Simple person, great love

It was a busy Friday, and after I had finished from the office, while driving home, an idea hit me. I wanted to go to the café I meet Kevin at, so I did. I wanted to have what he had; I ordered coffee with milk and sugar. I waited for my order, and started to remember the time I had spent with him. I took a deep breath, stopping myself from crying, the moment was heartbreaking, really intolerable. When the order arrived I couldn’t stay, I didn’t have the strength to hold myself anymore. I could see Kevin’s lovely baby face every where , each corner talked to me about him , I started hearing his voice , I put my hands on my ears and shut my eyes really hard, but I couldn’t stop what going on. I stood up and decided to leave, on my way out, I saw him, saw Kevin, and it was a moment that I would never forget. All sort of feelings got mixed up on me, happiness with sadness, I was afraid and weak, and I could not avoid the confrontation, so I meet him at the door. I could see the happiness in his eyes when he saw me, although he had company, he left them and stood to shake my hand.

“Richard what a surprise” he said with a smiley face.
I was really embarrassed I had no Idea why, but I talked back to him.
“Hello Mr Kevin” I said while posting a fake smile on my face.
“Are you by yourself?” he asked looking behind me. 
“Yes, but I’m on my way out actually “I answered finding my way to the door.
“Would you like to join us?” Kevin asked.
“No thanks, I’m done with this place” I answered back.
“Come on man it will be fun” he pledge.
I thought to myself, which kind of fun this place has, the last time I’ve been here made my life go down the drain, if it wasn’t for Brenda, and today it almost made me lose my mind.
“No!” I said it with an attitude, and left.
I headed to my car, by the time I had my seat belt on, I saw Kevin coming out of the café, it didn’t take him long to see me, and head toward me. My heart started pounding faster, I tried to place the key to start the engine, but my hands got shaky. I was thinking to myself, what does he want from me, why is he not leaving me alone, where were he when I needed him most. By that time Kevin was standing beside the door, so I had to pull the window down asking myself what’s it going to be this time?
“Something wrong Mr Kevin”
“Yeah” he answered me in a way I didn’t like; it was a mixture of anger and hater.
“What is it” I answered avoiding eye contact.
“It’s you Richard, what’s gotten into you lately, why do you keep putting me off?” I could feel the anger in his questions.
“I’m not, Mr Kevin” I answered very politely.
He got really upset, and opened the door and knelt, with one hand on the door and the other on the seat just behind my shoulder, our eyes meet and he said
“Oh, yes you are, and I thing I deserve an explanation”
“Don’t do this, Mr Kevin”
“Answer me Richard!”

I wanted to answer him and get the truth out of me, I wanted to give peace to my sole, but I couldn’t. how could I tell him that I wanted him to love me , I couldn’t speak, the words just escaped me , my eyes got glittery , I tried to hold my tears back, but it was to late , and by the time I looked at him , tears were already down my cheeks, I looked at him and said
“Kevin let me go, please I beg you “

He stood there speechless, I closed my door and drove away, and I could see him in my side mirror, walking back to the door of the café with his hands on his head as if he had been struck with a death warrant.

I went home, and sat, couldn’t do anything. Just kept thinking of what I had done to Kevin, was it the Wright thing to do, or should I have stayed with him. I’ve sat once with him, and my life turned hell after that. I could have at least been nice to him. Anyhow, I’m better of without him. I was getting ready to go to bed when the door bell rang, who could it be, I looked at the time it was almost eleven. I went to the door and peeked. It was Kevin , I gave the door my back and started thinking ,why is he here ,what does he want ,I just stood there, I was unable to thing , everything went into a freeze, the door bell kept ringing ,and I just stood there when I heard him say
“Open the door Richard I know you are in their”
I didn’t know what to do, I was mixed up with all kind of feelings, and then he started again
“Open the door, I need to talk to you, and I’m not leaving till I do”
I didn’t want him to wake up the neighbours, so I’ve decided to go a head, and listen to him
“Hello, Mr Kevin, is everything all right”
“No it’s not” he clearly said, finding his way into me place.
“Why? What’s wrong?” I asked, as if I haven’t known what was wrong with him.
“Don’t act clever with me Richard. I’m the one who should be asking that question”
“I don’t get it sir” I said politely following him to the sitting room.
“Stop being what you are, and answer my fucken question, why are you avoiding me?”
“I’m not” I answered as cool as ice and deep inside, I knew that, what I have been through when he avoided me was happening to him know, what goes around comes around.
He sat on the sofa looking at me. I offered him a drink and sat on the chair beside him, I felt that he wants to say something, but something was keeping him from saying it, so I took the curtsy of asking him
“Why are you her Kevin?”
“I want to be with you” he answered unhesitant, looking at me innocently.
I felt a shiver when he said that, but made no comments on it.
“I think you should go home, and get some sleep “I told him pretending that I didn’t understand what he just said.
He looked at me, and said” I’ll leave but you have to answer on question for me Richard”
“And what is that” I said
“why is it that I can’t stop thinking about you, why is that when ever I close my eyes its your face that I see , why is it that my heart pounds faster every time I see you , and why is it that when you walked away from me tonight, I couldn’t bare life, why Richard ”
I didn’t have any answer to him so I stood up and went to get a drink.
“I don’t know Kevin” I answered him back relentlessly.
He sat there very quietly, and by the time I got him a drink, he stood up looked at me and said “I don’t know about you Richard Brown, but to me, you are the person I trust and believe in and love with all my heart. From the very first moment I saw you, I knew that my life would never be the same. I’ve tried to get over my feeling toward you, I tried to stay away, it wasn’t easy not to return you calls, but all of the feelings I had for you were new to me, I was afraid to know you more, but now, I don’t care of anything in this world, I just want to be with you, love you, and be loved back by you, only you Richard”

I stood there amazed of what Kevin had just said. He started to walk toward the door, opened it and said while leaving “I’m sorry if I have hurt you, I’m really crazy for you.”
He left , I didn’t know what to do , but I knew it was irrational for me to let him leave , I opened the door and ran out, I saw him walking toward his car , so I stooped him and said
“Won’t you finish you drink, Mr. Richard”.
he looked at me and without any prior notice, he hugged me so hard that tears left my eyes , he looked into my eyes and said “don’t you wake out on me again love, I don’t think I’ll bare it, and his lips touch mine with all the passion that humanity new , a kiss that took my breath away.

I’ve been with Kevin for the past year, and he will always be the person who I would love for the rest of my life…