t even smile. I walked up to him and gave him one last kiss before I got inside my car and drove away. By that time I already knew he wasn’t going to call me at all. I just wasn’t sure why.. Did I do something wrong? What happened?

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Next Monday in school Justin was the first one I saw when I was walking through the hallway. I didn’t talk to him ever since I left his house on Saturday.. My heart was aching for him..

He was as usual with a few other guys. I don’t know but there was something about him that concerned me this morning. Well I just smiled at him and thought about everything that happened between us this weekend.

I saw Justin later that day right after the second lesson. He was stuffing books into his locker. ‘Hey what’s up’ I said trying to sound happy but honestly I was kinda scared.

Justin turned around. He had this ‘WTF’-look on his face that made me realize I should shut up. Something was really wrong.

‘Eerm.. Look I don’t know what’s wrong but if I said or did something than I am sorry.. ok’ I think I must have sounded desperate then

‘Alright we need to talk’ he said secure

I added in a whispered tone ‘Just tell me what happened..’ But this disturbed look on his face didn’t vanish.

Justin took a look to his left and right. He looked pretty weak. ‘Wanna go outside?’

I knew we were only going outside because nobody should be able to hear us. Was he so ashamed of me? But more than that I was frightened as hell what he wanted to talk about.

So we walked through the hall and out to the schoolyard. We headed in the direction of the football field when Justin stopped. None of us said anything.

‘What’s wrong?’ I finally said quiet.. breaking the silence

‘It’s just.. I don’t know Pat’ he said kinda worried and looked at me ‘I don’t think I can do this right now’ his green eyes distracted me

‘But.. What ?’ I felt nervous ‘What are you talking about you can’t do what?’

Justin broke the eye-contact and looked down at his feet. I felt completely out of place. I was scared..

‘You don’t wanna be with me?’ I asked confused

‘That’s not what I said..’ he simply said

‘Then what are you saying Justin?!’ I started to get angry but he didn’t even answer.

‘I told you I love you. What the fuck do you think that’s supposed to mean. And I don’t know if you can remember but YOU were the one kissing ME that night. Are you just playing fucking games with me or what?’ I shouted.

Justin finally looked at me again. I later realized that there was so much more in his expression, he was so sad. But at this moment I just felt deceived.

‘Maybe we made a mistake’ he said

‘What?’

Justin looked away so I couldn’t see his face. I really didn’t care about any other people around us. My mind kept racing and it felt like my whole world just fell apart.

When I finally felt able to talk again I whispered
‘I cant believe you just said that’ my voice fully came back and I shouted ‘I cant believe you did that to me.’ I was so disappointed.

‘You know what Justin, it would have been okay if you just said NO right that night. But YOU USED ME and that’s just because you are so irresolute. It was okay for you two days ago but now you tell me it was all a mistake to begin with?’

Justin continued to look at his feet. It vexed me that I couldn’t see his eyes. I had never seen him speechless before. All I wanted was to get away. I turned around. I would just leave him there.

‘You don’t know what you want. Grow up Justin.’ I shouted as I made my way back to the school. I felt like crying and running away the same time but I would not let him see me like that. I would go back to my next lesson and pretend this never happened. My heart was beating so fast.

I was barely breathing when I went to my English class. Did my first love just broke up with me? How could he do that. The last thing I wanted was to lose him. Justin never was like this before. At least not towards me. He always protected me, he was always there for me. For the first time in my life I argued with him. I never expected him to act like this. I thought I knew him..

I had problems to concentrate on the teacher. I thought about his words over and over again. ‘I can’t do this.. we made a mistake’ Honestly I felt so stupid now that I didn’t see his reaction coming. I mean as long as I knew Justin he never let anybody get too close to him. I should have expected this. I mean I’m talking about Justin here. What did I expect?! That we would stay together till the end of time or what?! Shit.

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..another part wanted?