First time love

This story is absolutely true, names have been changed to protect privacy.

I spend a few weeks at my aunts house every summer its in a small town in northern Michigan, its just an escape from the regular country life.

I sat thinking about the diploma I had just received the day before and smiled, my family was ecstatic. This was the first time a male in the family had graduated in three generations, so its easy to see why every one is so happy. I listened as I heard my younger brothers voice coming down the side walk, he was staying here to see his girlfriend.

I looked to see my brother on the pegs of some guys bike, my brother Gabe jumped off the pegs and caused this guy to come down on the bike seat crushing his nuts, I couldn’t help but laugh. He fell off the bike in a slur of curses and groans.

I walked up laughing hysterically and helped my brother to his feet and asked who’s the poor guy who got castrated.

Gabe laughed and said oh that’s James, he’s a friend of Lynn’s.

I walked over to James and knelt down and said hey are you alright?

He looked up at me and waited a minute to answer, and said yeah I’m alright.

I held out my hand and said here let me help.

He took my hand and something clicked in my heart, it felt like a piece of myself long lost had slipped into place. He looked up at me and stood, he held onto my hand and just stared. He squeezed my hand slightly and smiled.

He pulled his hand away slowly and just stared at me, I took in his appearance. He was the same height as me six foot exactly, he had a small build maybe a buck fifty, dirty dishwater blonde hair and green blue eyes. I am by no means a slouch I have dark brown hair and green eyes with heavy muscle mass from years of manual labor, and a strong Irish bloodline.

He held out his hand and said my names James.

I took his hand and said nice to meet ya, I’m Arthur.

He smiled and said nice to meet you too.

I watched him as he talked to my family, he seemed very nice besides rotten sense of humor just like the rest of us. I noticed him watching me several times, that night as everyone drifted off to sleep we sat up taking turns on zombies. I looked over and asked hey old are you?
He said 18 why do you ask?

I shrugged and said well I’m going to smoke, you wanna share one?

He paused the game and said thought you’d never ask.

We went outside to the back porch and sat next to each other the rail sharing a smoke. I had long since known I was gay and open about it, I had paid for my being out in high school until I bounced a strait guys face off the urinal in 10th grade. They left me alone after that, I enjoyed being out I felt free. I decided to be brave tonight and looked at James and said hey you know about me right?

He nodded and said yeah your gay, so what?

I shrugged and said I thought you should know.

He shook his head and said no you thought I would get mad if I knew.

I took a breath and said yeah I was little worried, I’ve lost a lot of friends because it….

He looked over at me and smiled saying I’m not everyone.

I smiled back an said I thought so an looked back at the floor.

Hey, he said nudging me with his elbow.

I looked up at him, he had a worried expression on his face, what?

He nudged me again and said don’t get all emo on me.

I smiled and I rested my hand next to his, he ever so slightly moved his hand towards mine. I took a breath and intertwined my fingers in his and waited, he slowly squeezed my hand and left it there.

I looked up at him and asked does this mean your….

He shrugged and said I don’t know….there is just something about you.

I smiled and said same to you, I cant stop thinking about you.

He chuckled and said I’m glad its not just me then.

I thought for a moment then said what are we going to do about this?

He shrugged and said I don’t, I know I like you more than just as a friend.

I nodded and said well then lets take it slow, there’s no need to rush things.

He nodded and said thanks for not rushing it.

I shrugged and said hey I like you I don’t want to fuck it up, I want nice bitch to call my own.

He laughed and said kiss my ass.

I shrugged and said maybe later.

He just shook his head and said probably not.

I smiled and said you’d enjoy it to much.

We laughed and joked all night neither of us slept we ended up in the guest room sprawled out holding hands, telling each other secrets about ourselves. We heard everyone start to wake up around the house, we just laid there enjoying our last few moments of privacy.

James went home that morning after giving me his phone number, every moment he was gone it hurt. I wondered if he was thinking about me and what he was doing, not the oh is he someone else deal. Just wondering if he was ok, and if he was happy. I was laying half asleep one night and I got a text saying meet me at the park.

So I got up, dressed an walked to the park. I sat there wondering what was up, and why we were meeting at the park at one in the morning. I heard a bike coming up and turned to see James cruising toward me, I stood and walked to meet him.

He jumped off his bike and to my surprise wrapped his arms around me and kissed the side of my neck. I hugged him back and asked what’s up?

He pulled away but took my hand in his and said nothing I missed you.

I smiled and said same here.

We walked away from the park and toward a hill behind the old train station, we ended up at the top of the hill laying on my hoodie with our bodies intertwined just exploring each others bodies. It was getting really late and we started to doze off, I woke to James rolling toward me and resting his head on my chest.

He opened his eyes and looked up at me and said you have a strong heart beat.

I shrugged and scooted closer to him. He smiled and rubbed his face against my chest, he looked up at me and said I love you.

I was floored I’d been told it before by my exs but never had they said it first.

He looked up at me and said I guess that means you don’t feel the same…..

No I never said that it just surprised me that you said it first, I love you too.

He smiled and rolled on top of me and straddled my waist, he reached down and tugged at my shirt wanting me to lean up. I did and asked what?

He took a breath and said close your eyes.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. My heart stopped as I felt his lips meet mine.

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